Dream Woman @ MindSay

So Last Night Right
I Was Like Sleeping As I Do
And ANd
Hold On BRB



Kay Back Now Sorry Bwtt THATATTA

Ehm Soo
I Was Havening This Drema
*Dream
ANd I Waas Snuckign Out With Some Friends And We Was At This Wierd Building And It Was LIkkeks Aaa Shed AN dit Was Dark And I Was Getting All Scared As I Do ANd I Thouhgt I Was Gunnas Get RAPPPPPEEEEEEEEEDDDDDDDDd
But I Didnt
ANdThen For Sopme Reason We ALl Thoufght We Was Gonna Be Late Getting Back ToS cghhool Even Tho It Was Night Time So We ALl Started Going BAck ANd Yeah Then I Was Home And It Wasnt Nioght Time Anymore It WAssssssss Like A Cloudy Evening And I Was KLiek I Dunno

I Was LIek Tryan Sort Shit Out With Some People ANd I Didnt Quite Know What I Was Doing Or What Was GOing On. For Some Reason My Floor Was Like Aklot Higher Up ANd The Laudry Room  Was Like A Balcony, I Heard Some Woman Yelling At Me Bwt Something, I Ignoorede Herr ANd There Was DOgs Everywhere And And yeah

And Then I Realized All The Fuss Was Coz They Woman Was HXC Yelling AT ME D:

I Went Out And She Was Screamuing HEs DYING AND YEOUR DOING NOTHINGGA AUGFIUSOF

I Was Freaked For Some Reason
And There Was Sounds Of Like People In Pain And Dying
As If Tehre Were Lots Of Dead Bodies Lying On Our Feild
I Couldnt See The Feilding
But I Could See All The DOgs Jumping Round Spazz

The Reason Thje Woman Was Yelling Was Coz There Was A Dog That Was Half On / HAlf Off The Laudry/Deck Thing Anmd It Was Whimpering For Help
For Some Reasn I Was Hesistatign To HElp
I Didnt Wanna Touch The Dog FOr Some Reason
i Was Soo Scared

ANd Then I Realized
The Woman
Was Really Pale
And Wrinkly
And Naked
UGH
DISCUSTING
BAD FUXKING PICTURES
AND
I Swaer that She Used To Be A Younger Black Woman
But Then I Realized That There Was A Wrinkly Tanned Naked Man Behind Her
WHAT
THE
FUCKING
FUCKKKK

IT WAss Sooo Eeeeeewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
She Was Really ANgry And Spaz At ME
But SHesd Calmed Down
And Was More Liek
Oh Whatever I DOnt Care You Can Leave The Dog If You Wnatr

The {eople I Was With Were Bpthering ME Bwt The Dog I WAs Freaking ANd I Just Said Oh You Guys Do It Im Leaving This Dream Its Getting To Fxd Up/

I Was Stressign And {anicing

The Dyign People Noises Were GEtting LOuced\\der **Louder
And I Tried To Wake Up/

I Was All Black Like I Shut My Eyes
And The Dying Noises Were Stioll Tehre

Then I Opened My Eyes.
I Was Liek Awakw
But The Dying Noise Hadnt LEft
They Were FAding Away...

It Sucked.
I Was Stryna Calm Down
But I Was Panickign And Sweating And Freaking Out.

Oh Gopd.

Then I Was Saying To Myself
Tryna Make Me Think Positive
And The First Thing That Came To My Mind Was Rape
UGHHHHHHHH

I Was Remmebering That Earlier Today I Was Rhingking Bwt How I Probably WOuldnt Care If I Got Raped

Coz I Was Fxd Off.

I Was Sayign To Myself That I Didnt Care But Then It Was As If I Was Convinceing The other Half Of Me That I Did Just So That I Would Stiop Trying To Scare Myslef

But While I Was Thinking This I Was Also Thinking That I Shouldnt Move Coz Other Wise The Door Will Open
And Someo\thing Scary Will AHppen

So I Was Trying Not To Move

Then That Part Of Me Taht Was Scaring Me Was Telling Me That This Never Would Have HAppened If I Didnt Listen To All That KoRn
It Was Sayiogn How KoRn Is Bad ANd I Should BE So Used To The Ideas Of Rape And Necrophelia And Pedophelia Etc..
Saying Hopw My Music Was Making Me Bad
And Fuckign Scaring My Self.'.
`'`'`''`'`
,.,.,.,.,.
`'`''`'`'`

And Yeah

I THink Ill Stop Talking Bwet This Now

It MAkes No Sendce


Im Off To Make Me A Pizza So I Dont Habve To Eat FGReays Burbters And CHipps ahugdhsiufhukb


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I am going on vacation in a couple of months. August 25th to be exact...and depending on how I am feeling I may just decide to stay there. Candace and I are not together and ll the progress that I thought I was making was all for nothing. She doesn't believe me when I tell her she's beautiful or when I tell her I love her. She says I only think that I do...Michelle, you can tell, can't you? You can tell how much I love her, and how much I care about her...You've been there since day 1 talking to me about it, and she is the only thing that I have ever been 100 percent sure of. Back on to my original topic....I may just stay there because I don't want to have to see her ecspecially when and if she starts another relationship with some other guy. I feel like that I am a wreck now...Idk how I would react if I saw her with someone else, maybe the way I did when Randy was in the picture...maybe worse...I haven't shaved in a month, I can't eat, I can't sleep...All I can do is think about her from the time I wake up to the time I go to sleep and then all I do after that is dream about her. I don't understand...she is everything that I have ever wanted in a woman...She is the first to make so emotional that I break into tears, she is the only woman to make me feel nervous, or have butterflies in my stomach just being around her. She says she wants to be friends, and I kinda like  that but then again there is that part of me that is scared to be her friend because I love her and I know I am always going to want more...I remember a week before I met her I saw a woman like her and I asked God to bring me a woman like that, and a week later I met her. I had a major crush on her from the moment I met her. It was like a light shining on her...and it hit me. It was a blinding realization like pure truth, and I was head over heels for her. Then I realized a few weeks later that she had a boyfriend, his name was mike...a few weeks later she caught up with me in the back stock room and told me that she and mike had broke up, and we had lunch that day and we started hanging out. One night I asked her to a movie and we went to go see the 4 year old virgin. we had a great time... I had my arm around her, we were throwin the popcorn at each other and she rested her head on my shoulder. After the movie I walked her home...When we got to her front door she was complaining about a headache and how she needed sleep cuz she had to wake up in the morning, but she stayed out there with me letting me hold her in my arms...I went for the kiss but she wasnt ready and I respected that. We went out a few more times and we also spent time at her place watchin movies and what not and then Randy showed up...That God forsaken marine. Her friend as she called him, we weren't exclusive yet so I didn't care, but I was just gettin my hopes up because he soon went from friend to boyfriend after they went to the marine corps. ball together. I soon faded from her sight, and then bam as soon as he was heading out she'd come spend time with me again...I still felt strongly about her, and thats where I made the first final stand...heheheheh. I asked her to marry me...I was desperate, it was a shot in the dark, but in the end I ended up talking to Randy getting them back together. Randy then gets transferred to Colorado Candace stays...."for the time being" She is supposed to be with him on the first of the year. Until then she's spending time with me hangin out, chillin. Going to the movies having dinner whatever. Then her moving date kept getting pushed back....Fast Forward to a few months later. Randy calls Candace and tells her he isn't ready to take care of himself let alone another, and the first person she calls....yup u guessed it...me! I was the first person other than her mother to know that he had broken up with her. We spent a bunch of time together once again, and now u have been updated on the entire story, and if I have been talking to you u now know everything....Two years I have been feeling this for her and over that time my heart has grown from just a crush to love....I am in love with her. Yes, thats right I said it...I am in love with her....call me a fool I don't care

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                                                   "Everytime I try to talk you, I get tongue tied turns out.......So why don't

      you and I get together, Take on the world and be together forever, Heads we win, and Tales we'll try again. Why don't you and I hold each other, fly to the moon and straight on to heaven, 'cause without you, they're never gonna let me in."