College Sex @ MindSay

i saw that movie, to be accurate, it is a set of movies. they really impressed me, is that so? sex everywhere in the highschool, college, and afterall restaurant and closet? 

some of the guys seem to be ready to fuck anything that walk!

i am thinking maybe i am not going there if this is the picture, i will be like an alien if i enter a college like that! i am not that kind of person who refuses to see the world with a tolerant attitude and an open eye. but i just think someone are kiding my serious belief of love. i think love is not all about those boning stuff, not even half of them! they have more to do with understanding and sacrificing for one another. more soul work than physics.

the movie is funny, though.

Sarah 1 had sex with Ryan, Ryan had sex with Reanna. Sarah 1 came up positive for chlamydia n is probably the one that gave it to ryan. Ryan gave it to Reanna.

Sarah 1 has also had sex with Ben. I've also had sex with Ben.

and at 10:30am this morning, Planned Parenthood informed me that my chlamydia test from when Reanna and i went a week ago came back positive.

j wasn't seeing n e body else when i was seeing him, n even tho me n Rob did rub up against each other, he was wearing a condom. Ben is the only one i fucked that was seeing other ppl, and my dumb drunk ass didn't use a condom. (yeah, he pulled out n all of that, but that doesn't help protect against STDs, which i didn't even think of until the next day)

i don't know if sarah gave it to him or he gave it to sarah or if they also both fucked someone in common, but it doesn't really matter. i have three horribly awkward phone calls to make and a mix of god aweful anti-biotics i need to swallow now.

this is so fucking frustrating, i don't even sleep around that much! for fuck's sake, i didn't have sex for 3 months when j was dating carly!

fuck

n after j n i finally had things settled...(or as settled as they could be)...i'll have to write about that another time

fuck

i knew it. i fucking knew it, too, i had a feeling that this time would be it. i'd been having one of the symptoms for a while but i thought it was just my body being normal because i'm a normally gooey girl, but i guess not.

fuck

fuck fuck fuck

n Ben's # is the only one i don't have so i'll have to tell him thro myspace, lol. I really don't wanna call j or Rob, but i think its the right thing to do n even tho i promised Ben i wouldn't tell, i really want to tell them "I think a good friend of urs gave me chlamydia" or "I think one of ur room mates gave me chlamydia" (respectively).

btw, for those of u not keeping track, i had sex with Ben about a month ago, so i've had chlamydia for about a month. if i got it from Ben i might have given it to Rob, n the only way i could have gotten it from J was if he was seeing other ppl, but i think i should let him know n e way. (also recall that i have not had sex w/ J since about two weeks before i fucked Ben)

or u know, maybe i got it from getting my eyebrow pierced...lol...

FUCK!!!

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....................................................guess who just left my place? (AGAIN for the second time in a week! omfg)

...i was hella thinkin, "oh yeah...a week ago right now i was bent over on his couch n he was making me scream from behind" XD (mmmmm....sex entries ---> http://blackmamba.mindsay.com/?entry=350205, http://blackmamba.mindsay.com/something_ive_been_thinkin_about.mws read about it IF U DARE! ;) haha)

oh yeah...n his roomie is in my tutoring course, hehe, n its not like the two classes he's been in w/ me before that had a ton of other ppl. this class, including me, has only 10 ppl in it. (maybe 11) i hope this works, hehe...

last night before i left the cafe i left J a message on AIM telling him that if he wasn't too busy tonight to give me a call cuz it was gonna be his last chance for a couple days. (period should be starting tomorrow) i didn't think he was really going to, n in a way i was hoping he wouldn't cuz the new episodes of the Venture Brothers n Metalocalypse were on last night n i didn't want to miss them, but sure enough, @ 10:08pm i was watching Futurama n J called me! It took him SO LONG to get to my house, lol. I was ready in like five minutes n i was outside waiting for him. about 20 minutes later he drove by n went down the street. i wasn't sure if he saw me or if he was just turning around. (i was in the driveway petting some orange n white cat that hangs out around our house sometimes.) he did turn around, but then he went down another street around the corner n i walked over there cuz i wasn't sure if he was waiting for me or if he was lost. Turns out he was lost. I stood RIGHT NEXT TO HIS CAR n even tried to GET INTO HIS CAR (the door was locked :P) n he still didn't see me! lol. he was writing a text message to someone, so i just waited patiently n when he turned his car around, i saw him fall over his steering-wheel with embarassed laughter at the fact that i'd been standing there the whole time n he didn't notice. i thought it was funny, especially considering that he kinda did that to me when i saw him for the first time since June in another computer lab here on campus...lol. he pulled back up n apologized n i just laughed n said, "It's ok, i forgive you!" lol. i guess that's what i get for trying to call him for a ride friday night. :P

we found a place close by n while we were driving we talked a bit more about friday night n i guess he was hung over on Saturday, too, but he had to work. :( poor guy. when he found a street he liked, i started giggling like crazy because it was the same street that one Sean took me to, (not the one i fucked, the other one). I could see the apartment we parked in front of where i gave him head...n afterwards he told me someone had come out n started watching, lol. i'd told J that story but i didn't remember the street, n after seeing that we were there again i debated whether to tell him or not that that was the place. We actually parked in a little turn around where the streets met n there were no houses n it was under a street light. I told J i was debating telling a story n he asked if it could wait n i giggled n said, "Sure." we started making out, we took off my jacket, he reached up my shirt n undid my bra, n then a car drove by. "Perhaps we should go somewhere else..." he said. He looked out his window, then turned back to me, gave a little, "eh" n we started making out again, lol. :D :P

i love having sex with that boy. like, i can't even describe. he always feels so amazing and i love his body. i loved laying back in his passanger seat as we finished stripping each other and kissed some more. i loved seeing him over me, right before he entered me. i think that's like my favorite part when I see him. i had three small orgasms last night n i knew he wasn't up for fucking more than once in this session, (he'd asked if i was "Up for a bit in the car tonight," lol), so i tried to focus really hard and cum for him. Usually, for those that don't remember, we fuck more than once n he'll cum two or three times when we see each other. usually I don't cum before him the first time, but I really wanted to because I knew he'd be disappointed if I didn't. After cumming n relaxing for a while, he was like, "I probably should have asked before I came, but did u cum?" good thing i did, cuz if i hadn't i would have been honest n told him i didn't. it was funny, though, cuz he jizzed on me again n it ran into my belly button...lol. But it was all so great. I love kissing him, n considering how picky i am when it comes to kisses, that's amazing. I actually LOVE tongue kissing with him. The only other person I ever enjoyed it w/ was Nam n to be honest, i only really liked doing it w/ him because I loved him. J is so amazing!

n i didn't miss the new Metalocalypse or Robot Chicken, lol. (but i did miss the Venture Brothers! now i'm gonna have to try to watch it on the Fix! that boy should be flattered as hell that I missed the Venture Brothers just so he could fuck me! lol!) i'm really glad i got to see him last night cuz it helped me relax about being huggy n such w/ him on Friday night when i blacked out n its deffinately helped me today. i'm really stressed out about a lot of things n the past couple of nights i've had some really weird dreams that i'm trying not to think about. right now i'm trying to get my resume up n running so i can touch it up n print it, but for some reason my travel drive isn't working. the last time i fucked with it on this comp Windows crashed so i'm gonna wait until i publish this entry before i try again...lol. but i really love having sex with J. i could swear, tho, n i'm not gonna tell him this, but i think he's gained weight...not a lot! but enough to be noticable, but my ex n Nam were both overweight to the point that i know some would call them fat, n three of the guys i fooled around w/ last year were, too, (one of them being the Sean i didn't fuck but the one that we apparently gave a free show to n he didn't tell me 'till afterwards n he didn't even fucking cum cuz he's a smoker which = smoker's dick), n none of those three guys were as nice or sweet as J is. J still acknowledges i'm a human being, will give me the time of day when he sees me let alone the couple times he's gotten my attention to talk to me, n i don't get this vibe like he thinks less of me because i'm willing to have casual sex w/ him. maybe its because i'm not afraid to say how much i like it, lol, or maybe he does feel that way n is just really good @ hiding it. n e way, i have other shit to do n need to get this travel drive going. i just needed to write about fucking J again last night because i love it so much. I wish we could fuck a hell of a lot more often. I wish we were better friends. i guess we'll just see, huh?