Ex Girlfriend @ MindSay

Just when I thought it couldn't get worse....[see "Best Guy I Ever Dated: Fraud!"  and read about THE PLAN in that same entry.  I think it was my last entry]...turns out, he NEVER broke up with his ex girlfriend in the first place!  But he told me that he did!  So his ex-girlfriend was actually his "ex" girlfriend.  WTF?!  You see, this douchebag is originally from a different city, where his "ex" resides.  That's an 11 hour car drive from where we live.  We were friends.  He said they broke up.  Months later, he and I started to date.  What an asshole.  He cheated on me with 3 girls, not 2, but he should have never even been with me in the first place because as soon as we got together he was actually cheating on his existing girlfriend! unbeknownst to me.  And now that poor girl has gone and allowed herself to be impregnated by him and had his baby a few weeks ago.  Glad I never slept with him.  I never wanted to....it's almost as if I knew. 

[if you're a Friends fan, Phoebe says that in an episode and it's freakin' hilarious]

Friday night was a blast. The ex and I drove to San Francisco for drinks and dinner. We went to "Calzones" on Colombus, which is in the North Beach section of San Francisco......better known as "Little Italy". We ordered the Calzone of course, and the ex took a picture of the food when it arrived. She always takes the camera with her when we go to the city. The dinner was excellent. We split a bottle of Chianti wine.

After dinner we drove to Fisherman's Wharf so the ex could buy some fresh crabs that she planned to serve for her Christmas eve dinner. I bought several loaves of the sour dough french bread to take up to Lake Tahoe with me. I invited my ex to Tahoe, but she already had plans, but she agreed to fly up Christmas night and drive back with me early this morning.

We had a great time in Tahoe. There was plenty of snow, which is fine if you are looking at it from the inside of a warm cabin, but I don't want to be out in it for long. We did a little gambling last night. The ex won $1,400 on blackjack which made her as happy as can be. I won $300.00 myself. We finally headed home from the casinos around 2:00am, but not before eating a huge breakfast at one of the buffets first.

I ordered waffles, two eggs over hard, bacon, orange juice. The ex had bluebbery pancakes, bacon and OJ. We drove back to the family cabin and went to bed.

Christmas day was something else.  There were about 30 relatives over for dinner. A few aunts made the traditional Italian fare, baked Lasagne, Rigatoni, Manicotti.....we also had turkey, ham, stuffing, mashed potatoes, cranberry, vegetables.......and pies coming out the ass. I counted at least eight pies. There was enough food to feed a small army. I was in heaven.

Dinner was going quite well until Uncle Frank stood up and said he wanted to make an announcement.....Uncle Frank can be a pain in the ass when he has too much to drink.....anyhow, he stood there trying to get everyone's attention, and as soon as he had our attention he lifted his leg and farted really loud......I am not kidding.....he is known for doing shit like that. Aunt Rose told him he better go wipe his ass. It sounded like shit splattered in his pants, the fart was that wet.

My Aunt Rose screamed at him to sit down and act like a human being, while some of the kids at the table laughed hysterically.

What did you all get for Christmas? I was annoyed with Uncle Frank for nearly shitting his pants at the dinner table, so I sought my revenge as soon as he did it......that night I followed my aunt's dog "Corleone" outside, and as soon as the dog took a crap, I scooped up a turd with a paper towel. I went back into the cabin and put the smelly turd in a box. I wrapped it with beautiful gold wrapping paper, and topped it off with a red bow, I then wrote, "To Frank, from Santa" on it......

The next morning aunt Rose said, Oh Frank, look, Santa left you something, well go on, open it"......Imagine the look on everyone's face when he pulled a turd out of the beautifully wrapped box. Frank looked in my direction with a look that said, "I'll get you for this you son of a bitch".........LOL

I started thinking, really hard about the meaning of life. I mean, I'd just had a bout of near-suicidal depression, so I started contemplating things.

I realize the reason I'm terrible with women is because I'm still in love with my ex. Who broke up with me around four years ago, and that the reason I've been desperately trying to find a girlfriend was so that I could finally forget her. This is the cause of most of my emotional damage, but I figured, why stop there...

I have deduced the reason for my existance. And I have worked out a way for others to do the same, like I did. Imagin yourself, staning on a bridge that has no end, in the middle of the ocean, you can pick your weather, I like it stormy. Imagine another figure into this world you've made, I had a soft spot for the evil-looking-guy-in-hooded-cloak myself. And just start asking him questions. If you ask them, and have him answer them fast enough, your brain will compile his answers without you even knowing what they are. After a while, I asked him what the reason for my existance was, and he answered, "To contradict yourself."

I loved his answer. I'm always second guessing myself, and now I know why.

The reason all of this happened was because my friend George's new girlfriend bears a striking resemblence to my ex, and it made me think about her, and thinking about her always makes me depressed.

I loved her with all my being, and when she broke up with me, with some utterly beautiful wording I might add, "We've just grown so close, you've become more of a brother than a boyfriend." Please note that I'm paraphrasing. Anyway, after that, I just forgot how to feel. For a good week or so, I stopped being happy, sad, angry, all of it. I just forgot how. Simple as that. This may also be a reason for my bad memory, my trying so hard to forget her.

Now I just hate myself more...

I had an excellent Weekend...It definitely was the best I've had in a longgg time...

I got to see my puppy...........................and my family...lol...

I also went on a date with my ex girlfriend...which turned out to be an awesome night out, I haven't been in a relationship for about a year now...and my previous girlfriend moved to New York...and my first girlfriend (the one I went out with) we haven't dated since freshman year of HS....

It definitely felt good to be together again...like it was almost as if we had never broken apart...

anyways...we watched Amityville Horror (actually freeked me out a bit) and I stayed at her house until 4:30am....and then I came home and slacked around a bit....;-) Much fun....

then saturday I took her to the club and we danced for some time...stopped at my house first and picked up some absolut and went to her house....and drank and played games and reminisced....it was fun...

*Oh and Lisa....Miss BoomBoom left me her number...ha haha...

How is everyone else doing?