Every Thing Nice @ MindSay

Although, I saw a romantic movie, I always cried and thought about him. He was my actor who never left me alone no matter. But now, he is going to be with another girl. I have to move on and move on from now on. I should have known about last experience with love with wonderman. My life is very loneliness and hopeless. I am worry in the future, maybe not we cant meet each other again or thing like that!! Hur..what should I do now, I know the answer always is forget and far aways from him or same emotions.

I would tell you guys about, right now I met someone again. He seems a nice, good and sensitive guy. He did the same way as I did to my ex bf. That is cool bcoz when I was talking with him, he also made me laugh and cheer me up all the time. But he is different from my ex bf bcoz he doesnt speak as much or even tho my ex bf was more romantic person. Everytime, I had a good conversation with him. I felt like I talked with my ex bf..Somehow, he likes the same thing my ex life but just one another thing my ex bf didnt like as much such as adventure or work out. I try to open my eyes and my love again..

I have to get along with him for reliefe one last bad dream. I promise myself that I dont have to love this one more than everything like I did last relationship. I just want to protect myself from a sad and bad feeling that someone cheated on me. Like I said, I never done or cheat on anyone else.

People have to get along with love, life and work all and all the time. And u know one of those things can kill you day by day. For me, I realized that was hard for me to forgive and forget someone who I have loved him more than everything. I would take care my heart, then I hope one day my prince will come true..

how we met: He used to be a customer at the store I worked at and we always said hi and whatnot but never talked. I mean this guy has an amazing body and I assumed he was a meat head. Well i was on OKCupid the other night and I saw someone made a new profile in my area and it was him! I debated for 10 minutes whether or not to talk to him but I decided to, even though i was insecure, and we talked a long time. Every night since then we'd talk for at least 2 hours, and then we went on the date last night

the date: well my date last night was excellent. I got there before him because the place was hard to find and neither one of us had been before. I was so nervous driving because when I get scared my chest hurts and my head hurt and sometimes my back sweats but fortunately I didnt sweat. anyhoo, he pulled up and I was so scared but he gave me a hug and I felt a little better. We had to wait 30 minutes for a table but we had fun talking outside and he kept touching my leg but it was ok with me. We had baked brie and bruchetta (I spelled this wrong I think) which was amazing! I had some sort of shishkabob thing which was nice but the dessert was awesome. It was creme brulee cheesecake. orgasmic-ness.

anyhoo, moving on. Halfway through or meal and conversation he asked to see my hands, and I was surprised andhe just held my hands, and played with them tracing the lines in my palms and whatnot. It was really nice ^_^ and then when we were done and were just sitting and talking I had put my feet up next to him and he started massaging my feet.

We then drove over in his car to Barnes and Noble so he could get some coffee. As we were walking up to it he turned to me and held my hands and looked like he was going to kiss me, but I got scared and layed my head on his chest. When I drew back to look at him he kissed me and even though I was scared I really liked it and then we went inside. He grabbed an iced tea, and then we sat outside on a bench and made out/cuddled for over an hour. I hate making out, but I love kissing him. At one point I was trying to lift his shirt up to see his  8 pack, but he wouldnt let me and we got in a tickle fight on a bench which was very amusing. At one point I was straddled across his lap kissing him, but I was just manipulating him into staying longer.

After a good amount of time had passed I released him and we got in his car and drove back over to where mine was. We made out some more/ there was some groping and slight boobage. I got out of his car to get my camera out of mine, and when I turned around I kissed him and then he picked me up and pinned me against the car with my legs around his waist. He was able to hold me over 10 minutes and wasnt tired at all. He's an amazing kisser <3

finally I forced myself to say goodbye and I drove home.

I love the artwork on this one it's very beautiful and very disturbing all at the same time. Some body really spent a long time on it. It's not a very happy thought but maybe that was something the person was having trouble with and needed to say it before they got to scared to live.

This is just a very nice thing for someone to say. Alot af overweigth people ahte themslves and how they look. Even if the person this was written about doesn't read it someone else might and it may make their day.

One of these day I'm going to off load some of my secrets at PostSecret.

Thanks for reading,

Mark M.

So yeah, I don't have much to say today. My tongue still hurts.

Tylers aunt paid rent for me this month. Soooo nice to have extra money. Karma is a great thing.

Talked to B twice yesterday. Had a very interesting conversation last night that led to actions that caused some very strange activity in my apartment.

So, I'm standing in the shower and all of a sudden an object that hasn't moved in several weeks came crashing down. Hard. It made me a bit nervous. I actually screamed. That thing should not have made that loud a noise. Actually it shouldn't have moved at all. Strangely familiar yet unnerving all at the same time. I should have been expecting it. I actually got some sleep though.

I HATE DRAMA!!!

 so today was nice...kinda. i have a problem though. Tim seems to think he could tell me what to do or who i could talk to. He expects me to go and tell him everywhere i go and every thing that i do. Which i think is bullshit because im not even going out with him. When we broke up he asked if i wanted him to pay my phone bill..and i thought to myself ..."more money for me" so i said sure if you want to keep paying for it. So, i discovered that he gets my phone bill then asks me who i've been talking to and what numbers are on my phone bill. fucken bullshit! For example, i've been talking to this guy i've known for quite a while but never really talked to him until now. he's really awesome. Eli's his name. We went out today...just dinner and the park. i wouldn't think he was that type of guy because he looks all tough and straight forward. But today i met the soft side to him. he was very nice and i had such a good time that i kissed him. So, you know i got to my appt (where richie is staying) and i get a call from tim...he says "where were you? i just saw you get home and some guy dropped you off" so i was like "yeah, so? i do have a life you know?" then i said "what the hell are you doing stalking me?" (imagine what he would have done if he knew richie was in the appt) so he gets Eli's number that he has on my phone bill from last month and calls him and says a whole bunch of shit to him ...he tells him that we are still together. Then, Eli calls me and tells me this...he was very understanding and listened to me explain. He understood the situation and left it alone. but tim kept going at it and he continues to call...right this moment. i just dont think my love life is any of his business anymore and he should back off!

  On the bright side of things...Eli told me lots of nice things ...he said how beutiful, gorgeous and stunning i was...at that moment i was like wow! but then again it's typical coming out of a guys mouth when he's on a date. We are supposed to meet for lunch tomorrow but, forst thing in the morning i'm going to go to tim's place and get this stupid thing he has in his head all sorted out.

  As for richie...he has been staying with me and it's been great. he has a job and helps me with the payments but i really dont need it...he still insists. nothing has been going on between us although i know it going to sooner or later. he's like my rooomate now and he knows the i go out on dates and he's fine with that and doesn't flip out. We hang out just us sometimes or with our friends. Sometimes i wake up and find him laying there on my bed next to me. but i dont mind... i feel bad because he sleeps on the couch. When he wakes up before me he kisses me and gets up ...i dont open my eyes or say anything. i pretend i dont know.

it's been fun though. i haven't talked to Shawn in a few days but that's ok...he'll probably call in a couple of days....he always does.  

I will let you guys know what happens with tim and why he's doing this.

        just let me know what you think of this.