Datwbsvoh @ MindSay

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Thursdays are now destined to be super-shitty.
Why? Because the college timetable opens with English Language as the morning lesson. Just no. I can't fucking face Angela at 9AM.

And I'm so thankful I've ended up with Angela, because if I'd had Sue - today would have been my first and last A2 English lesson. Fuck that.

But it was a waste of time. All she did was hand out endless wodges of notes and dividers for us to categorise shite. I was so bored I resorted to doing what I did for the entire course of year 11 English lessons - writing all over my ringbinder with gold pen.

I also used silver and permanent marker. I wrote RADIOACTIVE SAUSAGE on the back with black, then outlined it in silver. It looks proper mint. :)

In my break, I started working on a new drawing. I continued it throughout Photography and the break afterwards, as in the Photography lesson - due to the sever being all fucky and not letting us log-on so we could edit our stuff - we practically ended up doing nothing.
Oh, we had a mini-lecture on manual settings and apature, but I'm still pretty in the dark about them. :/

Either way, here's my drawing.
Ashleigh Sparrow, naturally. DATWBSVOH must be saved soon... I hope it manages...



Oddly enough, it doesn't have any major glaring mistakes. I did her hair a bit of a weird colour, and I made her look a tad TOO angry and psychotic - but I didn't cock up the hands - which is good. :)

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When I got home, I ate pizza and played Banjo-Kazooie.
I loaded up the save I started last time Ash asked me to play it - and I fully completed 4 more worlds - bringing my grand total to 8/9 worlds complete.
I'd even managed to get all 100 fucking notes on RUSTY BUCKET BAY. Something I'd never done before.

Bloody Click Clock Wood was causing me the most aggravation, but after I'd sat there for another hour pissing around with guides and attempting to calm myself  after numerous suicide jumps from the top of the 100-foot high tree - I managed to get all 100 notes on that level too.

But then I was faced with the final boss.
I don't know if I was tired, or if I was just shit - but I just couldn't do it.
I ended up turning it off in the end.
I plan to re-attempt it tomorrow... If all goes well, we have a shiny 100% completion on our hands.

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I've spent a good day with Shelly today. :)
We were alone for a good portion of it - so all was fun... Tee hee.

When we were being good, we drank Pepsi and blackcurrant, listened to King Diamond and played with my modelling clay.
I made Sonic today - because Shelly likes him.
I think it's pretty good:





Shelly didn't want her photo taken today. :)

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Shelly had said that she was going to help me to get writing DATWBSVOH today.
We talked about it for a while but it ended up depressing me, so I sat in the space between my drawers and my bed and cried for a while. Shelly got upset too.

Mam came in, being a nosey cunt and asked what was happening and I said it was nothing she could help me with.
As soon as Shelly had gone - mam had a fit and kicked off, the stupid cunt - calling me a martyr and all this bollocks. Hmmm yes - that's the best way to speak to someone who has continual and frequent thoughts of self-harm and suicide isn't it?

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After my mood slightly rose last night with the parmo and Resident Evil combination - I suspected that I may feel slightly reasonable today. But no.
Today I've felt worse.

I would have allowed myself to cut my arms - but after mam told me that I might be going to get new shirts tomorrow - and she'd be there, naturally she'd want to see how they look on me - thus, making my arms a dangerous place to cut if I wanted to conceal them.
So I've had to opt for my legs instead, which sucks - because they don't hurt half as much.

Nobody is really helping.
Shelly certainly didn't help by ringing me up this afternoon hyper off her head.
Everyone else is always hyper as fuck or jolly and happy when I feel like slitting my throat.

She's coming to see me - but I can see it being a repeat of Wednesday.
Could even be worse if mam's not at work and insisting on taking me out. :(

I tried to continue DATWBSVOH last night and I only got a sentence out.
Sigh, it looks like I'll be fucking stuck on chapter one forever.

But, one positive I suppose:
Resident Evil: Code Veronica X - Nosterafu is dead, finally. And he didn't manage to poison me.
I'm onto Chris' scenario, but I might save that for when I have an audience.

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Today has been one of those incredibly boring days.
The highlights had to be playing Final Fantasy VII and talking to Reiss about DATWBSVOH at 3 in the morning. :D

In my several-hour streak of Final Fantasy VII, I've levelled up my main party slightly, along with mastering a few materia crystals.
I'm at the stage where I'm battling constantly to max everything out that's actually possible.

Along with talking to Reiss, I spent a few hours writing on my DATWBSVOH planning sheet. Reiss has asked to be included as a character, and he's helped me along with a few ideas - so naturally, I'm going to include him.
I got absorbed in writing it, until I got a bit stuck at 5AM and decided to quit and sleep.

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Andrew seized his chance; while Ashleigh’s arm was raised, he grabbed her by the wrist, his large fingers closing tightly around it. He then proceeded to twist it harshly between his thumb and forefinger, bending her arm back over on itself as he did so. Ashleigh let out a yelp of pain, furiously trying to struggle free - but this just caused his grip to tighten and the pain to worsen.
“Say you’re sorry, little Sparrow!” Andrew sniggered, raising his eyebrows challengingly.
Ashleigh whimpered, still having no luck at freeing herself, as she gnawed upon her lip, trying to blot out the pain. “…N-No! …I’m… I’m not saying it…!”
“Have it your way then…” Andrew smirked, grabbing Ashleigh’s arm with both hands, one at her wrist, one at her elbow - as he yanked it up and over her head, causing her to spin backwards in her wheelchair as he pressed her palm to the back of her neck.
Ashleigh screamed, burning agony welling up in all of the joints of her left arm, feeling now that there was no way she could ignore the pain, nor silence herself.
“AAAARRGH….!!! I…I’m… Alright!!! I’m sorry!!” Ashleigh wailed, flailing her free arm madly as she felt almost ready to start crying as a result of the pain.
Andrew spared her mercy, smiling smugly as he let her arm drop. “Much better, little Sparrow,” he said, baring his teeth in a smirk.
Ashleigh frowned, lowering her head slightly in embarrassment. She quickly placed both hands on her wheels, ignoring her aching arm - and forcefully propelled herself out of the hall, muttering violent curses under her breath.

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Summer Accomplishments:
- Completed band career 100% - (GH: Greatest Hits)

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Today's actually been better than I expected. :)
I couldn't get to Ashleigh's because of dad's dodgy shifts, so she came here instead.

Before she came though, mam was in my room on my computer writing AN ANGRY COMPLAINT LETTER.
She bought these red towels from Next - and they're a nice colour and quite soft, they just have a tendancy to cover everywhere in a layer of red fluff. You can't even dry yourself with them without getting covered in random moutled bits.

So she went onto the Next website and started writing out this e-mail to them.
I read it over so I could correct her spelling and grammar errors.
(She just doesn't know how to get a CAPITAL I....)

It was so bloody funny though - she even slagged off Primark by saying summat along the lines of: "OH MURR, IF I'D GOT THEM FROM PRIMARK I'D EXPECT SHODDY QUALITY."

Then she twisted the truth. I AM asthmatic - but when she said: "AND MY ASTHMATIC DAUGHTER CANNOT EVEN USE THE TOWELS" - that's bending it a bit too far. :)

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Ashleigh brought her slider-panel Metallica guitar with her today.
Nice one - we were both using guitars we were comfortable with.

I didn't feel at my strongest, so I played on Hard instead of Expert.
I still did lead though - Ash went on bass.

We managed to complete the entire career - from the end of level 2 (as Shelly and I had done the first few songs on Wednesday) right up to the TTFAF finale on level 8.

And we didn't get a single three star!
It's five stars all the way with the odd four star on the dodgy songs.

Christ, Beast & The Harlot - I almost got 100% on it.
And I only didn't because of a few silly errors.
AND IT'S ON LEVEL SEVEN.

I KNOW I can FC that - I'm gonna give it a go soon. :)

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It's weird - when I'm playing GH WITH someone - I can talk to them.
When someone's watching me - I can't. It puts me off something chronic.

So as we spent these few glorious hours sitting together on my bed, drinking Pepsi, eating Pom-Bears and playing GH: Greatest Hits - we held many-a random conversation. :)

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Ash is so cute. :)

When I was downstairs, making our food - she shouts: "Dixie....!"
I go: "...What Ash?"
She goes: "...Come heeeeeeere...!"
I go up, get to the bathroom and say: "What is it, Ash?"
She mumbles: "I need one of your paaaads..."

I actually didn't laugh at her - I could see she was embarrassed - so I went and got her one. Graciously. :)

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I made us both hot-dogs for our tea.
We sat outside in the back garden on the pub bench.
It was sunny, but we get a lot of shade in our garden because of Wendy's beasty tree in the garden next door.

It was quite soothing - especially since we were sat by the lavender bushes.
Lavender makes me super-relaxed and calm. :)

I had three hot-dogs - two with cheese, one without.
Ash had three hot-dogs, one with cheese, two without, all with ketchup.

Then I offered her one of the RANDOM CHOCOLATE BALLS.

Mam came in the other day and said: "Oh, there's some chocolate cake things in the fridge."
They're like little cups of chocolate sponge cake with chocolate icing, chocolate sauce in the middle and chocolate chips on the top. They're fucking nectar - and Ash agreed. :)

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When we'd eaten, we went back to Guitar Hero.
We went on to Quickplay - as I'd got the urge to go on vocals.

I wanted to prove to Ash how hard it was for me to get 5 stars on Them Bones playing Expert vocals.
Simply because my voice is too high and there's a few lines that I can't sing.

I only went and fucking got FIVE.
Seriously, you try and prove you CAN'T do something, and you CAN...

I also sang Cult Of Personality (on request by Ash, because she likes it) and Play With Me.
Shelly told me to see if Ash could pass it on Hard lead guitar. She did - she didn't fail that epically. She got about 89%.

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The most amusing moment of today was definatley TTFAF. :)

Ash was complaing about how easy it was on bass when we played it during the career.
So I suggested she play it on guitar while I sing it.

I was singing the chorus with varying voices and octaves - I went from Princess Peach to a random cave ogre, to a bloke with a snotty nose to a lopsided dwarf - then I'd SQUEAL.
Ash was in absolute fits. :)

Not only that - but Ash seemed to be scraping her way through it - so when I had no lyrics to sing, I was making up my own to the tune of the song, regarding Ash's current performances.

And it was SO exact! It was super-spontaneous, but it fitted to the lyrics so well.
Just imagine this to the tune of TTFAF:

I fail at hammer-ons,
I fail at slider notes,
I fail at open strums,
I fail at GENERAL strums,
I fail at orange,
I fail at blu-uuu-ue!
I fail at green-red-YELLOOOOOOOOW!!!

I fail at whammy bar,
I fail at star power,
I fail all the tiiiiiiii-iiime!!

No wonder Ash was failing - she was doubled up laughing half the time. :)

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I got Ash laughing again after this - we went on YouTube and watched some videos in my favourites.

Just like Lewis did, she was pissing herself at Brookers' Harry Potter parody video.
Along with the "Hello DAVE!" video, random CassetteBoy videos and YouTube poops.

I even showed her Give Me Back My Spleen - the video that Ashley Robson and the knobhead boys made in year 11.
I have nothing against Ashley, Garrie, Lamby or Foxon - but the rest of them were absolute dickheads.

Ash was just amused at how bad it was. :)

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And before Ash left - we spent a while discussing DATWBSVOH. :)
She gave me some more ideas, and inspired me of a way to unstick myself.

I'm currently stuck at a section where the two main rivals are arguing and insulting each other - and I wasn't sure on how to end it.
I've decided that Andrew Eagle is going to twist Ashleigh Sparrow's wrist back over on itself, making her cry, almost.

I tested this move on the real Ashleigh - so I could document her reaction to it.
Her voice went proper high. :D

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I've spent a lot of time tonight on MSN, talking to Kyle and Adam.

I really need to talk to Kyle more often.
He's matured a lot - he's not once said something stupid in the past few days.
I've got him interested in the Backloggery, and he's made an account on it.

We spend a lot of time discussing games, mainly.

We were both shocked and amused when Kyle asked me who the most annoying character in video game history was.
We both typed our answer simultaneously - Ashley Graham from Resident Evil 4. :)

With Adam - he's just being Adam.
Getting drunk on Peach schnapps while we both sent each other YouTube links to Countdown bloopers. :D