Curves @ MindSay

That is the question posed for the mammas out there today from me! 

 I, myself, am a MILF! For those of you who do not know what MILF stands for:  Mother I would like to Fuck!  Simply because I am NOT ashamed of my streach marks, my sagging bobbies, or even my paunchy belly!  You know why?  I see them as battle scars of 10 months (that 9 month crap is bull!) of back to back pregnancies!  I got this great lil, if not destructive, life force that is always going to be apart of my life.  My children carry on a peice of my spirit, my essence, and my soul even after I die!  They will always be around even when they or I am being an idiot! 

Sure I want and made a deal with Randy if I go back down to my graduation weight from highschool, he would splurge on a tummy tuck for me.  Simply because no matter how much weight I loose, thanks to having back to back kids my stomach muscles were pulled apart and away from their support.  Thus I have the paunch of a belly.  But you know what I am going to be doing the hard part with out surgery.  And that is working to define my already sexy thick curves and dropping not only weight but inches and clothes sizes.  Did I mention I only have 30 or so more lbs to lose?  But the deal was I might have to wait a bit on my tummy tuck even after I make my goal!  Why?  Because bills, kids, and other things come before a $3,000 dollar to $10,000 dollar elective surgery!  Those prices all depend on where you live.  See I have done my research already!

What is a Yummy Mommy?  Well some folks out there are saying this in place of a MILF.  What they don't understand is a MILF was a WILF before she became a MILF!  A woman I would like to fuck.  To me, WILF's and MILF's are far sexier then any woman or man that has to go in for plastic surgery on an already perfect body.  I don't want to be a Yummy Mommy!  And I am far from looking like Mrs. Doubtfire like so many women are claiming to start looking like after having kids and then even before their body is completely healed from havnig a baby and even trying to loose the weight naturally are going in for face lifts, tummy tucks, lazer treatments, or even complete body lifts!  Tell ya what!  I want folks to know that I am a Mamma!  Why would I want to look like some starving scrawny person who can't find decent clothes in the woman's section but has to go to their pre teen daughter's sectoin at the store?  Sure if your naturally small and thin it is one thing but to try to keep up with your daughters and sons in the looks department, the "cool department" and the behavor department is just lame in my eyes.

People need to be happy with what the Gods and Goddesses gave them!  And becoming a mamma and having your body turn to shit on you is one of the things they gave you.  Sure some women are naturally inclined to go back to their thin bodies never looking like they gained a lb!  Like my cousin Joe's wife, Kirstin!  That woman irritates me on many levels but you know what I don't begrudge her late 30 year old ass one bit for being a small stature, average size woman who has had 4 children.  Yes four children and still looks like she has not birthed one child at all.  Nor do I begrudge my cousin Tom's wife for having the same amount of children and still looking thin and good looking!  You know why?  Because they work hard at being a mother and wife and they take the time to do for themselves.  Just like I will give Kirsten and Kari a lot of credit, they both have looked at me with my medium sized body build with large muscle mass and tell me I am looking dayum good with my curves!  And I have more energy then a lot of folks that are smaller then even them and can keep up with not only my children, but my husband (hell I run Randy ragged most of hte time) and still work hard at trying to become healthy!  I know for a dayum fact I will never be a scrawny thing!  I wasn't born that way!

I was almost a 10lb baby, I was thin and rowdy as a kid but as soon as puberty hit in the 5th grade I got curves.  My hips and ass popped out, my boobs were only about a C cup and then boom after having 2 kids and multiple miscarriages I am now a D to DD cup depending on who makes the bra.  And no matter how much weight I loose my cup size hasn't gone down!  That is a genetic trait handed to me by both my grandmothers!  I also have a genetic trait of a deeply but straight curved spine and a rib cage that protrudes more then other folks causing the family tummy.  As a teenager I thought I was fat and now looking back at my year books I was thin with a tiny tummy and HOT.  I am still HOT just have a little bit more to me to love!

What am I getting at?  Simply put I know it is hard to age.  I know it is hard to have babies seperatly giving your body time to heal, back to back or in multiples!  But be happy with your body because you only get one!  Sure a lil body work for those who are in actual need of it.......like those women who have multiple babies and their tummy's just look terrible now from all the loose skin even after loosing the weight, those women who are predisposed like myself to have a lil paunch at all times and now their paunch is some what gone and you have loose muscles and skin.........but you know what folks take your time and don't get the work done just because you feel insecure with what your body looks like right after having a baby!  Did you all know that it takes 5 years after each birth for your womb and your innards to actually heal completely?  You all thought tribal folks were crazy for not spitting out a kid every year or two!  Well got news for you all, tribal folks thought us European folks were jsut as crazy for putting our bodies through that pain and suffering and causing the women great danger in having back to back kids!  Work at being a mom first by taking the time to loose the weight, tighten up what you can and paying you bills.

Yummy Mommy's take out loans, dont' pay their bills, or put their family in a money crunch because instead of telling the world to take them as they are and being happy with how they look and realizing they are no longer carefree kids they are feeding into socieities need of having perfect bodies!  I got news for you all, I rather see the models look like Marylinn and Betty Page then Naomie and Katie!

So are you a Yummy Mommy or a MILF?

yesterday at 12:34 5-6-7 I gave a big shout. although you have to omit the zero from the 07, it sorta works.

But i vividly recall 12:34 5-6-78 because I was heading up to Estes Park with three professors:  quiet and amusing Yu (philosophy), unbearably handsome Whiteside (history) and  horny as hell West (pol. sci.) for a faculty/student retreat when I was a senior in college ata very nice women's college. the snow falling in the rockies stopped us north of Boulder Colorado and we wound up going back to Yu's large tudor house, popping popcorn  in the fireplace and drinking too much bourbon.  Ah those student days were fun.

I started college  as  biology major thinking I wanted to be a dentist.

By mid term I had switched to Botany as I had an astounding skill for plant classification. I was given the enormous honor of being awarded a field experience as a Frosh doing a survey of the plants at the Plains Conservation Center and my advisor, a wicked sadist of a woman, took me out there to show me the rattle snake sites and how thick  and high my leather boots would have to be so when the snakes struck at me I would not die. until then snakes were not my favorite animal but i did not dread them.

Within a month I was an Art History major because the same ability to visually discern and classify things made me an amazing art historian and I the only snakes I would meet in galleries were the human variety.  Eventually I graduated summa cum laude with a double major in art history and studio art and a significant minor in biology.  My specialty was European and American art from 1850 on... Ingres, Manet, Matisse, Warhol and Frankenthaler ...you've heard of them right?

and what did I do with that fine body of learning? Getting an undergraduate degree taught me how to live and maintain a life long love of beauty and harmony and color, be able to create an amazing garden of native plants AND look upon social groups with a raised and often whimsical eye.

Many many  years of graduate school later I become a psychotherapist for families, couples and children. I found that path through a desperate must take it job teaching kindergarten in a private school  after i finished school and had started a master's in Art History. This  quickly and emphatically led me to know that working with the souls of young people was the most immediate and satisfying work I could do AND I discovered yet another talent I was not aware of: the ability to establish rapport with even a wild child quickly and solidly and use that relationship to help us both be better people. 

Don't ever imagine that life is a straight line. It takes all sorts of curves and slides. sorta like that volkswagon skidding along the highway trying to head north in 1978. we arrived  safely, but not where we expected.

I had my first workout today, and I honestly felt great afterward.  It wasn't too strenuous, but it wasn't too easy, either.  It isn't overwhelming, it isn't long and drawn out, and I felt kind of at peace when I was finished.  I think it's really going to help, and I'm hoping that it helps with the depression and the self-confidence issues as well.  I know it's not going to solve anything in its entirety, but it has to help, right?  I'm not sure how the three day a week commitment is going to go, but I know that it's something that I have to do, for me, and for my health.  If I start regularly now, it'll be a lot easier to keep that commitment to myself when I get older.  So, it's a win-win thing, right?

On a different note, I'm starting to really struggle with the headaches again.  I thought I had them licked with the preservative allergy.  I was wrong.

On yet another different note, please keep my cousin Kim in your prayers.  She's in Hershey Medical Center right now, and they can't figure out what's wrong with her.  She woke up one morning blind after a migraine.  They've discovered some minor health problems that had contributed to it, but not the root cause yet.  I'm really worried about her, and her two kids.  Her husband is struggling without having her with him.  (This is another reason why I'm worried about the headaches :|).

Good night everyone!

Our first workout starts tomorrow morning at 10.  It's a thirty minute circuit (figure a little longer since it's our first time on everything).   I hope the weather holds out so that we can keep our appointment, because I'm really starting to look forward to this.  I plan on keeping everyone posted as kind of an accountability thing (you've inspired me, Dawn), and just to come back if I hit a road block to help remind me of where I've been.  Because let's face it, we don't just blog for the outside world, we blog to help ourselves as well.  So, to be fair to you my viewing audience (I love you guys, btw!)...

Height: 5' 6 1/2"

Starting weight: 189

Goal: 140 (although 150 would make me very happy)

Waist: 36 1/4"

Chest: I hope I can keep it O: )

Schedule:

Monday- Yoga 6-7:30

Tuesday- Curves

Wednesday- Choir practice & Balance Ball workout

Thursday- Curves

Friday- Family or Friends & Ball

Saturday- Curves 10 am after breakfast with dad and grandpa (and mom)

Sunday- Day of rest? Family, maybe some ball (we'll see)

Yoga is set in stone.  That will never change (at least not any time soon).  Once my work schedule changes for the summer season, I'll get to add swimming to that on Friday  and Saturday hopefully, and we'll see what else happens as far as the schedule goes.  But I want to post that now so I'm accountable.  If I don't post it that day, please ask me how it went so I'm forced to talk about it.  I'll probably post weekly what the weight is, and monthly what the inches are just to see my progress (for my own benefit more than for you all to know, because I doubt you're all that interested.)

Thank you for listening, guys... I really appreciate the family I have here.

Playing with this camera these past two weekends have shown me a thing or two.  First,  I like to do this early in the day, and alone. So this will truly turn out to be an activity for myself since neither my son nor my husband get up on the weekends until forced to do so by hunger or biological needs. 

Second, my tendency is to take pictures of subjects in either a very close up view or by a totally indirect view of the subject.  I like reflections of things, mists, or weird angles or visually confusing images. 

Third, I am amazed at the things that I do not even notice in the picture while I am taking it, tree limbs or shadows in the foreground of the pictures I take. Like the picture above, if I had leaned over the railing another few inches, the picture would not be anchored by the railing visible in the lower left corner of the picture. 

Fourth, you get such tunnel vision when taking pictures that you miss what would probably be great  pictures simply because they are not within the view of your camera lens, so you have to try and balance the time you take looking at the world and the time you take focusing on a certain view of the world.