The week has gone by and not one thing has been accomplished.
I'm also reminded how wrong we often are when we think something we desire will make us happy. We want something and we say to ourselves, "If I could just have this... I wouldn't want anything else. I just want this one thing, then everything will be perfect." Of course, we are wrong. We are relentless in our selfishness and greed. Nothing is ever good enough, is it? But do you ever wonder:
why not?
Why? What the hell is wrong with us? And I say "us" without hesitation because I know this is something we all experience. Sometimes we realise this; we get something and realise,
hey, I'm not as happy as I thought I was going to be, or
hey, but now I want this, or
hey, what the fuck was I thinking? The itch is only relieved for a brief time before returning again. We realise this once in a while, but do you ever wonder
why? Why do we keep longing for things that aren't going to make us happy in the long run? Is there even anything we can long for that will make us eternally happy?! Why do we keep letting ourselves fall into the trap? Why does it turn out how it does?
But I have another question:
Has being aware of this, the inevitable dissatisfaction at some point with what you get, the return of desire and the feeling of unfulfillment that comes with it, ever made you scared of wanting something?
It has me.
I have no answers, of course. Just making notes.
Here I am writing this, and I'm supposed to be writing a paper for school. Here's what I got so far. It is choppy in some places because I am in the middle of editing (ooooh! a lot to edit, huh?!) and haven't figured out what to say in some places. Anyway, I'm not satisfied with it at all, but don't know where to begin again if I start over:
Augusten Burroughs tells his story as a young teen whose alcoholic father and mentally ill mother separate, in a new, and very strange, environment. His new life with his mother’s psychiatrist and his off-the-wall family exposes Augusten to experiences and realities that change him. From being a well-behaved and sometimes eccentric young boy who looks up to his mother’s dreams and determination in accomplishing them, to an outcast teen who does not fit in at school and is other
So. . . anyone read
Running With Scissors or seen the recently released movie?
-Liv-
pain
