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i was beginning to feel as if i had some loose ends. such as, the upcoming school year. i was excited, yet the tiniest bit of my heart had some issues with it. and when i bade gaige farewell, i knew i was ready to move on.
i called that infuriating boy as i sped away from work, listening to the techno sounds of vhs or beta (burn it all down). he answered in that calm way he always does, as if he expected me to call. but you know deep down that he's blowing up like a volcano, and i mean that in an excited way not an angry way. its hard to believe that that kid i almost killed at the beginning of the summer is now the guy i chose to call tonight. we talked about him leaving and football and work... normal conversation stuff. i just had to tell him goodbye, goodbye for a very long time. i told him to call me when he gets back in town on the 13th (of september). he'll be playing football against ICC and duh, i'll be there. we'll probably do lunch or just nothing. which is fine with me.
i don't feel like i said a long farewell to a lover, but to a guy i would definitely like to get to know more. and the fact that he's not all about him like the last guy who "pursued" me was, well he deserves SOMETHING in return. i didn't know what else to say to him, without leading him on anymore than i already have. i do have a right to say goodbye to a friend who's leaving to go to a collee over three hours away, and that's exactly what i did!
after we simultaneously said bye, i snapped my phone shut and threw it in the drivers seat. i turned up the stereo which was then playing wake the sun by the matches. and oh, oh how fitting.
a new day has dawned. i've said my goodbye's to summer, to love, to people, to the way things used to be. i'm ready to start that new chapter.
i feel like taking an extra long run tomorrow to celebrate.
