Doesnt Matter @ MindSay

I'm an idiot...I'm a glutton for punishment....Those of u who know me know who I am talking about, for the rest of u I will refer u to one name....Candace.....it's unbelieveable how I keep falling for the same shit over and over and over. Maybe they are right when they say love makes you stupid, and no matter how badly she treats me I keep coming back to her when she beckons me. I cant seem to find a way to get away....I love Her so much though....no matter what anyone says...it just doesnt make an impact. Like today for instance....she got really sick and I spent a great amount of time taking care of her.......She's one of my best friends and I'm in love with her......wtf!?

Ok so i need advice....

My new boyfriends mom....dislikes me very much. And she doesnt even know me! i have never talked to her because he doesnt think its a good idea yet...but she gives him hell for talking to me and stuff. he cant even tell her when we hang out. he always just says hes going to hang out with his friend that joins us. whenever im brought up she always apparently calls me 'little girl' and tells him he's 'cradle robbing'. Like we're only 2 years apart. I fail to see anything wrong.

Any advice?

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Miller

Right now i feel like ive got that song in the background from the 80's "think twice" playing in my head.

This whole week with my clubs problems has probably been perhapes the most enduring of my time running it.

I got two people who are about to make a big mistake. One  stays and the other who loses the duel is gone from our club. I dont want any of our members to go but if this is the only way to get some order back into the club..then so be it. There at least settling it in a civilized manner but at the same time im just at the limit with these two grown people. Mostly with one of my main players.

He doesnt realize it/knows but still doesnt listen..he has an anger problem. His anger is one of the whole reasons of this stupid yugioh duel(card game for thoise who dont know) . He doesnt listen to people..espically his friends..i'm his freind and i may have endargered it. But if a friend doesnt try..even if they know it might risk there friendship then there not a friend to begin with.

 Hes latly been feeling no reason to come to this club and last night i put him on the hot seat on our clubs website. The comments i made wasnt as a personal attack..but of months, years of the way he interacts with others in the club. I even explained it as friendly advice.Ofcourse he blows up on me...claiming i try to look good around others...if im trying to look good.....why then am i trying to help him?

 It wasn't about me..it was about bringing stability back into this club he helps to support. To be able to get along with other players.If we all dont try to star getting along or at least..respect others then the club will never grow.

This isnt the show..this is real life and i truly dont belive that these guys have even realized the seriousness of the situation and the consiquences.

I really hope to iron out all these problems this sunday..im not a person whos power hungery..but in a club or  if your a leader..there are times you may have to make a decision that is one not favorable but at the same time if the only way to solve a problem. then it must be done.

I just really hope for a good show this sunday..but thats all i can do..hope.

ttyl

Howdy Howdy all!

Well I have finished my Power Point Presentation on the subject of Dianetics. Let me tell ya, it was quite a journey. I read the book Dianetics: The Mondern Science of Mental Health, so that I could decide whether or not this was a science or a pseudoscience.

My conclusion is that Dianetics has no scientific basis and is rather a Science of Non Sequiturs at best. Don't panic..that doesnt mean that it doesnt cut it as a philosophy or a religion. Just that its claims of scientific validity are absolutely bogus.

First there is a discussion of the reactive mind (you never really find out where this is or what it housed in specific or even vaguely for that matter).  Then there is the business of the Clear who no longer lives according to the reactive mind and so is free of the.....uhg! Nevermind. I have no desired to get into this again, what a quagmire!

I have completed the outlines for the last three 10 page research papers I have to complete. Good thing too because I was really starting to get tired! I was able to finish all of the tax returns I had to do before the deadline -woo hoo!  And  now I have to get ready for the busy summer that I have planned for myself. Let's see there is GRE prep, Grad school scouting, freelance writing, travel....and the beat goes on.

I will be visiting with a friend this evening and I am so stoked because they generally let me talk about myself, and really get the junk out....I don't see them that often but you couldn't tell by the way we are with one another. I don't tell them enough that I really appreciate them listening to me without competing for the worse life award (LOL).

HEY YOU....

I mean I don't really bitch much to the folks I see often because well....there are a lot of reasons, too many to mention. Not that they are not good friends to me...they are. But with YOU I feel really comfortable saying whatever I feel without fear that I will taste my words a second time in contempt....I love you.....you know in the platonic sort of way......unlesssssssss, oh, UM, no? Oh okay then just in the platonic way, I was just kidding about that other stuff !

Oh well I have bored you all enough, how about some poetry...here goes.....

Death Be Not Proud

Death, be not proud, though some have called thee
Mighty and dreadful, for thou art not so;
For those whom thou think'st thou dost overthrow,
Die not, poor Death, nor yet canst thou kill me.
From rest and sleep, which but thy pictures be,
Much pleasure; then from thee much more must flow,
And soonest our best men with thee do go,
Rest of their bones, and soul's delivery.
Thou art slave to fate, chance, kings, and desperate men,
And dost with poison, war, and sickness dwell;
And poppy or charms can make us sleep as well
And better than thy stroke; why swell'st thou then?
One short sleep past, we wake eternally,
And death shall be no more; Death, thou shalt die.--John Donne

Goddess Bless