Courses @ MindSay

So, here's what my spring semester's shaping up to be (if all goes according to planned, of course):

Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I have US History Since 1877 with Prof. Storie. This class, although not being taken along side any of my friends, should be okay in that the professor seems nice and (if all goes well) her TA will be Amy (Friend and former French classmate).
Mondays and Wednesdays I'll have Marriage and Family with my former Sociology professor, Betsie, from 1:40-3:00pm. Again, none of my friends are taking this class. However, I'm really looking forward to it because I love Betsie and her teaching style, the course material seems interesting to me, and I know I will learn a lot from her.

Tuesdays and Thursdays will be my art days. From 8:15-11:05am I will have Foundations in Painting (UGH! OI! NOOOO!) with Mira. I've heard all sorts of stuff about her as a prof. and I'm really kind of worried about the class. I'm no Monet/Van Gogh/Renoir/Marc/etc. when it comes to painting and I've heard that she'll tell you she loves your work then rip you apart during critique. So....oi. Keep your fingers crossed that don't tell her to go screw herself or something. lol Anyway, Paula from last semester's 3D & Drawing, Drew (also from Drawing), and Sis are all supposed to be in the class. So...hopefully it won't suck too much. Also, Josiah's going to try to get in (right now it's full), but it doesn't look very promising. :(
Directly after that class I'll have Lithography with Hilton from 11:15-2:05pm. This class it definitely looking better to me than painting (after all, the work focuses more on drawing skills). Sis, Paula, Jerome (cool guy; friend of sis), and [hopefully] Ariel will all be in this class. So, I'm kinda psyched about it. :)

As far as work goes, the plan is that Subway will have my soul on either Friday nights or Saturday mornings (I have yet to determine which) and I'll volunteer at Girls Inc. on Tues and Thurs.

In terms of preparation for the start of classes goes (week after next)...I still need to do a bunch of stuff which includes but is not limited to: Cleaning my room, coming up with ideas of projects in Lithography, finishing my sewing projects so I'll have some rad threads to sport during the semester, get into the habit of walking 30 mins a day [again], learn to wake up early [again]--no more 10am sleep ins, catch up on laundry, etc.

Oh hey, also, good news is that in terms of text books, I'm pretty much set! I need one for History...but I'm not sure that it's going to be required since the bookstore says it's not even in stock/available. So, yay! That means I won't be 100% broke after buying all the art supplies that I'll be needing (eek!).

... indeed!

 

A few months ago I applied to be sent to go to a few courses to help me improve my teaching practices.

Last week I received a notice to attend one of them! It will help me create lessons to make my pupils use computers at the same time as they learn English!

I'm glad, because I’ve always liked using computers, and I will be able to broaden my skills. Hopefully it will be useful for my teaching.

 

What is more, today I checked the site on which I entered my wishes to attend courses.... and it looks like I have also been chosen to attend two more, one of which is ABSOLUTELY necessary for me as it will teach me how to use my voice without hurting it! (Yesterday, I was so tired and stressed that I "screamed” much more than usual.... as a result, I thought I was going to lose my voice...)

As for the second wish, I made it without much hope, as it is a conference about the book and movie of Dracula, which I love… I really did not think they would let me go... But it does look like I’m going! :)

Now, I’m waiting for my notice! I can’t wait!!!

 

What good news! :):)

 

 

So, redoing my class schedule a bit.

I'm a little confused as to how this works out - I drop two courses, pick up one. The two I dropped were a 3-credit and a 1-credit. I picked up a 4-credit. I keep everything mapped out on a table, because otherwise I end up having some serious overlap and getting confused.

I'm looking at this, and trying to figure out how it happened that I now have less time than before. The 1-credit was kind of a free-floater, it wasn't even ON the table. And I'd intentionally overestimated how much time the 3 would be, because it's a lab class, and it's not set up in the format that I work best with (no notes, no text. I kind of die in a class if I don't get a chance to review material). The only rough thing about the 4 is that it's in two-hour blocks...I will have to discipline my attention span.

I kind of understand that the 4 went into a space that I'd only been distantly aware of before. But the space that everything else had been in seems to have completely vanished.

What??

Well, after being on academic probation for a semester, and having my future at Clemson University up in the air, I am starting to question everything.  Do I really want a Clemson degree, or am I just doing what my family wants?  Would I rather be in New York with Chris, building our relationship, and still going to school?  Do I really want to be that dependent on anyone...even though he is the love of my life, do I really want to be 800 miles away from all my family and friends?  Can I even trust anyone enough to make that kind of move?  What do I really want out of life?  I have to get an A in the class I am in to continue my attendance here at Clemson University.  Although I am trying, I feel like it may be a lost cause, and like I said before, I'm not even sure that I want it.  One thing that I would miss if I left here are the friends and opportunities that I have here.  I dunno, I am really clueless.  I've slept on it, prayed about it, and thought about it fervently, all to no avail.  I just wish I knew the path to success and happiness, I don't like taking chances where either is concerned.  I also would be pretty pissed if I ended up even further from where I wanted to be, emotionally or scholastically, because of my confusion.  I wish I knew the right thing to do. No matter what, I want to make an A in this class, even if I decide not to continue my education here.  I think the thing that bothers me most is family.  When I took this course, everyone said, "You better do good". no one said "Try your best, but if it doesn't work you can always come home and start over."  I think that would have made a world of a difference.  I feel like there is no one supporting me family-wise, just tons of people wanting to ride my coat-tail to success or something.  I have always done what I felt my family has wanted me to do, and honestly, that's why I even ended up on academic probation in the first place, because I knew my family wanted me to get into the health profession.  I started out an a Biochemistry major, even though I knew I didn't REALLY want that.  I screwed my GPA because the course material and I were not compatible in the least, and I couldn't make up for it my second semester after I transfered to Political Science.  My family is still pressuring me to go into nursing, despite me telling them that life science is just not for me, and political science is.  I dunno though, we'll see.  I know no matter what, Chris will be there for me.  All I can do is try my best, and follow my heart with a bit of guidance from my head.  Time will tell, and so will I, so KIT!! <3 K10