Eyes @ MindSay

So I looked at his eyes and turned away, only to turn in the direction of another set of almond colored eyes. She silently begged and pleading making the same request, only in a softer tone. C’mon lets go. Let’s do this!

I have had conversations with these two before and each leaves me feeling a little silly, but delightfully full of love and freedom at the same time. I could close my eyes and come to my senses altogether leaving behind the wild and crazy experience they were imagining for the three of us. I could grab what little we needed and jump in the car until we reached the edge.

I’m...no we are going camping. I not only need a break, but I also need time to relax and not have the obligation of entertain others. I don't want the pressure of having to pretend or go over everything that has happened and wait for someone to lift me up and wipe my tears away.

Jim Thorp here we come....

 

One of the greatest things about reading science journals over the years is watching stuff evolve into real applications..I've been following this development for about 5 years now; BBC NEWS Elastic electronics see better By Jennifer Carpenter Science reporter, BBC News A new camera designed with a curved detection surface allows imaging devices to see as animals do. The camera, inspired by the human eye, relies on the ability to construct silicon electronics on a stretchable membrane. In the future, these electronic membranes could be wrapped around human organs to act as health monitoring devices, say US-based developers. The new technology is described in a paper in the journal Nature. Photosensitive displays - like the ones used in digital cameras - are made up of thousands of pixels and are usually formed on a flat, rigid, semiconductor wafer, explained Dr John Rogers from the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign, US, who led the team of researchers. "No animal's eyes are like that; the retina is curved," Dr Rogers said. "This curvature allows animals to see the world without distortion - unlike the images produced from cameras, which lose focus at the periphery." Hoping to improve digital imaging, the Illinois-based researcher and his team, joined up with a group of mechanical engineers from Northwestern University, to make a camera shaped more like an eye. The challenge was to import the thin, brittle wafer-based camera technology to a curved surface. The result was a 2cm-wide camera with a single, simple lens and a concave light detection system. Wafer-thin The team approached the initial problem by dicing up the surface of the silicone wafer into "chiplets" - tiny pieces of silicone that detect incoming light. Then, the world's smallest cables, only one micron thick - the equivalent of 1/100 of the thickness of a human hair - provided the electrical connections between the adjacent chiplets to make a circuit. Dr Rogers explained that if you squeeze the circuit, the cables allow the chiplets to move relative to each other. Next, the team developed a curved elastic membrane. Dr Rogers said that they had grabbed the edges of the membrane, pulling it in all directions, until taut and flat. Then the researchers dropped the mesh-like circuit of "photoreceptors" onto its surface. "We released the membrane, let it snap back and saw that it puts all the photosensitive chips into compression," Dr Rogers said. "The ribbons pop-up, forming bridges between the chiplets, and so maintain the electrical connections." Flexible imaging He added: "The interconnected mesh allows you to stretch, deform and reshape the circuit of photoreceptors [giving you an undistorted image]." This is the first time anyone has moved electronics off rigid semiconductor wafers on to a fully flexible surface. The applications for this "flexible, stretchable" technology are vast, Dr Rogers told BBC News. The photoreceptors could be swapped for any other type of receptor, and the whole circuit integrated into the human body for health monitoring. "Look at the human body; there is nothing rigid about it," says Dr Rogers. His team is already developing circuits that contain electrodes, housed in the same membrane, to wrap around portions of the brain in people suffering from epilepsy, to act as an early warning system for seizure. This technology could also be used in the heart to emit tiny electrical signals, acting as a very advanced pacemaker.

However, since that point in time I've yet to feel anything toward or for anybody, I've been going around having tons of people asking if I like certain girls.. but the complete honest truth is, I haven't met but one girl recently that I feel somewhat happy to be around... but the fact that she lives so far away, I mean.. seriously, just screws my plans up a lot, I've talked to her for like, the past two years or so.. but I don't really see anything happening.

As for everybody else goes, I think it's just that people in Knoxville have started to disgust me and make me hate everything about it, lately I feel like I've been stabbed in the back so many times so often, that I can't tell people anything, without fearing that it will spread to 10 other people, I have no intentions of hurting people and I definitely have some secrets that I feel some people should know, but not everybody..

sometimes I wish I had that love feeling again, but most of the time I realize that it's more of a hurt in the end, because apparently I'm a fuck up, somebody who seems worth it at first, but later on isn't, maybe it's because I'm somewhat afraid to get into anything too deep, anything that makes me feel dedicated to another person, even though I love it so much.. I guess you could say I love everything but love itself...

I've also noticed a lot lately that people are unfriendly, unkind, unwilling, unloving.. they're so self centered, that they can't even care for another person and I know lately I've held some grudges, but it's only when somebody does something completely uncalled for...

I bought Dracula and Vampire Stories, at Borders I asked my mom if we owned Dracula and she said no, then she also added, "Who's gotten you into that?, you're supposed to be the Christian kid in the family", which struck me really weirdly, seeing as how I seem to be the only person in my family interested in Christ or Christianity in general right now, so apparently me being a Christian automatically turns me away from Fiction novels? it automatically makes me hate anything dark? it honestly makes no sense.. then later on she told me that it was "really gruesome"... seriously? I don't know what was going through her head, especially when she asked who got me into this.. I mean, I've always liked Vampires, I just never really expressed it, but last Halloween I finally did, which apparently meant that I couldn't be a free minded being.. and that it was somebody else that turned me to it.. and I've never really been sick or grossed out by violence or anything of that kind.. so I thought that was kind of interesting.

so.. for the time being, I'd just like to say that I'm trying to figure life out.
I'm also trying to figure out if I'm really just sick of relationships or if I just haven't found anybody that interests me.

until next time,
and I'm surprised I'm still alive,
Later!

Jason.