Don't Care @ MindSay

Thrusday I went to the Twist fields. Devin came up.. well he told me to come and showed up before him. Jarrett and his boredness made him come up as well. We didnt stay long, and walked to Pony. A lot of people love Devin.. and it seems like they are like "HI DEVIN!!!!!!!!!!".. and then when they see me with me they are like "hi melissa..".. not much excitment when that happens.. I dont even see that from my Wash High friends anymore.. It's starting to bug me. Idk maybe I'm not cool anymore? Me and Devin were having "Wash High flash backs".. All of us went up to the school and played on the playground. Me and Devin kept reminding ourselves all the fun little stupid games all us kids would do. Since Wash High is ALWAYS together, we basically do EVERYTHING together. The little merry-go-round was probably the best. Me and Devin should Jarrett what we used to do. Everyone would push it as fast as they could and jump on. We would always laugh at each other whenever we fell off. The thing would like never stop. I loved going up there again. We found some trails and went though them.. and ended up in East Washington? And since Im stupid... I decided to walk home with them. It took about 30 minutes which isnt that bad for walking. We watched making the band and all those other shows that came on MTV. They left and I was left alone.

Friday, I sat around most of the day. Aroudn 6:30, I went to the movies with Devin, Tommy, Mike,  and Laura to see the Fast and the Furious. It wasn that bad.. there were a lot of hot Japanese people. Everytime I see racing movies I wish I could drive hahah. I really wanna see Cars too haha. I also went to Outback yesterday. It was very good. But what I've notice lately.. is that Im hanging out wiht a lot of guys. Idk if you notice but I have. I dont really rememeber the last time I hanged with all girls.. probably when I went to the mall and movies and Garfields with Alyssa and Joz before my surgery.. I think its cuz a lot of my friends rather hang with each other and leave me out.. or its cuz they found boyfriends.. which as for me, I'm failing in. I mean yea a boyfriend isnt everything but I'm not really getting any. I could honestly careless but its sorta depressing.. I havent had one sicne Andy.. well not counting Kent which was complete disaster.. Speaking of Kent he still wants me back. It's like he isnt gonna give up on it. And at some point he called me his girlfriend. During the summer I'm not in the mood to argue so I didnt say much about it. Oh well, I dont think much during the summer. So far, I think its been kinda boring. All I've done was play softball and go to the movies. There some more but thats basically what I've been doing.

Tomorrow is Father's day. Probably spending the day wiht my dad.. He said we are going shopping (mostly for my new spikes), playing softball (of course), and dinner (like every Sunday). I feel like I have more to say but I can't rememebr.. o well..

<3 Mel

yesterday, i was on myspace, and someone sent me a message

they said that they saw me at tower city kissin someone

and i was like okay, if you did

and then they popped back and said that it was a boy

i'm like WTF?

are you sure that it was me

they was like

yeah, it is unless it's that kid that goes to that other school

i'm like, no it's not jordan or anyone else for that matter,

i was salty as hell though

but some people think i'm gay

cause i mess around with a lot of people

i'm like i'm not gay, not bi for that matter

just think of me as a "sexual" or "sensual" person

no, not a nympho

i'm not going to fuck for the fun of it, if you think about it

today we had a world history project where

certain students had to dress up as famous world leaders

i had to dress up as FDR, and came up there looking like

the new and improved Malcolm X,

people took a picture of me with the stupid glasses i had on

i'ma see if i can put it on here tomorrow, cause i looked dumb as hell

lol

it was funny, but yesterday i didn't like american idol

only Kat and Elliott sounded good

i love Donny Hathaway

he can sing like whitney houston

i have that new rihanna song stuck in my head, unfaithful and it is getting to the point where i want to

shoot someone

all of the poems that i wrote recently (including the if i had a crush) are on that beat

it's annoying as hell

my sister and i were arguing, she said that alicia keys and jamie foxx are gay, and i'm like no they are not

just because alicia dresses tomboyish (or used too) doesn't mean that she is one, and jamie is a little feminine

to me, but that's my opinion

i gotta go, cause my mom and dad are gonna be trippin if i don't come home and see that i didn't pick up the car from the shop with my father

i told them i have a makeup test to take, which is the truth, but i didn't go, so i really don't care

i don't know if i should let my sister ann read chapter 2 to my story or not

all those who read it know that there's some content that she might find offensive or not, but i don't care

in biology, we watched a movie on charles darwini think that charles darwin was dumb as hell, saying that we evolved from monkeys, that's the stupidest thing i've ever heard, minus the fact that big sis nicole thinks that alicia keys is gay

     Today, I witnessed another stupid thing being done by yet another popular student to a less than popular student. This kid was being shoved up against the lockers, punched in the arms, and the face was next. I don't know what exactly went on before I was walking down that hallway, but when I got there I was just going to walk by and not say anything, but I did. I told the popular guy to knock it off and he asked why, and I just told him to knock it the fuck off. He backed away from the kid, and I thought I was going to get hit, but I didn't. I walked away then, and I heard them making a noise that cats make when they hiss....I was going to turn around and say "You know what? I'm in a bitchy mood today, and I was trying to hide it. But thanks for pointing it out." but I held back and just kept walking. Frankly, I don't care what people think of me anymore. I'm sick of always worrying about what the popular kids think of me, and I'm done with it. I don't care. If they don't like me then they don't like me...I have other friends and I don't need their snotty attitudes. I could honestly care less....if I say something and they don't like it--they'll just have to live with it because I won't take it back..not ever. Because I'm not going to try to please them like other people do.

    Well okay, I just had to get my little anger spaz out.

     I might be going to a show tomorrow at the Emporium in Elk River! Woo hoo!!!! I haven't heard these bands yet, but a lot of people love them and say I would like them too, so I thought  I'd go see them and everything. Woo hoo...I can't wait!! I just have to find a ride there, because I have a ride back already. Woo hoo!!

- -Nicole Lyn- -