Ending @ MindSay

 

Some people fall in love
I've just been 'round the edges
I'm still not really sure
about what it is or how to get it
Is love by chance or seduction
all that I have are vague assumptions
of what love must be like
what love must feel like
Tell me what does it look like
is it as beautiful as you

I've never been in love
Does that surprise you
I find myself alone
in the times where I don't want to be alone
It's not that I'm scared
of going to deep
It's just I'm no good at pretending
starting or ending
casually I'm imagining
what love must be like
what love must feel like
Tell me what does it look like
Make it as beautiful as you.

 

adam cohen 

 

     

I got a letter from Charles today...he said he married her.

      In memory of Harmony's gray stallion...I'm screaming from the edge, "may your freak flag fly foreverrrrr..."

 

lovespirit

 

 

 

Dixie currently feels:

 Depressed

 

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Watching the news just reminds you of how short life is.

 

Every day, it seems somebody is killed on the roads surrounding my town.

Every day, it seems a body has been found on a shorline or forest surrounding my town.

Every day, it seems somebody in a hospital in my town is dying of something.

 

I refuse to watch the fucking news again.

 

 

Bear in mind - I was watching the news, after arguing with my cunt of a mother.

She claims I talk shite - and all I was fucking doing was being honestly truthful with her about how distant I think we are.

 

Well fuck her.

I ground my teeth for the entire duration of the news - the story I wanted to see was on last.

 

- About some little chavvy kid who'd been banned from nursery school for having tram lines shaved into his hair.

Tram lines are chavvy - but this little dude was quite cute with them.

 

Even so.

 

I'm sick of having to wear long sleeves or arm warmers.

They're hot, uncomfortable and itchy - and Spring is finally becoming warmer, it's not the best time for having to wear them.

 

Yet, I want to get SR back out.

 

I just tidied my room, hoovered it over, emptied my backpack and put all my laundry away.

Thus, I moved SR from my desk to the stationery drawer - he was making the place look untidy.

 

But now I want to hack at my now-healing cuts.

Only the four bad ones that bled a lot are still really showing up.

The others are just dark pink lines, or scabbed skin which is healing over.

The ones that bled are still covered with blooded scabs.

 

I want to pick them.

I want to open them again.

I want to bite them and claw them and make them bleed again.

 

 

 

I completed Pokémon Mystery Dungeon last night.

The ending is all about losing friends.

And the fact I named my Eevee Emily, doesn't help.

 

I saved a baby dragon named Emily on Spyro 3 earlier, too.

The 3rd egg in Sunny Villa is named Emily - I got her by doing the first lizard skateboard challenge.

 

My lightbulb's popped too - so I'm sat here with my spotlight lamp aimed at the ceiling.

It makes the room go yellow.

 

 

Now I'm itchy behind my ears.

Maybe I shouldn't have washed my hair twice.

Or maybe I shouldn't have used that hair & body gel.

 

Argh, now the sides of my face are itchy too.

 

 

I was washing my hair earlier - and a proper massive glob of Herbal Essences citrus shite splatted me right in the face.

I just stood there, with my left eye squeezed shut from instinct - looking at the orange goo on my nose, thinking: "...What the fuck happened there?"

 

Nair is the greatest product ever.

Dad got me two sachets for 88p.

And now my legs and my underarms are silky soft.

 

I did the little patch below my belly-button too - it wasn't majorly hairy beasty, but it annoyed me.

Now it's all smooth. :) 

 

 

"Majorly hairy beasty"

- Fucking LOL.

Okay,,, what novels are these from?  i give you some choices

 

 

1. 'It was the devious-cruising Rachel, that in her retracing search after her missing children, only found another orphan.' David Copperfield Moby Dick Oliver Twist Captains Courageous

2. 'The knife came down, missing him by inches, and he took off.' Catch-22 The Maltese Falcon The Razor's Edge Look Homeward Angel

3. 'So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past.' The Great Gatsby Brave New World Remembrance of Things Past The Time Machine

4. 'Darcy, as well as Elizabeth, really loved them; and they were both ever sensible of the warmest gratitude towards the persons who, by bringing her into Derbyshire, had been the means of uniting them.' Great Expectations Wuthering Heights The Count of Monte Cristo Pride and Prejudice

5. 'He would be there all night, and he would be there when Jem waked up in the morning.' To Kill A Mockingbird Silas Marner Native Son Of Mice and Men

6. 'If you do, you start missing everybody.' Of Human Bondage Little Women Ethan Frome The Catcher In The Rye

7. 'And Carlson said, 'Now what the hell ya suppose is eatin' them two guys?' War of the Worlds O Pioneers The Heart is a Lonely Hunter Of Mice and Men

8. 'All these things, with some very surprising incidents in new adventures of my own, for ten years more, I may perhaps give a farther account of hereafter.' The Adventures of Tom Sawyer Robinson Crusoe The Hobbit Treasure Island

9. 'For all to be accomplished, for me to feel less lonely, all that remained to hope was that on the day of my execution there should be a huge crowd of spectators and that they should greet me with howls of execration.' The Stranger Don Quixote The Postman Always Rings Twice The Man in the Iron Mask

10. 'It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done; it is a far, far better rest that I go to than I have ever known.' Ulysses Dante's Inferno A Tale of Two Cities The Quick and the Dead

Yesterday was the first day we actually got to see each other for more than five minutes...and he hardly talked to me. I mean, how can you go from flirting and acting like you were dating, to not even talking?! I don't get it at all. I was going to get his number, but I'm not even sure I'm even going to attempt to get it now. I have to see what Monday brings, and that'll be the deciding point. I hope everything works out, because I'm sick of the false endings.

 

Last night I had a dream...an amazing dream...one that I never want to forget about--other than the part I dreamt right before I woke up and forgot the ending but that's okay, because I remember the most important part. It felt so real...like it was actually happening. But I know it wasn't.

 

So here's what I remember....

 

My parents let me stay over at his house, and we hadn't known each other for too long...I still called his parents Mr and Mrs, and I met his grandma the day this was. So we went upstairs and put my stuff in the room I'd be staying in, and then came back downstairs. I went to the bathroom, and came out to Danny on the phone. He was talking to some of his friends, and they were coming over later for a bonfire. For some reason, Ashley from my work ended up being there later also. It then skipped to later in the night, and we were hanging out upstairs, all of his friends had left, and Ashley was the only one there still. She was planning on leaving soon. I walked over to where Danny was leaning against the wall, and flirtatiously brushed up against him, and smiled. Then I was about to walk away, and he put his arms around me, and flopped me down onto the bed...meanwhile--ashley was sitting on the floor against the wall on the other side of the room. He whispered, "Everyone is telling me I should date you......" and I asked "Yeah?" and he whispered back, "Well, will you?" and I whispered, "I don't want this to pretty much force you into a relationship if you--" and he cut me off, saying "We'll talk about this a little later..." I asked Ashley to leave, and she said no. So I told her I would tell her if anything happened, and she said okay and walked downstairs to leave. So then I flipped us over since I was laying half on top of him, and we tangled our legs together...then he flipped us around so I was laying my head on his chest with my arm drapped across and holding his opposite hand, and he kissed the top of my head and said something but I don't remember because the lights turned low (in the dream), and then I woke up.

 

I wish I could've remembered what happened after that. But it felt sooooo real. Why couldn't something ever happen to me like that in real life? Because I don't deserve it...

 

 

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there was a boy and a girl who didn't know each other. The girl heard stuff about him through Subway gossip, but didn't know him so it was whatever. Then she started to get to know him and thought he was cute....and started to like him. But she stopped herself after a certain point, afraid of getting hurt again. All her friends think she likes him more than she lets off but it's not true...he's fun to flirt with and whatnot, and she knows he's moving off to college. She doesn't want to date anyone right now...she's honestly afraid of something getting serious because she doesn't want to get into something that's not going to last because she knows it'll hurt...and she realized a lot of stuff recently. So all in all, a happy ending is what this summer is going to offer because she'll gain a good friend (if he's not mad at her), and she'll be fine with the fact that she's going to find a different boy.

That's my update for today.

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