So I was on the phone last night talkin to one of my friends from VA Beach and one of my local friends beeped in. Well, I hung up with one to talk to the other....her name will be Lee for this blog entry. Well I started talkin to Lee and we started hashin out rumors about Jon's death. I told her about my feelings as far as this town and Jentry and she proceeded to call me a bad person because I wouldn't blame him. Then when I try to defend myself she says that I'm tryin to push my opinion her. I told her that that wasn't true and if it was in her eyes then that's not my fault because she was doin that to me and that I natrually defend myself when attacked! We kept going at it and she said that death don't affect her the way it affects other people. She said she don't cry and she just accepts it and moves on more or less. Well I said that ain't my fault and and that it's not like I don't know how it feels to lose someone you love. "Oh boo hoo. You and your grandfather. Are you ever gonna get over yourself?!" OH HELL NO! I flipped out on her. Then she starts gettin all hot with me...more anger...then she goes "You just don't understand! You're not different from anyone else in that damn town. You act like you're some kind of saint because you say you're differnent and "mature". Well, news flash, YOU'RE NOT! GET THE FUCK OVER YOURSELF! You just don't get it!" And she hangs up on me! She calls me immature and hangs up on me! FUCK HER! She don't know shit about me and my feelings and thoughts. She never read my poems. Never been inside my head. It's always been about her and her damn needs and wants! Fuck her. I don't need her. I have good true friends and I don't need no fake ones! Fuck her. FUCK YOU LEE! FUCK YOU AND ALL YOUR DAMN LIES! CLIMB DOWN OFF YOUR HIGH HORSE AND TAKE A FUCKING LOOK AROUND! EVERYONE IS HURTING! DON'T TAKE IT OUT ON MY BECAUSE I BELIEVE IN GOD'S MASTER PLAN!!!!
friend
