Dixie Loves Emily @ MindSay 
Dixie currently feels:
Depressed
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Yesterday, whilst Adam was round here again - he told me he can tell when I'm depressed.
His main reasoning was, whenever I'm with him, I'm prone to laughing spontaneously for long periods of time. I'll laugh a lot at most seemingly normal things he says.
But his reasoning was that when I'm depressed, I don't laugh, I'll only smile minorly.
So I thought, and I applied it - and I found that he was right.
So I'm wondering, am I really that obvious?
When I'm alone in the house and depressed, I'll wander up and down the passage, staring at the floor.
If I'm laid on the sofa in the living room, I'll stare at my reflection in the fireplace for ages.
If I'm in my room, I usually sit differently in my chair - I'll slouch more, whilst I normally sit really straight.
I've also noticed I get less enjoyment from things, and when I think to myself, I swear less, and when I talk, my voice is a lot more emotionless.
When I'm around others, I'll isolate myself.
In school, I'd sit down my aisle, or I'd sit at a table alone.
If I were on a table with others, I'd remain silent, and work quicker, with my head down.
Yeah, I'm starting to realise.
I actually am that obvious.
I must've been really sad yesterday, because Adam actually hugged me.
And that never happens.
Dixie currently feels:
Alone
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- I was planning for my blog title to be alliterative, but I think there's only like two things I'm going to mention that start with S.
So I sort of failed there.
Adam stayed over last night (Saturday).
We started off by him coming at about half 12 - and waking me up. So I went and had a shower, and we sat around for a while, playing Guitar Hero III and watching random stuff on YouTube.
Then he leant me his monster turbo hairdryer, because we were sick of waiting for my hair to dry before we could go out.
- Yeah, on Friday, I went to ASDA with mam. We bought some stuff for Adam and I to munch on, and I bought some socks for dad for father's day today, and a card. I got Adam some hairbands and some Jelly Babies for his birthday present - as he turns 16 tomorrow. :)
I actually made a bit more effort this year, because I totally forgot his birthday last year.
We're best friends, and have been for like 11 years - and I forgot his bloody birthday. :)
I actually remembered it, TEN MINUTES AFTER IT HAD PASSED.
At like 00:10, I remembered. :)
Mam went a bit overboard, she wanted to get Adam presents herself - so she went mental, buying him a Smarties cake, a shirt, a little bracelet kit (as a joke, of course. :D), some Malteasers and some deoderants.
Because it was father's day weekend, ASDA had put all their birthday cards away, so there was a really shitty selection.
Lmfao, today's fucked suggested tag is "I heart Adam".
I do, but he never hugs me. Which makes me sad. :(
But when I was shooping with mam, I persuaded her to get me some Ben & Jerry's cookie dough ice-cream.
It's whopper expensive.
It's about the same price as Hagen Daz - which is THE expense of frozen desserts.
I got a little tub, about 250ml, - £2.70!
I told Adam over MSN before he came, and he got a craving for it himself.
Anyway, after my hair was dry - (I put on the new shirt mam had bought me on Friday - red and grey striped polo with a collar :D) - we went down to ASDA so Adam could get his dad and his nana presents for father's day and her birthday, respectively.
And we got a big tub of Ben & Jerry's half-baked. - I actually preferred the cookie dough, but they were both proper lush.
So we got home and shared that - then returned upstairs to play some more Guitar Hero III and mess about with anything we found - like we normally do.
Then we watched The Weakest Link: Blue Peter special - and I don't know WHY we watched it, either...
I think we were just bored and couldn't be arsed, so we watched telly instead of playign video games.
Earlier on, whilst faffing on with the cable box, Adam found the music on demand menu - and we found tons of music videos we could watch for free.
So we watched AFI, Slipknot, Gorillaz, All-American Rejects and The Ting Tings.
- When mam and dad came home, I forced mam to watch The Ting Tings' video. She didn't like them, but after I'd been banging on about them all week, I felt she ought to know why. :)
I made us lamb grillsteaks and chips for tea, and we watched Dr. Who. I played on my DS for a little while, because I don't understand Dr. Who at all - because I don't watch it, really.
It was alright though, it killed some time.
When mam and dad came home, Adam started banging on about playing Scrabble again.
- Last Saturday, he'd wanted to as well, and I didn't want to get under my bed.
I actually wanted to play it myself yesterday though, so he stopped downstairs, and I went upstairs, propped the airbed against the wall, and started looking under my bed.
I found a little box that belonged to my grandad, with dominoes, draughts and chess in it - magnetic!
I put that to one side, because it's awesome.
I also took out my Lego, which I found, (You'll see... :D) and I even found my old hymn book from primary school.
I sang some of my favourite ones to myself as I looked for the game.
As I stuck my head inside, the airbed fell down on top of me - so I had my head and my shoulders stuck inside my bed, surrounded and enclosed by piles of boxes and tins, with a big beasty airbed on top of me.
It took me about five minutes to get out!
- But I found the Scrabble - and Adam read through the hymnbook too, and we both felt nostalgic at our memories of singing them at primary school.
It was about 12 by this time - and mam and dad were in bed.
Adam said it was too depressing in my room at night, so he wanted to play Scrabble downstairs.
- And we were there for two hours!
Everything is so much funnier when you can't make any noise... Seriously.
Our first few games of Scrabble were quite good - and it also gave us something to piss ourselves over all night.
See, we were coming to the end of one of the games, and I had some really shitty tiles like F, X, J and Z.
Earlier on, I'd been desparate, and put down 'HEN'. - A proper shitty word, worth proper nothing.
Out of boredom, frustration and annoyance, when Adam wasn't looking, I added the Z to the end of 'HEN'.
So it then became 'HENZ'.
And I was proper laughing into a pillow, so he realised summat had amused me - and he didn't realise for ages, but when he did, we were both adding it randomly into sentences and pissing ourselves.
- When we were setting the airbed and the sheets upstairs - bear in mind, this is at about half 2 in the morning - Adam forgot to get the extra cushions, and he goes: "Oh wait, I just need to go get the HENZ..." - and I was crying at it!!
Before we went to sleep properly, after we'd set the airbed up, and Adam was laid on it, and I was laid next to him in my own bed - we were playing on Pictochat on DS.
Of course; we were drawing pictures of hens, or HENZ, should I say. :)
Then we started our Guitar Hero piss-taking again.
Hit Me With Your Best Henz - ROFL.
She Bangs The Henz - LMFAO.
Through The Fire And Henz - PMSL.
And so on. :)
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Next day, today - we woke up at about 11 - well, my mam woke us up - coming in the room, shouting: "SOCKS!", and putting a bag down on my computer desk.
We played some more Scrabble, and I got a proper legendary streak.
I put down 'DYKE' on a triple word score, and got about 30-od points.
Then from it, I added 'FETID', and got another 30-od, thanks to the triple word score.
Then Adam owned me in the next two games, of course.
We had our showers, then played some co-op Guitar Hero III.
We haven't played it together for a long while, and we've gotten a LOT better.
We were going from 3 stars to 5 stars on Expert-Expert.
Then, I got the wonderful Lego, and I built myself a castle. :)
- I was doing most of it whilst Adam was washing his hair and browsing YouTube.
...And I have photos. :D
Here's my castle from the front - notice my two identical guards. :)
Here's an arial shot. :)
I'm going to explain each part now, with a close-up shot of each. :D
This is the main living quarters. :)
At the back, you can see the king's treasure chest, laid out on his royal red carpet.
To the right, that's the king's throne, and his table - complete with a large ice-cream knickerbocker glory, and a pack of cards - because my king is a gambler. :D
At the front, that's the king's sleeping quarters, and his pet cat Soda sitting on it. :)
Here's the kitchen.
Complete with two water-pumps, a large mixing cauldron, and jars of spices on the wall. :)
There's also some bottles of beer and lemonade for his majesty's liquid nourishment.
Here's the guardrobe - or the toilet. :)
You can see some weaponry and a broomstick at the front - they're kept in a barrel in case they're needed. :)
For the comfort of the king and his knights, I enclosed the toilet with some walls. :D
Oh, and I added a mirror, so the knights can squeeze their spots. :)
The best part of every castle - the dungeon! :)
That's actually made with some jail bars I got from a Mega Bloks cowboy set. :)
Luckily, Lego and Mega Blocks usually fit together. :D
I even added a festering skeleton inside. :)
Oh, and some moss growing on the ceiling!
Here's a close-up of the guards.
I was going to give them helmets, but I only had three, and none of them matched.
Oh well, they can be subjectible to headshots. :)
Here's the royal archer, perched on the right battlement. :)
And on the left battlement is the king's trustworthy knight. :)
I love Lego people - and all the accessories you get with them. :D
And here's our foolhardy king - doing a little dance on the front turret. :)
Behind him, you can see the head of a traitor to the castle.
Mwah, that will serve as a warning to others. :D
And then, I started taking funny pictures with them. :)
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I knew it wasn't safe to stand on that turret!
Our king took a plunge into the horses' feeding trough, his sheild and sword scattered, and his cape seriously splattered.
Yes, I like my alliterations. :)
Our king punishes the unruly and lazy guards.
Of course, medieval style - he chains them up by their feet from the front turret. :)
Here's a closer shot. :)
You can almost hear their screams of pity as the blood rushes to their hairy heads. :)
And what's a castle without a few beheadings?
The royal knight beheaded this guard with his own axe - now THAT'S harsh. :)
Now that's an ice-cream fit for a king!
I think Soda would like a lick too. :D
Ah, Lego is fun. :D
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After Adam had gone, I downloaded some videos from YouTube - ready to go on my future iPod.
After being reminded of the Powerpuff Girls by hearing their song in a background of another video, I scoured YouTube for some full episodes.
It took some doing, but I have found some.
I've downloaded all the ones I could find - INCLUDING ONE OF MY FAVOURITES!!! - and I've even got to watch three new ones I hadn't seen before. :)
Dixie currently feels:
Alone
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I haven't blogged much this week.
I've been so exhausted with all of the exams and revision sessions I've been doing.
I've been coming in and falling asleep most of the time.
With everybody now leaving me, all I do now is download music and sort it out - then put it on iTunes.
So far, I only have 850 songs and 57 videos.
But tomorrow I'm going to add loads more.
The Media Studies exam on Tuesday was piss.
The two 20 mark designing questions were exactly the same as the ones we had in the mock - design a music TV programme, and design a comic front cover.
I did the same two designs.
Typically, it was the best drawing of #1263 I've ever done, and I won't get to keep it.
Those Welsh bastards at the WJEC better appriciate it.
Today I had a Geography exam.
It wasn't so easy, but it wasn't overly difficult.
I have Friday and Monday off - FOUR DAY WEEKEND - and I'm gonna chill like fuck.
I might even end up eating all the ice cubes in the freezer.
It's been so hot recently, but today, I'm wearing a hoody in the house. Mam's wearing a jacket, dad's wearing a jumper - it's so cold.
Mam upset me earlier, so I used BSR again.
I only did 5 cuts, just above my elbow, but they were quite deep.
I downloaded 'That's Not My Name' by The Ting Tings earlier.
It's a really bright and happy indie-pop song, and it cheered me up a bit.
I've tried completing The Impossible Quiz four times in the past 10 minutes.
Every single time, I died on question 107.
107! THERE'S ONLY 110!!!
I watched a video of someone complete it, and I KNOW I can do questions 108, 109 and 110.
It's just 107!
...Alright, "wearing a tie" is a suggested tag today.
I haven't worn a tie in ages.
All through the Geography revision sessions, I've sat at the back with Miraan and done nothing but draw freehand sketches of #1263.
They've all turned out quite good.
I've drawn her in her school uniform from the end of the novel, wearing #1264's huge polo shirt from Rivalry, in her favourite outfit of a white and red shirt and green shorts, and then I drew her bedraggled and distraught after Imprisonment.
I've began to write Decampment - the chapter that comes after Imprisonment.
I need to finish Perseverance, then I'll be able to post it up.
I've gone over chapter 1 of Fire of Glory, and that's ready to be re-posted.
Either today or tomorrow, or even Saturday, maybe Sunday, maybe Monday - I'll go over chapter 2 and I'll post that up as well.
Dixie currently feels:
Depressed
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(I'll give you those word definitions tomorrow, I promise. See, I was absorbed in what I'm going to talk about in this blog, and I looked at the time and realised I have like 15 minutes to write a blog. So I'll just write a quick one before it turns midnight.)
Today, I woke up at 3PM, made myself some chicken bites and potato Rosti, and sat down to organise my music.
Miraan told me that if I'm planning on putting everything onto my future iPod, I should download iTunes. So I did, and I put all of my music onto there.
I LOVE iTUNES!
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Reasons why Dixie likes iTunes:
- Sexy layout
- Can view all the album art
- Can change size of the album art
- Organises into albums
- Is VERY easy to notice mistakes
Reasons why Dixie doesn't like iTunes:
- It's sometimes a faff to get everything right
- My keyboard buttons like skip and stop don't work
- I'm yet to find a shuffle setting (but I'm sure there is one...)
- Asides from the album organising, there's not many other ways to organise
- iTunes was made for the purpose of buying music. 75p a song?! I DON'T THINK SO.
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Some of them look weird though, because I only have one song for the albums - on quite a lot of them.
Some of them, I don't really think much of getting more from the album, but some, I'm planning to.
At the moment, I'm changing ratings.
Then I'll put my headphones on and organise all the other music in the folder that's not in the right alpha files, then I'll sort my soundtracks.
Then I'll download more!
(And I'll sort that on Sunday night when I'm supposed to be revising. :D)
Ah, my life is so INTERESTING. :P
Dixie currently feels:
Suicidal
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Currently playing:
- Pokémon Diamond
Currently listening to:
- My Immortal - Evanescence
- Vermillion Part 2 - Slipknot
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Times cried: Three times
Wounds inflicted: Left arm - 154, Right arm - 61.
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I don't know what the point in blogging today is.
I don't mean anything to anybody anymore.
It's been a week now.
And look what it's done to me.
- 27th May-3rd June -
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