Deadline @ MindSay

SO i was meant to finish my media coursework over the weekend but...i didn't. too busy. I needed to kill some Siths and all that jazz. So basically due to me being extremely lazy and unmotivated i left it till monday. that's when the lazyness kicked in again. But i thought...hey i don't do much work during photography so i'll do it then. Baaaaad idea.

I forgot the handouts that told me what i was supposed to write. I forgot the work that i already done and the deadline is in about 4 hours. Fuck. Great word describes my situation perfectly. I'm gonna go see my teacher at break and try and wing a deadline postponement. My one true skill:winging it.

In other news i will take all your advice and ask her out when i get the chance. If it goes wrong i'm blaming God as s/he has no other purpose.

Anyway,

'Everybody in your crew sucks, punk mother fucks'

Dixie currently feels:

Stressed

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It's quarter past eleven.

I'm sat in a room with no heat, in a wet towel, with wet hair and shoulders - staring at my English coursework, having to type slowly because my mother is in bed in the next room.

This coursework is like, 6 months overdue and tomorrow is the final deadline for it.

I've wrote two pages, size 11, in an hour and a half. I'm about half way done.

But I'm ready to bite someone.

...Oh, the sheer stress.

The eve of metal for the brain. The deadline for us. This change for me and my boy was a freedom between us to see if it helped things improve. We love each other but love cant be everything in a relationship. We were so tied up in each other, totaly engaged in each others life. No freedom really, no friends of our own, becoming so used to being around each other it was tiring us out. So we decided we were together but independant and free. The trial period to see if it worked was from about 1 1/2 months ago untill metal for the brain. Thats tommorow. So after the gigs over we will talk.

I dont know how I feel i guess well see how it goes. The problem is because of the move lately I havnt had much of a chance to utilise that freedom so I dont know if I should take that into account or not when we talk. Ive no doubt I love him but the feeling isnt what it used to be. Its more like an addiction, a vital need for him. But how can I tell him I dont want to be with him if I dont even know if what I feel is real or a mindset as a result of being with him for so long. I dont want to stay with him if he'll just become another belonging or something after time. But I dont want to break up just cause it seems like the best thing to do.

Another problem is this freedom maybe very open but there are still things I cant or wont do because even if he says its ok, it may still hurt him.

Im scared of what this weekend could bring. Whether we stay or split, I dont have any idea if it will be the right choice. I didnt realise how much I was dreading this day till I read his blog and realised what day it was. I may not be with him at the end of the weekend. And even worse, I still dont know if im scared cause I love him and I want him to be around or because Im used to him always being there.

(If your reading this babe, Im sorry if it hurt you)

I won't be giving many reminders. See previous entry for deadlines and other details. I figure, if you want to contribute and be published, you'll make the effort. No censure from me. No nagging. Just enjoying the process and making sure you guys know what to expect from Mindmeld Project.

Submissions received before the deadline (aka: any time now) will have special opportunities, like being created first and showcased earlier than others on this page. It also helps us to play with content and work out the finer details. Mindmeld Project is eager to play and wants to begin working on the first issue.

There will be many opportunities for people to contribute in smaller ways. Keep watching. Your support is needed to make Mindmeld Project what it can and will be- so spread the word.

Hey,

Recording is going to be tomorrow. So. If anybody has a podcast they wish to advertise, we're accepting promo trades, banner trades, etc. Just a sort of affiliation exchange program, more information about this will be in detail on the upcoming website.

However, if you want to be advertised on our very first show, then please send in your promo recordings to us no later than 2:00PM AEST May 27th 2006 (tomorrow... well, technically today because it's 1:10AM).

Our apologies for such short notice. We've been in a frenzy trying to meet the deadline.

Also, if we ever came across your blog and asked you if we could record a certain entry, please comment back here with the link because I only have the user names written down, I don't have the link the those specific entries. Well, actually, I think I bookmarked some. In either case, I'll check but please do try to remember heh :( We wanted to read those for a reason, they're good and they should be shared!

Anyway, if anybody has anything to say about whatever topic in the world, you can shout out to us at hallelujahshow@yahoo.com and your ramblings will be a part of our podcast.

If you would like to contribute to the show in other ways (e.g. hosting, editing, art, or other works) also please e-mail us with what you'd be interested in.

So just a kinda quick run down...

We've got the Question of the Week (dw, this will be changed), we've got music, news,  special guest, blog readings, challenges, and a whole lot of junk that we haven't given any sort of name to, just hard to give them a description lol. But yeah, we're still thinking of names for each segment.

Okay, it's past 1:30AM and I'm still working on THLS. It better be good lol HAH.

*fingers crossed*

Stay tuned,

-THLS