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Dixie currently feels:

 Depressed

 

(Well what else is new...?)

 

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Yesterday was a bank holiday Monday, so I spent the day at Adam's house.

 

We played a few songs on Guitar Hero III co-op, and got him a couple of groupie points.

Then he burnt me Parappa The Rapper, and I tried it out, did the first few levels, and got the "U Rappin' Cool!" rank on level 1.

 

When I got home though, I kept failing level 1.

Which was annoying...

Almost as annoying as the fact that memory card slot 1 is broken on my chipped Playstation, so I'll never be able to save PTR, because it will only save to slot 1.

 

Anyway though.

We sat around drinking Cherry Coke, eating Oreos and sweets - milk bottles and cherry cola bottles - then crisps and salted peanuts.

 

Adam then suggested he get out the old PS1 and we play Resident Evil 3.

Of course, he played it, I watched and offered my hints. :)

 

It was great fun actually.

 

The weird thing was though, every time I seemed to speak - something would happen.

And this happened like five times - every time I started talking, either zombies would jump out of cars, dogs would jump out of windows, or Nemesis would burst out of a door.

 

 

 

Today's been shit though.

 

It's weird though - I don't think I've done ANY schoolwork today.

 

- OMFG THERE'S A SPIDER ON THE WALL BEHIND MY MONITOR...

 

 

...But yes.

Umm...

 

Lesson 1 - IT, exam prep, I'm not doing the exam again, I had nothing to do, I went on FPC.com.

Lesson 2 - English, revision, I didn't do a lot, just listened and read.

Lesson 3 - Science, Cowley just talked us through our coursework.

Lesson 4 - Maths, Wilson wasn't even there, we were down in humanities 2, and Miraan, Amanda and I just played hangman for like the whole hour.

Lesson 5 - Media studies, down the CLC, Sam and I just sat there playing hangman on the PC, because we can't really do an awful lot on our project.

 

 

Though, I felt depressed all day.

Just listening to a certain set of people who used to be friends with me until they met each other - talking and laughing down the aisle next to me.

So I cut myself a little bit.

 

At dinnertime, I did my left, and I did my right after school.

 

Which was a bad time to do it, because as Mrs Mac was talking to me, she took me by the right wrist - as she often does when she talks to people - but she pressed her fingers right into the fresh cuts, and it KANED.

So I just stood there wincing, trying to keep silence, despite how much it hurt.

 

Tomorrow I have to go and see those people, and I'm not looking forward.

At least mother isn't coming.

 

Sigh...

Dixie currently feels:

 Unknown

 

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I don't know how I feel right now.

 

I'm partially pleased, because I managed to get another 100% on Hard on Guitar Hero 3.

I'm partially glad, because I've finished my Science coursework.

I'm partially dreading, because tonight is the final night of the Easter holidays.

 

I'm partially lonely, depressed, suicidal, alone, desparate, needing, upset, worried and nervous - my darling Emily needs me, and I need her...

 

 

I was woken up by a DOOR this morning.

The window was open in my mam's room, and it was blowing the door, which kept banging open and shut again. I tried to ignore it and go back to sleep, but it did my head in.

So I woke up and tried to ignore it.

 

Then I snapped, went and slammed the window, slammed the door, and sat down on my bed and sighed at the wonderful silence.

 

 

I went downstairs to make myself some lunch.

I made some mini cheeseburgers.

 

They're so cute.

The buns are soft, the meat is tender, and the cheese is a wonderous processed plastic-y sort of cheese.

 

They're about an inch and a half in diameter - and I eat them in two medium bites, or three small bites.

 

I ate those, and some Fridge Raiders, and some Monster Munch - as I watched some KUA.

 

Then Stephen came online, saying he finally had wi-fi, and he wanted to play on GH3 with me.

He insisted we do an Easy pro-face off.

 

I groaned so loud.

 

But he wanted to do TTFAF.

So I picked Raining Blood - and got 99%.

 

Then we did TTFAF, and I got 99% again.

He wasn't expecting me to do that well - so he was sad.

 

I was annoyed at hearing that - I'M ON EXPERT.

 

A phrase I often use now.

 

"Yeah but... I'M ON EXPERT!" - When a Medium player beats me on a face-off.

"Yeah but... I'M ON EXPERT!" - When someone insults my abilities, when they can't play Expert themselves.

"Yeah but, know what? I'm on EXPERT." - A quick way to own someone in an argument.

 

 

 

Then I lay on my bed for a while, listening to music - mainly Maximum The Hormone - watching more KUA, eating chocolate mousse, and attempting to draw something, which I gave up on.

 

Then I did my Science coursework, sorted out my backpack, and went to relax on GH3.

 

Then my darling Emily came on, and we played  a 5-match co-op, me on bass.

 

 

I shan't say that I miss Emily - because she's not actually gone.

She's still there, thinking about me... I hope.

 

If Emily did forget me without a trace, I'd slit my throat right there and then.

It's the biggest fear that weighs over my head.

 

Tomorrow, I'm going to be absorbed in myself.

Holding conversations with Emily in my mind.

Thinking of her, gazing at her photo in my planner.

 

I'll sit down my aisle at lunch and write poems for her.

Anything that takes her off my mind is not worth thinking about.

 

 

Emily darling...

We're going to have to be patient this time...

We'll have to wait things out...

 

Please don't forget any of the words I spoke with you...

Any of the files I shared with you.

Any of the secrets I told to you.

Any of the memories we hold together...

 

I love you Emily... And I always will do.

 

Don't ever lose sight of that, my darling.

 

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Today's song lyrics:

 

When You're Gone - Avril Lavinge

I've never felt this way before...
Everything that I do reminds me of you...
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor...
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do...

When you walk away I count the steps that you take...
Do you see how much I need you right now...?

 

When you're gone...
The pieces of my heart are missing you...
When you're gone...
The face I came to know is missing too...
When you're gone...
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok...

I miss you...

Dixie currently feels:

 Bored

 

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Ah...

Fifteen days of chill.

 

Or so I'd like to say.

I have Science, Music and IT coursework.

 

SHIT... I just remembered...

DAMN... I never put my IT coursework on my USB stick...

...Oh well - I can always do some IT staybacks after the holidays.

 

 

Anyway, with the shit aside...

 

 

15 days of chill.

Tomorrow, weekend, then two weeks more.

 

 

Adam's staying over on Saturday - we're gonna play GH3 all night.

 

 

I need to make myself a list of things to do.

Not a day I am going to waste.

 

 

Today, I've reached 100% on Spyro 2 - I just need to get 4 more Skill Points, then I truly have EVERYTHING.

 

...Then, I only went and completed Aggressive Alpine Skiing - dominated some schmuck who had beaten my score on IPB.

 

I'd got 18K, he'd got 19K - then I only went and got 35K. :)

 

 

 

Jeez.

I've returned.

 

There's five police cars infront of our house - some gadge who lives at the end of the road - who's apparently going to prison tomorrow - has kicked off something with some other heroin-users.

 

I was just stood at the window with mam - who's being a nosey cow. :P

 

 

 

Anyway.

 

This holiday... I plan to complete a few unfinished saves...

 

Pokémon XD, Paper Mario TTYD, Pokémon Mystery Dungeon, Pokémon Diamond, Super Mario Galaxy, Guitar Hero III...

 

I might play Doshin The Giant.

I have had it for a month and a bit and not even taken it out of the box.

 

 

Then, I need to finish cleaning out my computer files and organising my music.

Then I could update some more of my fics...

 

 

 

WHAT ON EARTH.

"YELLOW POLKA DOTS" HAS COME UP AS A SUGGESTED TAG.

 

 

I'm sick of that woman on the American Apparel advert.

Her breasts look so fake.

 

They probably are, as well.

 

 

The idea of breast implants is awful.

They're inserted through incisions under the armpits.

Gory, I'm guessing.

 

 

 

I've really got nothing to talk about right now. :)

Dixie currently feels:

Stressed

 

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It's quarter past eleven.

I'm sat in a room with no heat, in a wet towel, with wet hair and shoulders - staring at my English coursework, having to type slowly because my mother is in bed in the next room.

 

This coursework is like, 6 months overdue and tomorrow is the final deadline for it.

I've wrote two pages, size 11, in an hour and a half. I'm about half way done.

But I'm ready to bite someone.

 

 

...Oh, the sheer stress.

Dixie currently feels:

Annoying

 

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...I have nothing to blog about.

 

- I've improved my unit 3 ICT coursework grade from a B to an A...

- I've been playing Guitar Hero 3 co-op with Emily, who is now back...

- I'm looking forward to being hyper with Adam tomorrow...

- My lip is bleeding... How I hate acne...

 

 

...As such, I have nothing to blog about; I'M GOING TO ANNOY YOU ALL...

 

WITH A MINDSAY SURVEY.

 

...Wah ha ha ha ha!

 

 

 

This was stolen from my new MindSay buddy, stormbearer. Mwah. Steeeeeealing.

 

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27. Do you remember your music teacher's name from elementary school?

- Primary school, you mean. Our teacher taught us everything, so that's Mrs. Collins.

28. How good is your eyesight?

- Can't be great if I wear specs.

31. Have you ever been out of your country?

- Been to Scotland, Turkey and numerous Greek islands.

32. Would your parents be mad if you got arrested for fighting?

- They'd kick my head in.

34. Do you have a Honda, Toyota or Nissan?

- Not old enough to drive yet.

35. What time did you wake up this morning?

- 7:40.

39. What's in your back pocket?

- Air.

41. What were you doing at 3am this morning?

- Sleeping.

42. What do you usually do first in the morning?

- Use the bathroom.

43. Who is your favorite band?

- Rammstein.

44. Made out for more than 17 minutes?

- Made out for 45 minutes once. *Shudders* ...Foxon... Eww... Males...

45. Slept in a different bed?

- Aye.

50. Thought your cousin was hot?

- Fuck no, I'm not a Yank.

52. Worst part about hugs?

- ...Errr, if the other person hasn't showered in a while?

53. Gone over the speed limit?

- I've been in a car going at 120mph...

54. Painted your room?

- My room's always been papered, not painted.

55. Drove a car?

- In a few dreams.

56. Danced in front of your mirror?

- Of course.

58. Gone to China?

- No.

59. Gotten in a car with people you just met?

- No.

60. Been in a fist fight?

- Yes, numerous.

61. Ran away?

- No.

62. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?

- Currently do.

64. Do you do like school?

- I certainly do not.

65. Ditched school to do something more fun?

- I've faked sick to play Wind Waker and Pokémon Diamond.

66. Where were you at 11:45 last night?

- In this seat, can't remember what I was doing.

67. What are you doing tonight?

- I've been playing Guitar Hero III, now I'm trying to get this posted before midnight and I miss a day of blogging. GASPZ.

68. Ever talked to someone that was high?

- Probably, chav central round here.

69. Did you have a dream last night?

- No.

70. Last text message you sent?

- "Hiyar dear, whatcha doin'?" - to Adam, about two hours ago. No response yet.

71. Last comment you left someone?

- Can't remember.

72. Do you have a Facebook?

- Aye, but Facebook's shite.

74. Last person you were in the car with besides your family?

- I can't remember.

75. Do you own a polo?
- I own a lot of polo shirts, we have to wear them for school. I don't like Polo mints, though.

76. Are you currently frustrated with a girl?
- Indeed, the ignorant cow.

77. Are you excited for winter? 
- Next Winter, then? Not really.

78. If it was free and it would work perfectly, would you get plastic surgery?
- ...I don't know.

79. Have you ever slapped someone in the face?
- Yeah, a few people.

80. Have you ever been called Prince or Princess?
- Yeah.

81. What did you do last night?
- E-mailed Emily, blogged, tidied my room, listened to music, drew artwork and scanned it.

83. What do you hear right now?
- Silence.

84. What is the closest thing to you that is blue?
- My jeans.

85. If you had to change your eye color, would you?
- Nope, I love having greenies.

86. Last thing you wrote your name on?
- English folder.

87. Does it snow where you live?
- For about 4 days of the year.

88. Where did you get the pants you're wearing right now?
- Primark, I think.

89. If you could change one thing right now what would it be?
- FIX THE DAMN BOILER. THE HOUSE IS SO COLD.

90. Are you fed up with anything?
- Answering these questions? :P

 

 

Ooooh, I feel like making one now... :)