Dont Feel Good @ MindSay

Kinda forgot this place existed.

Sorry ya'll.

Things are crazy right now.

Im in so much pain its not funny, 3 doctors tell me suddenly I have allergies. Suuure, been here two years but LAST WEEK was the day for me to get them!

*gag*

Plus Im on a week's notice at my work at Buffalo Wild Wings (good food, but working with teenagers that dont like me because I like me? Not cool.) and start training for my server job at Bob Evans tomorrow. Im stressed and in so much pain it hurts to breathe, so appreciate the typing!

Still not all good from the whole Katrina thing. We dont get as much aid as people think we do. Hell, I havent gotten a tax break yet!

Did I mention one more final test in all this too? Sociology is kicking my ass because my teacher likes to talk about Navy stories more than whats on the test.

Fuuun.

So, a small update until later.

Let me know someone still sees this...

I'm still here, sorta taking a break, which is good 'cause i realize how much i miss everyone.

i got my haircut, I'm not very happy with it, it's the shortest it's ever been and i am not good at fixing

I'm too plump I need nuch more excercise

i hurt my back, nothing the dr. could find, i wonder how that could have happened??  I did find that massaging my butt helps with the soreness .... how about that !!

I'm still seeing betty & lori .... we're getting used to the new toy, it's interesting, it has a different feel, of course this voyeur thinks it's fun to watch.

Okay i got boyfriend trouble. i mean nothing really bad. i really dont even think he noes what he is doing. HECK i dont even think i noe whats wrong! but i feel something in my heart that, well i really dont know how to explain it.

SOMETHINGS WRONG!!!

i dont want to ask him if he still has the same love for me as he did the first month we were dating bcuz then he will think that i am doubting our love for each other.

                                                                I REALLY LOVE HIM!!!

i dont know how to tell him sometimes how much i love him!

                    i dont want to say he is hard to fall in love with bcuz he isnt. he loves hard and it was really easy for me to love him!

                                     HELP!!!!!!!

           i cant break up with him bcuz when i think of being without him i feel sad and my heart hurts (well thats a figure of speech i guess, it doesnt hurt physically, it hurts emotionally) but anyways i cant even think of us not being together.

 i allready love him so much.......but what if he doesnt love me as much as i love him???? what if he hurts me????? what if i cant handle it???????? what if he cheats on me????????

                                                   i have all these questions!!!! but does anyone know the answer??? well i need to know!!!

im afraid to fall anymore in love with him because he might hurt me and i am sooooooooo SCARED of that!!!

                       i guess you could say i have comitment issues. but its not my fault, i have been cheated on b4 and i really dont want that to happen again!!! i have been abused (as my boyfriend says to me when i told him i have been cheated on)

         hopefully he sees that i have been hurt and "abused", and hopefully he wont do it to me............

P.S.

 and if he does ima kick his *ss!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

-Heather-

Hey everyone!! So, i dont really feel like giving an update on everything that's happened since the last time i blogged so im not going to. If you're reading this you prolly already know anyways and if you dont, then just ask i guess.

So nose surgery sucks! Hydros dont help, they just make me sick and dizzy. I want some soup... this is turning into one big complaint....

So yesterday i lied on the couch alot and then amy and seth came over and we watched "knocked up" which is reallyyy good. Kinda adult content tho so i wouldn't watch it w/ the rents. then Nathan and I were gonna go to the driving range? but i wasnt up to par (haha pun intended) b/c of the meds i am on so i guess we'll do it another time? oh well.

So today mom woke me up by shoving my anti biotics down my throat. that was pleasent lol. then i went back to sleep for a few hours b/c that stuff knocks me out. At like 11 i went outside and laid on the trampoline for about an hour and read. Now i'm inside and bored and meh. =)

Anyways, im done. i'll be back on here later possibly.

Loves!