
Colombia @ MindSay 
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Elemental sencillo,
Se compro en Coconucos un rancho de ilusion
Esta parado sobre un temblor de guaduas,
En el blancor estraño que solo da la cal
Su puerta y sus ventanas por las que apenas cabe la luz de la mañana,
Las vigila en silencio
Un cerro majestuoso
Que se quedo parado cuando paso corriendo
La cordillera immensa
Huyendole al diluvio y a la mano de Dios
El rancho de mi hermano,
Elemental, sencillo
Como su corazon
Se rie de los palacios porque se siente rico
De frisos y cornisas
Cuando cada mañana lo dora con sus rayos la plenitud del sol...
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MY BROTHER'S RANCH
My brother the doctor
Elemental and simple,
He bought in Coconucos a ranch of illusions
Standing on some guaduas,
It is white as chalk
While the morning light
Comes through its door and windows
It's Looked after by a magestic hill,
Left standing when the immense mountains
Ran away from the deluge and the hand of God
My brother's ranch
Elemental and simple like his heart
Is full of corners and flowers
Tanned by the sun and age
Rich and full of enchantment
1ST audrey, she went to my sand rugby championship this weekend and played a little. She was catty/flirty with me though the way she is with everyone else, but shes never like that with me. It was a step forward. It was just dumb little things i would be like kiss my ass and she would make kissy noises. she told me to shut the fuck up at one point(joking around) i told her fuck you and she was like anytime sexy. eventhough it isnt serious, i like it. i sat in class with her on friday, it was fun. i found out shes going to go up to NY with wheeler at the end of the summer. I mean i guess i expected it, i want things to work out with them but then i dont. And audrey has been hanging out with Ashley some too, so i really dont have a shot in hell. But audrey is considering going to grassfirld next year, i dont know why but im not going to object. (i will be at grassfield next year, a new high school)
2ND Army Boy finally got his war orders, hes being sent to Baghdad in October, scared
3RD Fabio, ugh i feel like im being sucked in again. Im starting to think about him and miss him and i dont know what to do about it. Ive talked to him online the past two weeks more times than i have since December. Honestly i miss him, i want to be with him. But he is such a good person right now, everything is good, but i dont know if thats him, if hes truely happy, i dont know what he feels in his heart of hearts. he wouldnt tell me how he feels anyways and it could all change in a second, its easy to say we dont care about each othe when we are 3000 miles apart, but face to face i think there will always be an attraction. But i really miss him, even if its just as a friend and i confidant
Soon ill be 17!! yey!!
Guys still suck. They'll always suck. My heart is still tied down to that person but w.e ive learned to live with what life gives and if assholes is what im gonna get then what can i do? deal with it. try not to care. Sometimes i feel its better im far from him cuz this way the shit he does doesnt hurt me as much cuz w.e he's a little kid and he needs time to grow up. So while im here doing what i need to do he can grow up and do w.e he wants, i care but im not going to stop having fun cuz he's doing shit that would normally get me sad. Im done with caring. All i get when i care is pain. I wish i could wear the same mask they wear so it could seem like i have no feelings or heart. It seems so easy to them to play with u and then just throw u around like a toy... bs u whenever they want and wait for u to fall into their trap. So im just waiting for someone that i could care for and they could care back cuz im tired of falling and my heart is tired of breaking. Off that point... 4 more months and the school yr is over!! yes!! cant wait!! Colombia here i come!! So much fun once again... and im happy cuz i just made up with one of my friends i had a little problem with this summer. So hopefully this summer can be a blast and when i come back i can keep having fun and not be sad or depressed. I know that what goes on in Colombia stays in Colombia and i cant expect honesty from that person anymore. Unlike them i have feelings so w.e im just gonna wait and see what happens. Thats all for now!! I'll try to keep updating.
















