Dinner is done.
Now I'm ready to cuddle up in some blankets and get warm.
Doing dishes my mind started wondering ..... and for some reason it took a detour to concerts / movies / weddings and other things I have just got up and walked out on.
These days I would make myself sit through just about anything at the price of concert tickets for example.
The last concert attended was Earth, Wind and Fire. The last comedy show was Bill Engval (know this is spelled wrong ... sorry). The last movie in a theater was Hannibal. Prior to that the last movie I saw in a theater was with Dave and his then 13 year old daughter in 1985 .... Short Circuit.
The last stage production was Steel Magnolias ..... I did walk out on that one. I walked out on YES ..... Roundabout went on for a good 45 minutes when I chose to leave ..... more than I could bare ..... and I do love YES. I walked out on some really really bad horror flick .... don't even remember the name .... that's how bad it was. Walked out on an ex-boyfriends wedding .... again, more than I could bare.
And I'm once again obviously bored to tears. Dave is back in the shop .... nice of him to take a dinner break .... mom is watching Jeporady in the living room. Petey is at my feet asleep, Joe curled up on Dave's pillow .... which will go over really well, I'm sure .... Lola with her Papa ..... his constant shadow. The television is on but I have no clue what is on .... noise mostly .... but it doesn't matter .... it will be turned off soon. Reading a book .... sounds so good right now .... quietness and a good book.
Time to travel to the bookshelf that has been ignored now for months. I'm getting really excited just thinking about getting lost in a book. So, yeah .... just got to make sure I will pick out something I will finish. I'm good at walking out on books too .... the last one a spooky Dean Koontz ..... maybe I should start it over and see if I can get any further. Sometimes I think I must have ADD as it seems to get harder and harder for me to stay focused on just one thing, like reading a book.
The grass popped out today in the front yard. YAY! As cold as it feels .... it did not get cold enough to snow today .... just good old rain.
Got to get through one more month and Dave will get his retirement. Finally. Its been a really really long year with me not working or having the desire to anymore. And its not that I don't want to work .... I really really do, but I can't take it here anymore .... when they say I don't fit in .... they mean it. And I can't take the rejection .... anymore .... this last go around broke me hard. Yes, I still grieve once in awhile of that stupid job. Less and less all the time .... the girls picture came down off the refrigerator the other day .... I wish I could toss it .... just throw it away .... but not yet. Not yet. Its put away out of sight for now.
I am down 12 lbs. now. That is good. Feeling better mentally and physically. But today my ass and legs are sore .... I rocked out with Credence Clearwater during exercises today. 70 minutes worth.
Ok .... the nonsensical rambling is now over .... a book somewhere is calling my name .... lost in fiction .... sounds wonderful.
And just one more thing before I go .... I've said it before, but I just gotta say it again .... I seriously dislike the American Apparel ads here ..... seriously. This chickie in the green dress has got to go.
Alright seriously seriously done now .... for real.
Good night and Peace ....
J.
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