Everyday Life @ MindSay 
this year my very first thought on January the 1st was:
It does not matter what i accomplish in life because no matter what i do in the end i will die and nobody will care.
this progressed to:
if i were to die right now the world would not be affected in anyway
which recently became:
my entire existence is pointless and does not affect everyday life in anyway
hope i didn't depress you
anyway,
"Bottom line, doing what we have to do to get some food in the fridge and stay out of the hospital"
vacation.holidays.
these are the two words that everyone on listening to it goes "aahh..rest, peace ...etc" yes, these are the two words that makes everone long for them, to wait and wait until they can have a nice holiday and laze their butt off.
but in my life it is everting exactly the opposite.
yes, i'm practically like the only teenager who has to sit at home for the next fortnight and listen to my parents quarrel. EVERYDAY. and do maths. 4 hours, everyday. not only is that it but i practically dont have a life anymore, and i've been known as "antisocial". i'm not antisocial...i'm just a little...shy.to put it in a way.
the next 15 days (my hols) will be like living a nightmare..everyday over and over and over again.
i hope i survve these days, and make it through.wish me luck!
[i realllly like reading replies..just makes me feel a little special so message comment...plese..]
new song...something just inspired me...if you like it message me =]
oh yeah, its the story of a girl,
the one who lives in her own world,
dressing up and make up,
on her lies and on her life,
she lies curled up in fear,
cant you see she's crying silent tears?
waiting for wrongs to be right,
in her own shadow she hides.
faking it was her regular ritual,
and everyday was the same story,
the one she writes with her own mind, in this old game of life.
she's the one you fail to notice,
but you can't help wonder who she is,
she's the one who will keep you guessing,
for that girl is someone like me.
looking down to the pages,
the ones that have her story,
read between and somewhere you'll notice,
there she lies , that girl thats me.
i'm the journal of secrets , the used up book of fantasy,
i'm the girl thats in these lines, yes, i'm her, and thats me.
Process!
Life is
a building project,
day in -- day out.
Each choice is a stone
to become part of the home.
Each issue requires its own unique response.
Today is built on what was learned yesterday.
Tomorrow's success will depend on what is learned today.
And so it goes. The process of everyday increasing Life
depends on the kind of structure desired and planned.
We create the nature of that building everyday
in the choices we make, our decisions.
I'm responsible for all my choices,
as you are for yours.
What kind of home
do you desire?
I'm trying ...
Love. 
~ B
You know I have been thinking about changes in one's lifestyle and how we might change our lot by making everyday changes that we never thought we would. Okay, so that sounds a little convoluted and vague but hear me or rather read me out.
I want something so so different from what I have right now. And honestly up until now I had this idea that somethings in my life were simply non-negotiable. This is not the case. Like with Science fiction writing (you knew I was gonna dump this in there somewhere didn't ya?) everything doesn't necessarily depend on something else. The real twist on the genre is that NOTHING is non-negotiable. You can have communities where no one communicates verbally or where lower animals talk incessantly to their owners, or heck where children are kept based on whether or not they can see 3 dimensions at birth or not (I don't know how anyone would know it but heck its sci-fi and no rules are sometimes the rule).
I try and try to shift my thinking but only to the extent that my so-called mainstays, well stay. This isn't the way to go about it at all I think. Perhaps I should apply my writing life to my other lives or rather maybe they all should have a meet and greet and whole new conglomerate should surface? I mean I am making progress but not to my satisfaction (and really that is my goal, satisfaction). I don't necessarily want science fiction/fantasy existence but I do want less stops in place. I want a more negotiable sorta life. A life where I can decided that I don't have to do A before B can happen, maybe since I am staring M in the face I can just take a bite out of that first an then cruise up on previous or subsequent letters.
You know what I mean?
Funny but while thinking about this I thought about a song I used to like by a group whose name I can't remember called Semi Charmed Kinda Life. The sentiment isnt literal but I get what the guy's getting at ya know. I get it. Oh and the group is Third Eye Blind
Okay so maybe this song aint about what I really want but I get the sentiment even if the some of the subject matter differs from my own. Goddess Bless Post Script--just because you havent seen it, doesnt mean it isnt there! Technorati Profile
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