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Today my mum, sisters, auntie and myself went to the Grassington christmas festival in North Yorkshire. Trouble was we didn't get any further than the road on the way to the park and ride site. We queued solidly for an hour and were just 6 cars from the car park when the Police came along and told us that the car park was full and that we would be waiting for a space. We decided to turn around and go home - but stopped of for a gorgeous pub lunch at the Bay Horse in Yorkshire.

What was upsetting was that there were over 20coaches in the queue, all with people who had paid money to go to this event. The old ladies and gentlemen were all dressed in their best attire, hair all nicely done for a fun, exciting day at a traditional christmas festival.

I do not know if they got there, i hope they did but i wouldn't hold my breathe, the queue was huge, even longer than when we joined it and more cars and coaches were joining it by the minute.

It just shows you that people like christmas that they want the christmas spirit and traditional festivals but only a handful of places do them.

Why don't more places go back to traditions?  - - I have my opinions.

Why do i always seem to be the one to catch everybody when they fall, yet nobody is ever there to catch me.  I have been slowly falling over the last 3-4 years and nobody has realised.  It all started when i left kings, accumilated when i went to haileybury, and exploded when i went to casey. (These are all swimming clubs).  But inbetween other things happened, My BF broke up with me and then contiuned to stay at my house and in my circle of friends till i couldn't stand it any more and got him out of my life.  Then my parents split up, and got back together again, but fought all the time, so mum slept in my room, so i had no privacy.  I fell for a guy, and he found out i liked him and did nothing about it, not even telling me if he liked me or not.  I lost all my friends at the end of last year, for reasons i still don't know.  The my parents finally split up this year, and we had the whole struggling without money thing...  I think everything has just hit home and i am feeling miserable.  I think i take life too seriously... I dunno.... Alot of shit has happened over the last few years, and i just haven't dealt with it i just keep pushing the pain away, its all i can do. 

I crave companionship, i crave someone who realises i'm not as strong as i appear, i crave someone that will look after me, because thats what i need.  I crave someone who will just lie there and hug me and expect nothing else.  I crave fun, adventure, a life.  I'm not looking for love, i'm looking for a friend.  Who will understand and be generous.  Who likes me with all my faults. 

Sorry for whinging, but i've had a bad few years and needed somewhere to voice it.  I'm going downhill fast... And need help...

Denver coach George Karl was suspended for two games without pay by the NBA on Wednesday for publicly criticizing officials after the Nuggets' 101-92 loss to New Jersey.

Way to go, George.

A dilemma.  Quite a dilemma.

Do I go to the Varsity practice tomorrow... Or do I go to the math meet in which the teacher was relying on me to go and it is the last of the season...

I told coach about it and she said, "Do you want to be on Varsity or not?"

I said, "Yeah..."

"Then you better be here."

Grr, she's not even going to be there, and I HATE missing practices but they are expecting me to be there, and I would be on A team finally and just dfklgskfldjgshgsfjkdgh.

Not fair.  Not fair at all.

I don't even know what I should do.  Like I don't want to let Dear Bethy down, but I don't want to let the whole math team down either.  And I want Varsity, but I also want to improve my math grade because I can add the points I earn to my grade-thing and I also want to go to that because I want to show I'm dedicated.  I wasn't able to go to a bunch of other ones before and now when the really need me... I'm told I can't go.  But then I want to still demonstrate I'm just as dedicated, or even then some, as any other girl on the tennis team.

What happens when you want to be dedicated in two things but you are forced to pick one over the other?  Which one do you pick?  Obviously the one that is most important to you... But I don't even know...

All the drama people got to miss the practices before and just because they aren't going to miss it tomorrow means that no one else can miss this one either?

What the F.

Bah - I just don't know what I should choose.

I love tennis, I love math... :-\

Maybe if God loves me, he will make it rain.