Dixie Misses Emily @ MindSay

Dixie currently feels:

 Depressed

 

...Very fucking depressed.

 

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Here is a numbered list of why Dixie is depressed today:

 

1. - I had to watch my daddy holding someone else's baby again. I hate it.
2. - I've been thinking about college and how terrible it will be.
3. - Watching Big Brother has made me realise my social phobia even more.
4. - I miss Emily so fucking much now. I'm crying at nighttimes when I can't sleep because I think about her.
5. - June is patchy as fuck, I really don't have anything to blog about anymore.
6. - I'm constantly bored now.
7. - I still can't write anything.

Dixie currently feels:

 Flattened

 

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Dixie currently looks like this:

 

 

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I'm going to be more throrough with my blogs now.

I have to have some method of keeping in touch with Emily now that both of our communication lines have been almost fully severed.

 

Entries 39, 40, 41 and 42 are going to be a 4-part video log, but it'll only be viewable by Emily herself.

She has her own category, and nobody but her, and hackers of her account will be able to see those videos - just for those who wonder why my blogs will skip from entry 38 to entry 43.

 

 

In that photo, I'm cuddling my moose. I named her Millie.

Emily sent me her in a package.

I named her Millie as an aliteration with moose, and a variation on Emily's own name.

 

She still smells like Emily a little around her nose, eyes and neck. I think it's Emily's scent I can make out, it smells like a human.

It's a very comforting smell - very warm and musty. I like it very much.

 

 

Emily - please give me a comment for my blogs.

Just so I know you're actually getting to read them....

 

 

 

In Textiles today, I'd finished my final outcome, so I got out my black folder, my blue folder and my two red files - along with my Tron Bonne pencil case and my Milka cow pencil case, which contains all my colours.

 

I spent the whole hour working on this:

 

 

 

Media used:

 

Crayola Pro fine liners - yellow, brown & peach

Craylola Artist colouring pencils - Pale blue, pink & navy blue

Crayola bold markers - Green

Steadlter colouring pencils - Orange & black

Tartan gel pens - Lime green & silver

Bic biro - Black

 

 

 

I'm getting better at drawing eyes and hands.

 

Mrs Mac, our school librarian liked this picture very much, and she asked for a colour photocopy for their new display - which is something to do with friendship and anti-bullying.

I agreed and let her take a copy.

 

I like this picture very much.

I think it's one of my best.

I'm sending Emily a copy of her own for her wall.

I hope she will like it.

Dixie currently feels:

Despairing

 

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Good things about today:

 

- We had a fire drill at break, and got 10 minutes extra because of it, hence, missing 10 minutes of Science.

 

- Science was a piss easy lesson.

 

- I got my results for my Science resit exam; an A, so I'm quite pleased.

 

- I got another bit of #1263 artwork finished in the library.

 

- I came home and played iSketch with Miraan, Adam, Ayshea and Stephen. It was fun, we had laughs.

 

- I talked to Adam for ages over MSN, sending each other really hilarious sound files.

 

- I laughed so much at a screenshot from our iSketch game, I almost crapped my pants. - Really, I was totally touching cloth. :)

 

[Though you may ask what's good about that one, I like to laugh, regardless of the consequences.]

 

 

Bad things about today:

 

- Results of my ICT exam, totally not happy. Two grades lower than I wanted.

 

- Thus, I have now given up on ICT.

 

- Thus, making only 3 out of 9 subjects that I still give a shit about.

 

- Coursework deadlines are indeed, stressing me out.

 

- I was tired throughout the whole day.

 

- I cried down my aisle after school, but Sammie comforted me.

 

- Claire is ignoring me. She seems really angry at me, and I don't know what I've done. I think she doesn't like me anymore.

 

- Emily isn't back... I haven't heard from her at all. No Mindsay comments, no emails, no anything...

 

...Where is my darling Emilpops......?