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Good Day, Bad Brain
Ash wasn't able to make it this Saturday - her and her family were off somewhere as a day-late birthday outing.
Damn them. I wish my family cared about me the way Ash's cared for her.
Regardless.
Shelly still came along - which I'm glad of.
I don't like spending Saturdays alone if I can help it.
One thing that's for sure about Saturdays is that I won't do any college or schoolwork.
I won't do homework, I won't do coursework and I won't do revision.
Saturdays are my days for chill.
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Before Shelly came, I tidied up my room, brushed my hair, cut my nails and ran myself a bath.
(I really can't wait till the shower works again. This bathing malarkey is doing my nut.)
Shelly stood in the bathroom with me and talked to me while I washed my hair.
Then I asked if she'd scrub my back. :)
She washed all of me - even getting off all the song lyrics I'd written up my arms in yesterday's English lesson.
When I get bored, I write lyrics on my hands and up my arms. The ink on my hands tends to come off with sweating and washing my hands after using the toilet though.
After my bath, we laid on my bed for a while, cuddling and kissing.
I warned her that I have a chest infection, but she carried on kissing me.
I can see her getting my sore throat and cough now. I did warn her though.
It feels like quite a while since we've had this much time alone.
Of course, we took advantage of that. :)
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Time passes so fast when you're having lesbian fun. :P
Either way - I started to feel really ill at around 5.
We went downstairs for something to eat - and I don't remember what happened.
There's a big piece of my time recollection missing.
Shelly said she found me laid on the floor in the living room and I wasn't breathing. She thinks I passed out.
I know I went downstairs before her - but all I can remember is her picking me up and propping me against the wall while she went to get my inhalers from upstairs.
I'd taken too much of my Salbutamol - I got the shaky hands.
Overdosing on inhalers wrecks the stability in your fingers. No matter how hard you try, you can't keep them still.
I was making microwave pasta for myself - Shelly didn't trust me to pour the boiling water, with my dizzy disorientation and my shaky asthma overdose hands.
She was worried about me. She was doing a lot for me, making sure I didn't hurt myself.
A lot of the time I didn't understand what she was saying, so I think she repeated herself a lot.
I felt that she cared a lot though.
That made me feel special and loved.
I don't like to think that I scared her though.
Whatever I did, I didn't mean to do it...
So my friday starts off pretty usual, class 9-2 then work 2:15-10. I get to work at they're all having snack just chillin (i work in a group home) and so we pack lunches for work the next day, play card games, n start supper. As we're sitting down to eat I start to notice this sharp pain in my left lower back. Initially I blow it off like oh I slept weird, whatever. So after supper Bev, Percy and I head off to BINGO! woot!
While at bingo the pain becomes more and more intense I'm having troubles signing to Bev because the pain is radiating my whole body and making it hard for me to function. We make it back to the house around 8:30 a little late for meds and snack but whatev, we were partying haha. Anyways this is when Anna the other staff on shift with me comes up to me and decides SHES gong to leave early because she wants to go out and get drunk with her friends. I look at her with tears in my eyes cuz the pain was so intense and just said "serously!" she knew i was hurting but cared not. thanks bitch face ass hole muncher sucky mc personson.. little bitter still can u tell. So I stick out the last of the shift by myself, crying, running downstairs to throw up. I didn't want the guys to know I was so ill cuz they worry.
FINALLY I get home and run to mommy, she knows excatly whats going on apparently my sister went thro this same thing at my age. So she drives me to the emergency room where I pee in a cup and they tell me I have a Kidney infection as well as kidney stones. They gave me some stuff for my nausia and two perkicets and a pain shot in the butt.. which bruised qutie wickedly. Then I had a sary xray so they could see how big the stone was, then they started me on an IV cuz i was so dehydrated, and surprise the nurse comes in with some morphiene. which i feel i earned because the first time she tried to put an IV in my hand she kept digging around and missing the right spot! ugh!. but after that it was smoooooooooth sailing. Didn't even bother me that form then on id have to strain my urine in a lil baby training toilet thingy and be hopped up for days. So my weekend consisted of bursts of consiousness playing wiht my neiece and nephew which I adore and miss so much. I was even nice to my sister in law. yay drugs.
I'm stressing tho because I missed all my weekends work, classes on monday and such.. I can't even drive cuz of all the muscle relaxers i'm on.. which is soooo very annoying. I just wanna birth this damn stone already and be done with it all! I keep hearing horror stories that its worth that child birth.. fuck if thats true I'm ADOPTING!
I FINISHED IT GUYS! =O
And it was a BITCH! Yet somehow, really fun. I'm so damn wierd. XP
And now this piccy is gonna be on my header that I have to make. FUCK YEAH.
Now I have to finish my Sonic shit and my Majora's Mask fan artz. :3
So, what do you guys think? Critique encouraged.
Any tablet skills I had left me. In the worst way.
But for some reason, I love how this sketch came out. Its so awesomely uglyful. :D
I'm going to re-draw it in paper, ink on paper, and MAYBE color it on PS. The idea is to replace my faggot-ass header piccy. I'm sick of looking at it.
But I've also been considering getting a new account all together. Still thinking.
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