Dominant @ MindSay

Today my AP Bio teacher wrote 'dominent' and 'grean' on the board. --> dominant. green. dipshit.

I caught one of my dogs chewing on a condom. Notice: condom. no wrapper. gross.

Fudge tastes good. Literal fudge, not poop.

The question was asked of me:

"what made you get interested, or what was the defining moment when you "knew" this is what you were and what you wanted?"

My answer:

It was like a rebirthing for me, in fact my first tattoo( The phoenix) was when i entered a relationship with a Dominant who had his own dungeon. We had been talking in a trivia room, and goofing around having fun and one day he began to unravel me. He just knew things about me. He kept pulling and digging and wouldnt let me give the pat superficial expected responses. 

I allowed him to see my core, he saw me raw and exposed. I trusted him to show him a side of me that I didnt even know was there it was so deeply buried.

He never made me feel embarassed or dirty with anything that I felt or desired or was curious about. He provided Structure, Control, Passion and pain, ultimate trust that even during a mind fuck He always had my well being at the center of it all.

Giving that control to Him,  the energy exchange was exhilerating,  being the sexual being, the sexual device to totally get Him off was powerful. Knowing that He cherished me, my mind was in deeper bond(age) than any of the ropes or leather he bound to my ankles or wrists.

He valued that I am a strong independent business woman. That I am intelligent, keen, alert and that I have a sense of humor-warped at times-but I enjoy life. Many so-called Dominants in the lifestyle want no more than a blow job and a maid. That is not a true power exchange.

I always strived to be a better person while I was with him and I recently saw a quote on the net by an anonymous Dominant who said "There are really two kinds of submissives in the world: those who believed they didn't deserve any better.. and those who believe they didn't deserve any less." I like that quote and I believe that any sub should always strive for the best in herself and for the best in her Master or Mistress.

submissively yours...

jill followed Sally back out to the table wondering What had she gotten herself into? This situation was so against everything she had been brought up to be, to do. All of her life she had been taught to look out for herself, to be in control, to take control of all situations. Sometimes it was what she simply had to do to survive and other times it was because she knew if something was going to be done right without hassles she had to do it herself. But what she had been told about this lifestyle and talking with other submissives in the community online struck a chord somewhere deep within her soul. It felt primative. But right. It drew her in, compelling her to learn more, to ask others about the lifestyle and now she had decided that she wanted more than to just talk, she wanted to train, to be what her soul was longing for, where she felt that she would belong and fulfil her destiny.

jill waited for Sally to sit, then sat down when motioned to do so. She repositioned herself on the chair with her legs spread wide open, her pussy now very wet, touching the cool leather chair, the buttons undone, and felt her face flush again with the realization that she was so exposed and it was because she had been told to do so.

Sally reopened the yellow folder and shuffled some papers after making some notes. jill listened to the pen etchings as her pulse began to smooth out.

"I have your checklist here that you were asked to fill out. I am going to go over it with you, and you are free to ask questions as we go along. Answer respectfully but honestly. If you need to change any of the answers, now would be the time to do so.  Look at me now."

  jill looked up and again, felt swallowed by the depth of those soulful eyes.  Her breath caught in her throat. Sally was beautiful, her cheekbones over thick dark lips, her black hair was sleeked back into a chignon revealing a long slender neckline that flowed right to the shadowy line that was threatening to reveal what jill up to that moment had never allowed herself to taste or feel. Breasts of tawny soft skin were threatening to overflow and push out of Sally's plunging V necked lavender sweater. jill felt everything within her quiver, this woman was powerful, beautiful and she was in charge of her.

"I want you to take this and attach it to your pussy. Have you ever used one of these before?" Sally handed her a contraption that looked like a butterfly.  As she reached for the object, she was shaking her head no, but felt electricity shoot thru her hand as Sally's dark manicured hand briefly made contact with her own. "Ok...you are to slide it on top of your pussy, tucking the purple side inside the fold of your lips and up by your clit, then take the strap and wrap it around each thigh, fasten them securely"

jill looked confused, looked around her, "Ms Sally, here? Or go back to the ladies room?"

"Here! you have wasted enough precious time candidate s."  Ms Sally looked down and began write again. jill sat there for a second unsure what to do, but then picked it up and reached under the table and slid it between her legs. Instantly her clit responded with a throb expecting more from the earlier rubbing it got from Ms. Sally's nimble exploring fingers. She lifted one leg and tucked the strap thru, feeling like everyone was watching her and knew what she was doing. She felt embarassed. But the excitement of what was happening pushed her forward. She completed both legs awkwardly, but did it. She brought her hands up to the table and folded them together.

"Slide forward slightly so to put some pressure and secure your butterfly. Rock back and forth gently and slightly." Sally told jill who did what she was instructed to do and promptly was rewarded by the butterfly contraption suctioning tighter to her pussy, making a airtight vacuum lock. It was going nowhere. It was part of her now.

"I will be controlling your device, it works like this" she said as she pressed a button that was in her hand "do you feel this? jill felt her pussy come alive, the purple butterfly was buzzing gently on her lips, slight buzzing, creating a jolting sensation deep in the pit of her being. "yes maam, i feel it!" she whispered and shifted her ass on the seat. Sally then said "Good, then it's working! Now while we are going over your checklist, I will be controlling your device. This is a test to see how much concentration you have as well as the ability to control yourself as well. I do not want you to have an orgasm. you are not to cum. If you cum when u have been told not to there are consequences. Those consequences will be that you will receive 10 spanks on your bare ass with my hand. Do I make myself clear?  If you are a good girl and do not cum during the time allotted, then you will be rewarded. your reward will be u will be allowed to touch and kiss my breasts that you seem quite attracted to. Any questions?"

"No maam, thank you Ms Sally" jill said, her pussy feeling warmer with the slight buzzing from the butterfly.

"you are embarking on a new journey in your life. One where you will find yourself turned inside out, upside down and change forever the way you view yourself, your life and your future. It will be rewarding beyond your wildest imagination and it will also be a daily drudgery at times, just getting thru the moment to get to the next moment. you will lose yourself candidate s to find yourself. Right now that doesnt make any sense to you at all, but it will become clearer as we move towards your ownership.

you have chosen to enter a training and consideration period. you know the list of interested owners. Here are their biographies and interests. We want you to study them, read them, learn about the ones that will be interviewing you. Because within the week you will be owned by one of them. In the meantime, you have me to guide you thru the process. I will be watching you, working with you, and I require utmost honesty from you. There will be a safeword used during all training and interview sessions. your safeword is CALENDER. Write it down.  Do you know what a safeword is and why we use it candidate s?"  Sally's thumb hit the button and jill felt a new surge of vibrations on her pussy, she squirmed and thought 'Oh my god!'

jill took a deep breath tried to lift her hips up to take some of the pressure off of her clit, which then made her legs begin to tremble.

"Yes Maam...it is a word that is chosen to let those that are Topping me know that i need to slow down, or stop, that i need someone to communicate with me, i will be given a hand signal to use if at any point i am gagged and cannot be vocal. Safewords are used to protect me and communicate."

"Very good answer. Well thought out, and shows that you have done some basic research. You should never use a safe word lightly. Just because you do not like a scene or a punishment is not a good reason unless these activities push a hard, pre-stated limit. Think before you use your safeword or signs. ON the other hand, use it when you need to, it is not a sign of defeat, or lack of respect to your Top, it is not a failure on your part and a good Dom never disciplines their submissive for using the safeword. During your training you will only be given one word, which will then your Top will ask what is happening with you. The scene will either come to a close so we can take care of the situation at hand or it will continue once the situation has been reassesed. What are some good reasons for using your safeword?" Again Sally's thumb pressed the button.

jill bit her lip, it was becoming harder not to squirm and she had given up trying to hold herself up, it was full on pressure and leaning forward was driving her pussy insane... it was quiverying, wet, she could feel her juices sliding down her leg.  OH god.. .let me just answer this...please.. i do so want to touch her breasts! They look so delicious, I could just fill myself up on her, stop it jill, answer her question..breathe!

"Illness, medications can change how a submissive will tolerate or handle pain, so if i were to begin to feel ill, faint, or maybe my ankle is actually going numb because the restraint is too tight, these may be good times to use my safeword Ms.Sally... Ms. Sally i am having a hard... breath.... time not orgasming"

"It's your choice candidate, but you WILL tell me if you do"

jill didnt know if that was sexy, erotic or humiliating. She decided quickly it was all 3. Sally's thumb pushed the button again.

Jill couldnt stand it anymore...she began to writhe on the vibrator pushing her clit into it, rocking her hips back and forth, grinding it into the seat, her eyes closed and forgetting about being in a public cafe she let a moan pass her lips, her pussy was on fire, throbbing, aching and her very core of her was shaken.

"Open your eyes candidate s..look at me, look at me while you cum...this is not YOUR orgasm. This is mine. you werent given permission to have one, so I own this orgasm, so give it to me now. now. NOW"

With that last word, jill couldnt contain herself anymore, her eyes fixed on Sally's, her hips moved faster until her whole being exploded, she shuddered, panting, trying to keep as quiet as she could. Her mind and her body at war with doing something so intimate in public and now being told even this pleasure wasnt hers, she had to give it to her caretaker. Confusion, delight, passion were just a few of the emotions, finally release.

"oh god Ms.Sally i am so sorry, i came, i tried to give it to you by keeping my eyes open, " tears rolled down her cheeks. she was told what the punishment was if she had an orgasm without permission. She was going to get a spanking. 10 spanks!  She had never had a spanking before, and now she was nervous as hell.

"Gather your papers, let's go out to my vehicle. Now." Ms. Sally got up and commanded jill to follow behind her. jill stopped behind her while she paid the waitress and as jill looked up and caught the waitress's eyes, she saw that the waitress had a smirk on her face as if she knew just what had happened and knew just what was about to happen.

to be continued...