Dieting @ MindSay 
And I thought I was just psychic.....
Having an anxiety attacks gives you the feeling of knowing something wrong is going to happen, and usually something does. I guess believing and trusting that I knew something terrible was going to happen, something always did. But it was just an anxiety attack. Loser.
So today for dinner (and the rest of the month) I'm going to be living on nothing but liquids. Tomato soup here i come. YUCK. But you gotta do what you gotta do right? I need to lose soo much weight. I started my job at a daycare and working with children is a great workout. Pushing swings non-stop, running after children and constantly picking up little ones really burns those calories. And the best part is I dont even realize I'm buring them. But I need to start running. Even though I hate it, running is a great help to slim down hips and thighs and I really really need that. I downloaded tons and tons of "running" music hoping that would motivate me even more. Honestly, I do not want to lose weight in a healthy way. Probably because, its not going to give me the results I want. I want to be thin. Not healthy. Healthy is having a little meat on your bones and having a little somethin' somethin' on your butt. I want a lot of nothin' nothin. I mean, I'll always have hips, tits and ass, but going on crash diets and the look I want to achieve, I think, will look good on my frame..HAHA, I dont know what I'm talking about, BUT I'm trying to get down to 120. That's a good weight I think. And with the help of the Apidexin I orderd and the 500 cal. intake a day...I can get there in four months. Maybe quicker if I gather up the courage to order that HCG protocol shit. That stuff works! I already have Cylaris and it does work but it makes me feel very light-headed and just woozy. Sooooo, I think I might stay away from that for a while.
School starts tomorrow, 'll tell you how it goes....
Age: 16
Name: Ko
Height: 5' 3''
Weight: About 135
Birthday: March 31st
Zodiac: Monkey ( Eastern ), Aries ( Western )
Blood Type: A
Occupation: Student / Restaurant Hostess
There's the basics!
So! Tomorrow I start my diet ( or today technically? ). No snack foods, no meats, add diet pills and more veggies. Let's do our best, everyone!
よくできましょうね。
がんばりましょうね。
Tattooedjen reports of a strange and personal new health requirement in Japan. In a country we would hardly deem at risk for obesity due to their healthy diets, the government is working on a required method that will reduce obesity, or "metabo" by 25% in 7 years. Citizens of Japan are being called upon to have their waistlines measured. The new prescribed limit for a male's waistline is 33.5 inches. For women, it is 35.4. The targeted group for measuring are those of ages 40 to 74, which is a little less than half of their population. If after 3 months they are unable to lose the inches, they will be given dietary guidance. For those who cannot lose the inches in 6 months, they will be given "further re-education."
In America, the average waistline for men is 39 inches, and for women it is 36.5. How would you feel if such a law were enforced in your country? Is the government overstepping its boundaries? Do you think this will have a positive or negative effect on body image in the Asian country?
Thank goodness I have good veins and she found it on the first try...There was no way I was going to be able to stand her taking it in and out for every vial if she was a trainee. I met with my family doctor today and we discussed the blood tests I wanted done. It checked for a wide variety of things that may be affecting my thyroid/energy levels:
• Total Testosterone
• Bioavailable Testosterone (AKA "Free and Loosely Bound")
• Free Testosterone (if Bioavailable T is unavailable)
• DHT
• Estradiol (specify the Extraction Method, or "sensitive" assay for
males)
• LH
• FSH
• Prolactin
• Cortisol
• Thyroid Panel doing this.
- * TSH
* Free T4 and Free T3
* Thyroid Antibodies (anti-TPO and TgAb.)
* Reverse T3
* Ferritin (and do stress FERRITIN, not just RBC)
* B-12
* DHEA-S
• Comprehensive Metabolic Panel
• Lipid Profile
This is one of those comprehensive blood labs where they look for basically every single hormone in my blood, every single possible mineral deficiency and so on. I'm actually worried that the blood tests might come back normal, which would make me feel like it's all in my head. But I know my body well enough to know that there is definitely not something working right. Whether it's my thyroid alone or the whole endocrine system working inharmoniously . We talked a little bit about why my metabolism is so slow and he blatantly said it might be due to poor dieting, which to a certain extent I can agree. I definitely don't eat enough meals during the day, but it's because I'm usually just not hungry. I can't force myself to eat. I only burn 1900 calories a day, which is still far below the norm for the average male my age. In fact it's way below the norm for both men and women.
My theory is that since my thyroid has been out of whack for so many years, my body has simply adjusted to living off of very low energy levels and it's basically stuck in gear. I've maintained a regular body weight of 180lbs for nearly three years. Never going up and never going down. I couldn't lose or gain weight if I tried, but recently over the last 6 months I've put on more weight than I'd like to admit. I haven't changed my eating habits or my exercise level, so it makes me worry that something went out of line.
There's nothing else I can really do except try to eat a little more and try to exercise a lot more until I can get the blood work results back. That will let me know if my hormone levels and mineral levels are in balance. If somethings missing it could mean a whole lot of shit that I just don't want to know, yet at the same time I NEED to know.
Oh well, here's to one week of waiting!
Tschuess!
I leave for Bamberg, Germany in three weeks and I have nothing packed, nothing arranged, and no idea what the hell I need to bring with me. I will be gone for 6 months, so I'm expecting to bring a lot of clothing, bed sheets, my computer + speakers...perhaps myself? I should have had all of these things ready in early February, but I've been too busy with work. Obviously I should have been more concerned with arranging my luggage and paperwork with my home university's financial aid. So now I'm struggling to fill out the appropriate paperwork to receive financial aid. This is going to sound crazy but this is how it works. Edinboro is my home university, Clarion is the university through which I'm entering the program, and Otto-Friedrich Uni is the overseas university. All the paperwork I need to fill out must first go through Clarion, then back to Edinboro, then back to Clarion, then to Otto-Friedrich then back to Clarion. Confusing, no?
All the while dealing with financial aid, incompetent desk monkeys, I've been trying to straighten out my whole Thyroid ordeal. I recently joined an online support forum for thyroid patients. I've been learning how to get better thyroid treatment from my doctors and how to basically live a healthier life. (Now if only I'd stop smoking). I've been taking my temperature each morning at 6am before I take my medicine and my internal temp is only 96.8-98.0 degrees, which is definitely not normal. For the normal person it's supposed to much higher in the morning, around 98.6 in the middle of the day and towards evening. It's pretty clear my thyroid is not regulating my body's metabolism properly. I know it seems low, but it's not hypothermic. Not yet at least. I only burn 1900 calories a day, whereas the normal male my age should be using 2400-2700 at least. If this keeps up I will just keep gaining weight, because my body thinks I'm starving, when I'm really not. I have two doctors appointments this month before I leave to make sure I get enough meds before I go overseas, and possibly to help me set my health priorities straight. There's that word again: priorities.
Did I mention I've never been good with keeping my priorities straight?
Tschuess!
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