Doors @ MindSay

Finally back.

"Theres a killer on the road, his brains a squirmin' like a toad, take a long holiday, let your children play, give this man sweet family will die, killer on the roads."

The sounds of Jim Morrison are accompanying my morning, any times a good fucking time to listen to the Doors... and I just learned Riders on guitar/bass so it looped a few times.



I hope alls good for everyone. Happy pumpkin day! (whatever day it is) saturday ended up being cooler and more fun than I thought, there were lots of people (in 100s) and looots of  booze and shit...

Peace,

Okay folks, the lovely and vocal Goddess I am working with is Brigid!  And let's just say I think I perfered Mauve's subtle influences in my life with her preferences then Brigid's..................not that I don't enjoy Brigid's influence *said in a tongue in check voice while grinning*

 

So how did Brigid get me today?  Well as some of you know (the ones that actually read my blog) Randy and I are having some issues.  They could be major or the could be minor but either way they have been issues that have been burning for some time now.  And one of them is concerning the vechile I drive.  Or don't drive in Brigid's case.  Right now I am driving a 1992 Astro Van.  High in miliage but great on gas.  Old looking, dirty on the inside because the last owner never steam cleaned it but other wise cleaned of all trash.  We have a 1995 Chevy Lumina sitting in one of our sheds in pretty dayum good condition.  The only problems we have with it are the doors.  The driver's side doens't open at all and the passenger side door only opens from the inside.  Brigid knows that I have been sooooooooooo tired of fighting lately and the past few years I have only really been opening my mouth to Randy on big issues that I have been letting the small ones slide because I just don't have the energy anymore to keep arguing over the same dayum things. 

 

Well she spoke up about 3 weeks ago and told me to get after Randy to get the Luminu up and going before winter hit.  I told her that it wasn't a good time right at the moment because I jsut dropped a hundred or so on new brakes on his truck.  Well next thing I know Brigid the lovely Goddess made sure the passenger side window of the astro wouldn't go back up.  It took me 3 weeks to get Randy to attempt to fix it and what does he do?  He shatterst he window in the door!  Brigid is laughing the whole time and tells me to start opening my mouth again and to fuck everyone including family memebers who have a problem with me telling it like it is.  That is also one of the things she wants me to work on.........I stopped opening my mouth to family memebers because they either ignore me or blame me for issues or say they care about me and then turn around and treat someone who isn't as close to them or not even blood related as queen or king..............she wants me to open my mouth again because so many in the family need to be knocked off their pedestals and I will never get past her to another goddess if I don't start opening my mouth again! 

 

Anyway I have been driving the van as is and driving the truck when it rains (it's got brakes now yaya!) and I had a total unexplainable blonde moment from the neitherworlds!  I don't even know how the hell it happened!  Until I heard Brigid laughing manicaly in the back ground and Coltin going "MOM!  The Truck!"

 

What did I do?  Can someone explain to me how I parked Randy's big ass BLUE truck behind my RED van last night and this moring, I load the kids and myself up into ..........the VAN and promptly back into the TRUCK!  I was awake!  We weren't running late!  Brigid blinded my ass and the kids' asses to the truck sitting behind the van until the back doors of the van went *CRUNCH* and being the Goddess of Metal, she made dayum sure Randy's truck was just fine.  A red mark and a few scratches on the chrome grill guard but otherwise just honeky dory!  Insurance won't pay for Randy to get a new Grill because it was an add on.......doesn't matter that in the Midwest grill guards are a safety feature!  Oh well maybe next year I will buy Randy a new middle peace for his grill guard.

 

Ya think maybe Brigid wants me to act a lil bit quicker with her influence then Mauve?  I think so.  It isn't like I don't know how to voice my opinion.  TRUST ME!  I DO!  The last few years I have just stopped voicing it to those who have constantly hurt my feelings, have written me off in various ways, and as Brigid says:  "Girl, you have a lot of people you do for both close to you in life and those that live far away and they treat you like crap and think they are the shit!  It's time for you to start opening your mouth again and let them see the FIRE in YOUR HEAD and kick them off their pedestals!"  And Brigid wants me to start close to home.  This should be interesting!

 

Randy isn't to happy because even though the Astro Van is drivable it looks like a pure rezed out ghetto hoppied ass van now and I refuse to drive it; thus on his three days off for Labor Day.............he is going to get the driver's side door working, he is going to handle the kids, and going to finish his Honey Do List so I can start making the winterizing the house list of things I can't do for him!

So here I am living with my parents, looking for a job, house and what's left of my sanity. Although to be perfectly honest I feel much better now that I'm in NY, it's almost like the MD thing was all a bad dream. I have a lot of work ahead of me this week- which is ok, better to be busy and to be productive then to be trapped in a state where I don't belong....

 

I'm trying to find a schedule for us that accomodates everyone while trying to figure out what my parents do... it's been a long time since I lived at home with them... my mother seems to read at night and for once last night I didn't fall asleep before everyone else- including the dogs. So I went up to ask her what I was making for dinner tonight, had she decided what she wanted... and she hadn't- but she says to me I have a quote for you...

 

My mother has been reading a Thomas Kinkade book, saw this quote and wrote it down on a piece of paper for me... for those of you reading my blog everyday you'll recognize why the quote is so important and why I was really stunned. This was the quote from p223 of this Thomas Kinkade book~

 

"God will open a new door for me... if I would only stop STARING at the closed ones...."

 

I copied the quote exactly as she wrote it. For those of you who don't know my favorite quote (and all it's variations) is by Alexander Graham Bell and basically goes something like this~ when one door closes another door opens~ at times the quote will be interpreted as when one door close a window will open but you all get the idea. I'm going to go open some doors today~ you too~ peace.

 

Well, I know what you're thinking. SHE SAID SHE'D BLOG EVERY DAY! SHE LIED! FETCH THE TORCHES! Well, I have a good reason. From friday night to just now, I was locked out of my home. Yes. That's what I said. I was locked out of my home. And through no fault of anyone else, it was my own DUUUUUHHHHH moment.
My family went to the reunion in Kentucky this weekend, and I needed to go spend the night there to let the dog out of the house so he could pee. God forbid they should actually install a dog door. well, I packed an over night bag, 'cause I was intending to spend friday night there, go home saturday, let the dog out again through the day on saturday, et go home saturday night, 'cause they'd be home on sunday morning....not gonna happen. I left my keys sitting on my kitchen table when I shut my door, engaging the dead bolt. I was stuck. I had to spend the weekend at my mom's house, 'cause the spare keys were in her van, which was in Kentucky. Yeah. I'm a moron. I admit it. I'm just glad I filled the kitties food bowls before I left and cleaned the litter box. otherwise I would have come home to find a mess.

Well, there's my duhhhhhhhhhhhhh moment. I hope you find entertainment of the highest order laughing at it. :P Now, I'm off to wal mart to get some keys made...excuse me.

So, this is my first time on here. hmmm. What to talk about....Graduated yesterday.  Free from high school but not from school in general.  Still got college.  i ate lightly smoked sardines and wrote an email to a friend. right no i'm  slouching in a chair with a bad back and  i feel like writing a poem.

   
we go cruisin for a bruisin in our minivan
we get to wherever and whenever as fast as we can
we have no money for a fuel price thats constantly rising
we feel our brains are in turmoil like its something suprising

we stop at a store and take a walk inside

we grab some of this and continue the ride

we slam all the doors and blast out our ears

we block out reality thats made up of our fears

we listen to our friends as they speak of a dream
we pretend that we care and we know what they mean
we stop and hop out and snap photos of each other
we act like we're one and that each is part of another

we argue and battle for stupid things
we both have horns but one has wings
we are plagued by the need to be the first to win

cuz in the end "we" is just me and my evil twin.

what a lame poem. ah well. there's my day.