Diabetes @ MindSay

I graduated from PCI this afternoon with people that barely remember my name much less that I attended the same school with them around the same time. 

I graduated with high honors which is honestly a miracle.

I'm going back to school in three weeks for some kind of associates degree just so I can say I have a degree.

Josh and I plan on getting married around October 12th of this year.  We'll probably just go to the courthouse to get married in front of a few family members and then have a reception somewhere.  Nothing fancy and nothing big because Josh and I both happen to hate crowds and I freeze up in front of dozens of people watching me.  I'm the watcher and I get overwhelmed if I have too many people to observe all at once.

Work is work.  I enjoy it and all but I can't handle it full time for the simple fact that I'm always getting sick and I'm entirely too empathetic for my own good.  So I work between 15-20 hours a week, more if I think I can handle it.  Not sure how I'm going to handle working and going back to school.  We'll see.

Tabetha is due to have her baby around June 21st and I would really like to be there for my incoming niece's birth, but I'm not really sure if we'll have the money or the time to go.

My grandma is moving to Arizona where I have an aunt, an uncle, and a cousin.  I think she'll like it there better but I know I'm really going to miss her because I feel like she's the only family member (other than Tabetha) that even remotely cares about me.

I can't believe that Tabetha's son is going to be one in June and June is getting so close.  Where the hell is time going?

I had to close my bank account on Friday because the bank sucked ass... they were rude and expensive to deal with and fired a friend of ours for being Pagan.  Of course, they didn't come out and say it, but what American company would be brave enough to?

My parents decided it would be fun to claim me as a dependent on their taxes this year although I haven't lived with them in over two years.  I didn't find this out until I received a rejection notice from the IRS.  Now they owe the IRS over $300 because I made them re-file and fix their deliberate mistake.  For some reason, I feel guilty for making them pay such an amount for screwing me over and I know I shouldn't.  It's obviously easy to make me feel guilty.

I didn't take my medication for my diabetes for a couple months and paid for it in the end with a blood sugar of a whopping 558 this past Monday.  Also started on Zoloft to balance out my moods so it would be easier to quit smoking.  Only problem with that is the fact that it literally makes me sick now.  Spent the better part of Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday nights in the bathroom rather than sleeping.  Didn't take the Zoloft last night and slept like a rock, but for some odd reason I'm feeling really nauseous. 

Well, that's it for Farrah's general update. 

Have a pleasant night.

What are you supposed to write in your first entry? I guess that's the beauty of blogging--there are no rules. So here we go :o)

I am sitting here panting like a dog at the moment. I just ran up 12 flights of stairs and delivered a healthy dose of insulin. I am a Type 1 Diabetic of 13 years and still struggling to keep this disease in line. It quite often disobeys me, which is why I am sitting here with high blood sugar and a dry mouth waiting for my exercise and insulin to kick in.

Illnesses my friends, are the devil, and they shred us up and burn us if we let them. I recently let my diabetes devour me. After a sexual assault and depression, I neglected to perform every single basic principle of diabetes care. I prepared for the worst when I stepped into the doctor's office....Call me blessed or lucky, but I managed to successfully wreak havoc on my body without experiencing any permanent or debilitating damage.

I'm learning from my "evil" illness. It's teaching me to value myself. And valuing includes putting time and energy into yourself and your health. I WANT to live. So I stopped killing myself. A slow suicide is no way to go.

I'm not quite unbreakable yet. I have a few cracks that have yet to be sealed. I get weak and careless from time to time...but at least now I know how to bounce back.

I could blame the asshole who assaulted me for my downfall, but he doesn't put food in my mouth or syringes in my thighs. I'm learning. This is my path...I did a U-turn and now I'm going full force down the beaten path of life.

WASHINGTON - Middle-aged men who ate seven or more eggs a week had a higher risk of earlier death, U.S. researchers reported on Wednesday.

Men with diabetes who ate any eggs at all raised their risk of death during a 20-year period studied, according to the study published in the American Journal of Clinical Nutrition.

The study adds to an ever-growing body of evidence, much of it contradictory, about how safe eggs are to eat. It did not examine what about the eggs might affect the risk of death.

Men without diabetes could eat up to six eggs a week with no extra risk of death, Dr. Luc Djousse and Dr. J. Michael Gaziano of Brigham and Women's Hospital and Harvard Medical School found.

"Whereas egg consumption of up to six eggs a week was not associated with the risk of all-cause mortality, consumption of (seven or more) eggs a week was associated with a 23 percent greater risk of death," they wrote.

"However, among male physicians with diabetes, any egg consumption is associated with a greater risk of all-cause mortality, and there was suggestive evidence for a greater risk of MI (heart attack) and stroke."

They urged more study in the general population.

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So I drank the nasty orange stuff, and went in to get my finger poked, and I have found out that I am right above the cutoff for being a diabetic...noooo.

I'm just doing research right now, as I'm not really familiar with diabetes (but ecspecially gestational diabetes).

How is everybody else? :O