I met someone wonderful. Someone that was just.. perfect for me. They were exactly what i wanted in a mate--- The EXACT thing!

 

What do i do? I fall in love with them!

 

Next, what happens? Well fuck he has a GF. Its all good, she never comes up, and his sweet sweet words caress my heart.

 

Then one day she comes up. And talks to me. And she talks about. How she loves him, how they're engaged, blah blah blah.

 

and i feel betrayed by those sweet words of caring, because how could he say to me that his day just got better, when he has a woman to already say that to!

 

 

And i feel betrayed by my own heart for i feel now, like i'll never, ever EVER be allowed one ounce of happiness.

 

 

Im so tired of existing.

 

Dutifully taking pills to make myself better, only to wake up more often wishing i could be dead.

Uncle Joey apparently died last night/today.

I wasn't particularly close to him; I'm not positive I've seen him in person after I was 2 (aka, a time I might remember meeting/seeing him).  He was my grandpa's younger brother. He was very close to 91, if he didn't make it to 91.  I'm still very sad, though.  I was just working on my family tree the other day, having completed the same thing last semester, and Joey was the only one of that generation who was still with us. And now he's not.  Now he's gone.

And I'm being a bad person and not going to services because I'm going out to hang out with my friends and be social.

Well this is the last day of winter, and Spring arrives tomorrow! As the flowers burst out of the cold soil to fill the world once again with their beauty and their sweet smell fill the air,as the trees wake up and leaf out,  and new babies are being born in all the world, from chicks to calves, to humans , as new life  is brought forth,  let us also remember  that this  is also the anniversary of Bush's  illegal war, we must never never forget the sacrifices of our heroic men and women who are fighting in Iraq and Afganistan, and we must always honor those whose lives have ended may they always be remembered   and for their families who will always have a hole left in their hearts for the loss of their loved ones, THANK YOU MILITARY SERVICE MEN AND WOMEN  FOR YOUR SERVICE !! MAY YOU BE BLESSED AND BE KEPT SAFE FROM ALL HARM.             Honor the Fallen

The following fatalities were identified by the DoD on 3/17:   Spc. William D. O’Brien Staff Sgt.Collin J. Bowen Sgt. 1st. Class Shawn M. Suzch Staff Sgt. Ernesto G. Cimarrusti Staff Sgt. David D. Julian Cpl. Robert T. McDavid Cpl. Scott A. McIntosh Staff Sgt. Juantrea T. Bradley Spc. Dustin C. Jackson Pfc. Tenzin L. Samten Staff Sgt. Laurent J. West Sgt. Phillip R. Anderson Spc. Donald A. Burkett Capt. Torre R. Mallard Official DoD Count of Troops Killed in Iraq: 3970 Troops Killed in Afghanistan: 481 Wounded in Action: 31289 Learn more about casualties.