Exam Results @ MindSay

Dixie currently feels:

Despairing

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Good things about today:

- We had a fire drill at break, and got 10 minutes extra because of it, hence, missing 10 minutes of Science.

- Science was a piss easy lesson.

- I got my results for my Science resit exam; an A, so I'm quite pleased.

- I got another bit of #1263 artwork finished in the library.

- I came home and played iSketch with Miraan, Adam, Ayshea and Stephen. It was fun, we had laughs.

- I talked to Adam for ages over MSN, sending each other really hilarious sound files.

- I laughed so much at a screenshot from our iSketch game, I almost crapped my pants. - Really, I was totally touching cloth. :)

[Though you may ask what's good about that one, I like to laugh, regardless of the consequences.]

Bad things about today:

- Results of my ICT exam, totally not happy. Two grades lower than I wanted.

- Thus, I have now given up on ICT.

- Thus, making only 3 out of 9 subjects that I still give a shit about.

- Coursework deadlines are indeed, stressing me out.

- I was tired throughout the whole day.

- I cried down my aisle after school, but Sammie comforted me.

- Claire is ignoring me. She seems really angry at me, and I don't know what I've done. I think she doesn't like me anymore.

- Emily isn't back... I haven't heard from her at all. No Mindsay comments, no emails, no anything...

...Where is my darling Emilpops......?

It is July the 1st today.

I should recieve my exam results this month. Exciting.

Will be 22 on the 12th.

Looking at DS titles on ebay.

Went clubbing with my friends yesterday because it was one of our friend's 18th birthday. It was absolutely amazing. ;) Dancing and drinking are two of the best things on earth, and to enjoy both luxuries with friends--simply priceless. :) The only mishap of the evening was when I snagged my stiletto heel on my lace skirt. It has a bit of a three-inch horizontal rip at the back now, but thankfully it's not that noticable. I guess I'll just sew it back up again.

Felt like making out with a guy I saw at the club, but I was sober and logical enough to know that I shouldn't waste a first kiss, much less a first make-out session, with a stranger. Besides, I don't think he's attracted to me; I think he likes one of my acquaintances. It would've been humiliating to kiss him and then afterwards be pushed away--or worse, to have been kissed back, and to discover later on that he was imagining that it was someone else or thinking of someone else while we were kissing.

*sigh*

Sometimes, while I see some of my friends and their boyfriends (or what's closest to their boyfriends), dancing, laughing, kissing . . . it makes me wonder when I'll find the guy for me. I'm not rushing or anything, but while I'm amidst people who all have someone special in their lives, it does make me feel just a tad lonely. I've had my share of compliments--that I'm beautiful, pretty, hot, sexy . . . and that I have a great personality . . . and I can't help but wonder, why don't I have someone to love me?

*sigh*

I guess it's not my time yet. I wonder when it'll be.

I don't want to go to school tomorrow. We've just finished our prelims, and so, results are bound to be out tomorrow. Damn it, I don't want to know. *sigh* Plus, I'm too lazy to do my homework. I want a break; I feel so burned out.

I'm tired of worrying about maintaining my 2.0 average.

I'm tired of stressing out about my course.

I'm tired of missing high school.

I'm tired of losing myself in college. 

I just want to rest. . . .

What day's exam results day? You'd think I'd know, wouldn't you? I obviously don't care that much. It's the 16th or 17th of August I think. No, maybe it's the 18th. That's a thursday. I somehow think it should be on a thursday. Maybe that's just because GCSE results were on a thursday. Well I have no idea what I'm on about here.

I'll have done crap. I did absolutely no revision whatsoever for my GCSEs but I came out with an A* and five As. Pretty good for doing nothing, I daresay. This time I did no revision at all again. Its just not in my nature to revise. Alas, this time I won't have been as successful. I'll have failed maths. But I feel that will serve me right for taking maths at A-level anyway. Maybe not failed, because an E is still a pass. I think I may get a D. I'm hoping that in English, Psychology and Media studies I've got Bs. I've been led to believe that I've got A-grade coursework in all three of those subjects. So lets hope I did somewhat alright in the exam to manage a B. Otherwise it'll be major resitsville next year.

Despite failing maths (i know I haven't got my results yet, but believe me, I will have done crapola), I'm still carrying on with it next year. Dropping psychology. Because it's just blah. Well, it's not. It is interesting. It's just a lot of stuff to remember. And I have a crap memory.

Next year also means university applications. argh. I'm thinking I want to do photography (ba hons) (just what does that mean?!) but it seems most universities want you to have Art Foundation. And I can't draw. Therefore I can't do art. I was supposed to do it in Year 9, art GCSE I mean. Miss Fish had me all lined up to do it, she said I could manage it, but about a week before the exam.. nahh. I couldn't do it. I can't draw! I don't see how you need to draw to do photography. I have the ideas, sure. I could write about them. But I-can't-draw! Dammit. I need to research more about university courses. Since I have to apply by October. argh!