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Hey all you people watch out for something like this in case it happens to you.

Yesterday I recieved an email that looked like this

From:   < john PUSSYPATTER  @  MINDSAY.COM

               I split the address so^^    ^ that it would not make a link

Any way it is an email that looked like I had put   

IF YOU GET ONE OF THESE "SPAM IT" WITHOUT OPENING IT BECAUSE IF YOU OPEN IT = IT WILL INSTALL A DIALER ON YOUR PC

A DIALER WILL USE YOUR MODEM TO CONNECT TO A TOLL NUMBER AND MAKE CALLS THAT ARE CHARGED TO YOUR PHONE !

That can fuck with your phone bill big time by letting some hacker make international calls on your phone number without you knowing it.

I have the MICROSOFT ANTISPYWARE thing installed on my pc and it caught that dialer for me. thats like the fourth or fifth one in two mounths.

Pass the word around to everyone that you know. You can get the microsoft spyware killing thing by loging onto microsoft.com and downloading it for free.

Your virus scanner "WILL NOT "catch these dialers.

Thanks

WENDY

Minimus hissing at Flufi.

George W Bush would be hung from a rope of multiple lengths of the one used to hang Saddam Hussein for being a bad, bad man who killed his own citizens; Iraqi people. Yes? Is it not so?

 

The length of the rope would be determined by a factor of the multiplicity of Bush's killing of innocent Iraqi citizens, the displacement of millions of others and the physical destruction he caused and allowed there.

 

The longer rope would be to allow him some moments or minutes to reflect on the evil he committed during two cabals and his illegitimate tenures as president of The United States of America [aka AUSPONA].

 

In pursuit of peace, truth, wisdom and sanity,  David Tecumseh Schmidt

Have you ever said 'What can I do alone? How can I change things by myself?"
Can one person change the world? Sure they can! It's been proven  many times throughout history. Look at Hitler, Stalin, Alexander the great, Jesus , Joan of Arc. What makes a man or a women great? What made  people follow them? They are all different. Some positive, some negative but all inspired people to lay down their lives.
People probably followed Jesus because went against the status quo (yes folks, Jesus was a rebel kind of like Martin Luther) and preached a message of love and compassion..him I understand. And Joan of Arc claimed her mission was from God so that I get too..kind of. But Alexander  inspired people to fight in bloody wars for conquest, and Hitler  motivated people to do horrible things to  millions of people!Why?
I've read some of Hitlers writings...I was not inspired. But then again I'm not prejudiced. Does it take a certain "mindset" to follow certain people?
Lets look at Jesus. Who followed Jesus and why? Well, they were mostly, but not totally the poor , widowed and the outcast. The religious leaders and priests did not welcome his arrival and it appears when it came down to it most everyone abandoned him except his mother and Mary Magdalene.But martyrdom caused his population to rise once again and the message went on and was spread amongst the populace but still rejected amongst the religious leaders.
Hitler, on the other end of the spectrum, appealed to people through their hate, prejudice and bigotry. He fanned the flames their hatred and was able to make them think they were doing the right thing by torturing and annihilating the Jews  and others!
I wish I could say that people of love and faith can not be inspired to do wicked things but look at the Christian holy wars, the Salem witch trials, Jim Jones , Fred Phelps and the Branch Dividian.
I can't help but think people are just looking for a band wagon to jump on regardless where it's going!
Apparently we love to fight, we love conflict and drama. Just look which posts make it to the top blog and get tons of reply's....the ones with the most conflict!
Are we twisted, evil or what? Send me some feed back thinkers!

As you can no doubt already tell by some of my blog entries, you may have sensed that my writings have a strong presence of darkness. Not only is it the style I choose to write in, because I feel confident with that – but it’s also my self expression.

You may have heard how “everyone has their own little thing, or does something, to escape their reality”. That’s it. I write to escape my reality, and I dive and dig deep into my inner core to come up with the pieces of writing that you may or may not be entertained by. Writing is a fantasy, where I don’t have to THINK about what I’m saying. It’s a place I often visit several times a day where I don’t have to worry about being judged on the most passionate and deepest parts of me.

A writer named Isaac Asimov once said, “I write for the same reason I breathe; because if I didn’t, I would die.” – That is what I call my ‘life’ quote. It’s a quote that will travel alongside me for the rest of my life, I’m proud to say.

No matter what people say, the fire and spirit of creativity will not die.
No matter what gets in my way, I still will write. I don’t care what it takes; I will NOT let such a lifelong partner perish just because of something as weak, insecure, and measly as the human being.

You may recall, through several entries, how I continuously state how “I’m not the same person as I was two years ago.” Well, unfortunately for you, I’ll repeat it again – I’m not the same person, and I know for a fact, that I will never ever revert back to her.

I will tell you right now, straight up – if I was there where you’re currently sitting at your computer, reading this blog, I would shake you by the shoulders and tell you:
“Don’t let ANYONE under ANY circumstance PLAY with your feelings, emotions, or mind!” – That was a lesson I learned too late in a certain relationship that I managed to escape last month.

Because people have toyed around with me: they’ve torn me down, then lifted me into their arms, they’ve dragged me down into the never-ending pit with them, and then they would somehow find a way to get back to where they started – at the top of the pit – with me still remaining within the blackness. Humans have took me by the arm, treated me like I was fragile (which I am) and precious, and then they would magically take a dagger out from behind their back and brutally stab me with it thousands of times.

The human nature has hurt me. Humans have driven me to the point where I hate my own kind. They have made me afraid of them. The human race, unfortunately, in many ways – is something that I wish not to be apart of.
But we can’t rewind the past and magically make me a turtle, now can we?

Over the past year and a half, I have been confused about many things… Like the existence of God, as you know. My purpose of life and why I’ve been put here. I like to believe that my grand purpose is to bring life to those who may seem emotionally dead. To let them know that somebody actually cares about them. My sole purpose is to let people know that they certainly alone.

Maybe that’s why I’ve experienced so many things with the inclusion of pain. Maybe that’s why I have such a helpful and listening nature. Maybe that’s why I’m over caring. Maybe that’s why I feel the way I do; the reason why I am who I am, even today.
In what I think my main, sole purpose is – I can tell you that I have been greatly successful with it.

In my past, I have overcome many obstacles – even a few addictions. I was addicted to Video Games for the longest time, and although I still play them (not as often, though) my parents were talking about sending me to a rehab clinic over that next summer in a city far away. The only reason why I didn’t go was because there were daily needles, and those are my worst fear.
I’ve also overcome a two year depression, to which my mother thought that there were demons living within me. I’ve overcome self-harm, although that wasn’t an addiction, I made a promise to never do it again (to those who have done it, you may understand how difficult it is not to do it again!).

But yet, despite how good natured I may sound – I am very dark inside. I know, I’ve said that many times before, but I’m writing this so you can understand a side of me that nobody ever sees. The second side of me is somebody who I am definitely not proud of, and unfortunately, she appears more than I would like her to.

Over the course of a year or so, I have discovered her. When she takes over my personality, I feel no remorse over the wrongs I’ve done. I end up batting hands away when they offer me help or assistance; a reaching hand to grab my own and lift me out of the abyss. I have come to learn that I can save myself in those times, only to find out that I have continued falling. I sometimes think that everything – life – is just a nightmare that I hope and pray to eventually wake up from.  I just feel purely wicked and vengeful.

You can say that I’m both sane and insane at the same time. I don’t mean to put ‘insane’ in the aspect that would mean ‘give her a straight jacket’. My feelings from both sides of me are real and pure, I know that’s for sure.

I hope that gave you more understanding as to who I am.

I just often wish that there was a method of escape from this nightmare that’s been present for as long as I can remember.