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My doubles partner and I got 4th, behind 2 of our boats, and one Minneapolis. Duluth ate our wake. And we'd only practiced 3 times, in mostly shitty weather.
My four was beating our A boat up until the last 300 meters of the race, and we were consistent the entire way through. and they didn't pass us until 100 meters. And we had the heavier boat(a bowloader) and the heavier coxswain. Go figure.
Our eight kicked ass, although I wasn't in that race. It was a fantastic weekend. I feel super happy.
I hate feeling underweight
I hate not having enough weight to through behind an oar
I hate the fact that my coaches won't make up their minds up about who will be coxing next year
I want to cry.
I have cried.
I feel so dizzy, and it's been more than an hour since practice has been over.
Food tasted disgusting tonight. I did not want to eat.
I do not weigh enough to row with girls who weigh 20 lbs more than I do. especially one that prolly weighs like, 50 more, who can't pull her own weight. I can't even get in a full stroke behind her because SHE has too much weight on her to get a full stroke.
And pieces BY FUCKING PAIRS, WITH 300 LBS EXTRA DEAD WEIGHT??????????? WHAT THE FUCKING HELL???
yes I am pissed, and pmsing. I do not care. I am going to go and cry.
I don't write much about work, because let's face it - it's boring, and much the same for everybody.
However, I have become increasingly unsatisfied and disillusioned with my particular workplace in recent times.
Now, I am not the ambitious type, and I have never actively sought positions of authority. However, I was slightly irritated when, having worked at this place for over three months, manager and assistant manager position were given to two people who had been there for little more than two weeks.
Okay, so they are a little bit older than me, and both seem capable people for the job. However, I found it strange that, despite having a lot of experience now in both opening and closing the store and cashing up (something neither of the above really seem to have much of a handle on yet), and the fact that I am honestly quite good at my job, I apparently wasn't even considered for either position.
But all that is pretty trivial. A couple of months' gap in experience doesn't make that much difference in the scheme of things, and these two might well be seen as more capable managers in the long-term. Still, this is far from my only complaint.
I am already concerned about the way in which staff are treated. I have been working very hard in recent weeks, as have the other staff, and yet we are still being given a hard time by the franchise owners due to their unhappiness with the state of the store. Neither the manager or assistant manager are showing much ability to cope with the pressure at the moment, and I'm also finding it hard to deal with the stress that the job is bringing. Unfortunately, due to a combination of circumstances, I am the only staff member with any kind of experience at the moment, as nobody else has been employed longer than a month. This means a lot of trainees, who are still learning, and as such, still making mistakes that I and others have to spend time fixing.
I was quite disturbed this afternoon to witness one of the young trainees become something of a scapegoat. It seems like, after a particularly bad day, someone had to be sacked - the poor girl was alerted of this (partially - she has only been informed of her removal from this fortnight's roster) by text message. I frankly found this appalling, and said as much to the assistant manager, who, herself almost at breaking point, told me she was acting on the command of the manager and had no other option.
The store has been poorly run for a long time now, and hopefully the new franchise owners are on the way to fixing that, but at the moment staff morale is quite low. I don't want to be seen as someone who gives up easily, but at the moment I'm not sure how much longer I can take this.
Let me explain. The Barnard registrar process is intensely fucked up. For most classes, you just add them to your schedule, your advisor approves it, and bada bing, you're enrolled. Then, there are "limited enrollment" classes, aka L-courses, that you have to wait in line for. So on Monday, seniors get up early and stand in front of the registrar's office until it opens at 10am. Juniors on Tuesday, Sophomores on Wednesday, and finally, Freshmen on Thursday. But, as I'm a varsity athlete, I get to avoid this process a little bit. This morning, from 12am to 5am, I just had to send an e-mail to the registrar with the call number of the L-course(s) I wanted. That way I wouldn't have to stand in line and I'd also get to sign up before the rest of the first-years. Simple, right? Awesome. Piece of cake.
Apparantly not.
Last night, I was just laying in bed, fully dressed, after I got off the phone with Kyle. It was like 11:05 so I only needed to stay up for one more hour. (Which seems a little unfair considering that I had to wake up at 5:20 for crew, but whatever.)
And, predictably, I fell asleep.
So I missed my online sign-up privilige and now have to go wait in line for hours. I should probably go now-ish and then I'll probably be waiting until about 10:30. So like four hours of my life spent standing in front of the registrar's office. Excellent.
But wait, it gets worse.
Because the Columbia College students have registration today from like 9:00 to 11:00 (their system is different from ours at Barnard and they do it all online) and they make up the majority of the crew team, we were going to have early morning practice from 6-9am instead of 7-10am.
Why am I not at said practice right now?
Well the reason I'm awake right now is because my coach called me at 6am to tell me I had missed the bus and needed to take a cab to the boathouse. I jumped out of bed, still wearing my jeans and make-up, and really intended on going. Really, I did. I never miss practice. What happened is that since practice was early, I needed to set my alarm earlier. But since I fell asleep unplanned, I never did so.
Well, fuck. I lied and told her I was sick. I didn't (1) want to spend $20 on a cab or (2) really feel like rowing. Dammit, now I feel really shitty for missing practice and even shittier for lying. She knows I lied too and I'm sure Shannon (coach) will make it very apparent to the rest of the team. Yay!
I'm kind of crewed-out right now, and I really want a few mornings to sleep in. Unfortunately, this is not going to be one of those mornings. This is stressful as hell, and fuck, since I'm already awake, I might as well go stand in the L-course line.
Did I mention that I have a paper due and a speech to give today? Neither of which have been written.
FUCK FUCK FUCK
I will, as always, remain overtired, poorly nourished (yum, dining hall food), and willfully missing my home, my friends, and my boyfriend.
Love Always,
Whitney
wow its been a long day. i woke up like at 6am and realized that i have school..i stood up put on the clothes i prepared yesterday and went to wake up my mom...Even though the link crew thing starts at 8:30 so i was there a whole hour early working...later Patrick came and helped out...About 9am we started playing games..
i was shocked to see Indira and Nadira but it was all cool. i explained them more about link crew and stuff..ahhh and i saw the llama aka mickey aka collene there...it was fun seeying old friends and playing really stupid games but i do have to say by the time of 2:30pm i was beat...so tired that i didnt care about the day but didnt show it. i got 5 freshman to call and i did..i like have only one guy lol.
i got picked up from school by beckys mom and we went to get a pizza. im like why are you turning right??? i thought we were on homestead but it was benton. i felt dammm for a second but it was all cool...i talked about the movie STEP UP with her...i think she was enjoying my commentary on the movie. we got to beckys houuse and i walked right past becky still talking to her mom which was funny to see her reaction about not noticing her.
then we had pizza and watched this crzy cartoon..i dont get it really...i started falling asleep on becky and her mom said to take me to the guest room and sleep..i didnt want at the start to go away from the comfort of the long old coach. i was surprised to find out that i actually slept..i woke up an hour later with my cell ringing. so my mom picked me up and i got home...we rested for about 10 minutes and then wanted to go shopping for school supplies but my moms car broke down.
around 8pm becky came over for our get together every monday for kyle xy series...it was fun but i kept getting annoyed cause my mom wanted somehting every like 5 minutes..but it was cool...oh and becky paid me back...it occured to me that i forgot to show the lamp to her mom but oh well the next time...
im so tired but im glad the day went fast and im starting to get exited about school...
peace out
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