Dirty @ MindSay

I had a guest today that lived on Serenity Street.  As she was spelling Serenity, I'm thinkin' 'yeah lady, I totally know how to spell Serenity.'  Which then lead me to thoughts of Jayne.

Mmmm......Jayne. 


He's all..........dirty and stuff.


Jayne.......

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm hungry, but I can't find the willpower to get up and get something to eat. So then I just don't get hungry anymore. I have an incredible headache right now, in fact I've probably eaten more tylenol in the past 48 hours than food. I haven't left my room more than 4 times in the past 48 hours.  I actually have class tomorrow, which means that I will have to go outside and face the real world. But then I'm done for the week again. Apparently Monday was some sort of holiday and we didn't have classes, while I only have classes on Monday and Wednesday each week, so I had a full week of nothing. And then one day of classes, and then another four days of nothing this week. So basically I'm doing nothing right now. Haven't done anything, haven't eaten, haven't felt the motivation to leave.

Oh also haven't showered in a bout a week. Since I haven't had anywhere to go or people to see I've just been loafing around. I really hate myself for this. On good days I like to wear cologne and feel fresh and clean, but that hasn't happened in about a month. I tend to go through phases of absolute grunge to fresh and clean. I haven't shave for a month now and I've got a gross mustache and neck beard. My hair is getting long too and that's not helping my appearance. I'm pretty sure that someday this week I'll have my cleaning up ceremony where I actually take a shower, clean my face, shave, wear clean clothes, and not look like a tramp.

Maybe this is all because I've been abnormally depressed lately. More so than I've ever been before. I just don't care about things anymore. I know I'm depressed, but I'm just riding it out.

This should be my all time record for earliest post on mindsay.  I don't know if that is good or bad, as it isn't even all that early; it is 7:33 am.  Yeah I got up at 6 in the morning to watch Dice-K and the Sox against the Oakland A's in Japan, and it really isn't paying off so far, as the whole team is looking like it is still spring training.  But I did have Dice-K on my rotisserie baseball team, so I did what any loyal owner should do.  Unfortunately, the first two innings he pitches were downright painful to watch, but thankfully he has settled down now after 4.

It will be interesting to see if my posts are any more or less incoherent in the mornings.  I am not a morning person by any stretch of the imagination, although I do think it would be more productive if I made more of an attempt to be one.  I sleep so terribly that I just don't get a good rest at night, so I see this as not happening any time soon.  It takes me a good 35-40 minutes to shake the cobwebs in the morning, while some would argue I don't shake them at all.  There is a professor at the University of California that has been trying to almost manufacture his mood by altering his activities and trying to find an optimal routine to boost his morale.  This is an interesting concept.  I know that he found he is happier if he watches an hour of television in the morning, and none before bed.  I wonder what my optimal schedule would be. 

Does the name Jack Cust sound dirty to you?  Yeah, me too. 

yeah i know the background is a bit retarded but i'm tired. :[

the header is all different lyrics but i feel as if it describes the thoughts that sometimes run through my head a lot. haha.

without the words.