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Dixie currently feels:
Depressed
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I don't know how I manage to - but today, I managed to avert my self harming urges once more.
Perhaps it is Emily lingering on my mind.
...No, Emily does not linger.
Emily weighs heavily upon my mind - even though she's so light.
After thinking about her - thinking about her in the wrong way; remembering her tear-stricken face and her sorrow-smeared words, I felt very sad inside.
So I went to my stationery drawer, opened it, and stared in.
SR was there - resting on the top of my gel pens and felt tips.
I stared at him for a long time.
The last thing he was used for, was actually, to remove a staple.
I felt I'd use him for his true cause, and take out some staples.
So I destroyed my old RE book from year 9.
I drew pentagrams and anarchy signs in the name box.
Not very religious, I know - but I'm not.
I'm sick of not being able to write anything.
I'm so angry at staring at the same shitty divider, watching the cursor flashing underneath it.
The cursor is taunting me.
The flashing means that... Well, it's thinking "Har, I'm gonna stay here and flash at you because you can't think of anything to write."
Fucking cursor.
Adam was round today.
We spent some of the day playing co-op Guitar Hero III.
As usual, he was the one to get bored first, so he got his DS out and started playing Ace Attourney.
We did quite a few songs though - but the 5 star rating for Helicopter will be damn near impossible if he keeps shoving me on rhythm guitar and not lead.
The lead is EASIER, damn it!
I played some wi-fi co-op with Emily later.
At around 9, till about quarter past 10.
We did 7 songs with her on lead, then 5 with me on lead.
To take the piss dramatically, I chose One as my last song.
I barely scraped through it with a 4-star on Hard, nevermind sodding Expert.
So we failed, and I laughed - a lot.
When Adam and I were laid on my bed, being bored - I was scrolling through the setlist of GH3.
Being bored, we started making up parody names for the songs - replacing one word with "shit".
Slow Shit
Hit Me With Your Best Shit
Bulls On Shit
Miss Shit
When You Were Shit
Take This Shit
Hier Kommt Shit
Generation Shit
Radio Shit
Through The Fire And Shit
Holiday In Shit
Raining Shit
In Shit
Shit It Black
Same Old Song & Shit
Talk Shitty To Me
Story Of My Shit
School's Shit
Sunshine Of Your Shit
Shit In The UK
Even Shit
Kool Shit
Black Magic Shit
Cherub Shit
Shit Of Personality
Before I Shit
And my personal favourite:
She Bangs The Shit
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Today's song lyrics:
Vermillion Part 2 - Slipknot
She is everything to me...
The unrequited dream...
A song that no one sings...
The unattainable ...
She's a myth that I have to believe in...
All I need to make it real is one more reason...
And I don't know what to do...
I don't know what to do...
When she makes me sad...
But I won't let this build up inside of me...
I won't let this build up inside of me...
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Dixie currently feels:
Pleased 
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Lesson I've learnt today:
Don't doubt yourself!
See, and I learnt this lesson all down to Guitar Hero.
Adam's been round today, and we played co-op mode.
I have to use the Wiimote, and I'm much more prone to bodging up with the Wiimote than I am with the guitar, natch.
So, I said I couldn't do Helicopter, by Bloc Party - and it's a really shitty song - but, I went for it.
Last time, we got 3 stars, this time, we got 4.
When we both have guitars, it'll be a 5, I assure you.
After he'd left, I started playing online.
I challenge myself, I set myself little forfeits too.
I'm trying to fill up all the song scores on Quickplay, as well as raise my rankings in the wi-fi stands on the community - www.guitarhero.com...
The link to my page is on the right. :)
So, I said to myself:
"If I lose this one, I do three songs. If I win this one, I do one song."
And I didn't lose any of them - so I was doing one song inbetween each match.
...So, here's where my lesson learnt today really came into play.
I was playing on Face-Off today - and on Face-Off, both players can choose different difficulties.
Now, if they were to pick Easy, I wouldn't pick Expert - for they'd abuse my weakness and pick Through The Fire And Flames.
I have had it happen, when I was on Hard against an Easy - twice.
So, if they chose Easy, I'd choose Medium.
They chose Medium, I'd either match, or choose Hard.
Hard, I would match.
Expert, I would match.
So anyway, I played through about 5 matches, all on Medium, and I was getting bored.
Then I was challenge by some gadge for a 3 song match, and they chose Expert.
So I chose Expert too.
I was worried a little, I haven't played another Expert over wi-fi for AGES.
And they only went and picked Suck My Kiss by Red Hot Chili Peppers - And I HATE that song.
Even so, I beat them by 5%.
So, feeling pleased, I did my one song on Quickplay - then returned to the online menu, and found another opponent.
This gadge was playing on Hard, and he wanted a 7-song match.
This sounded like fun, so I chose my character, and started picking my three songs.
It was by then that I noticed he was picking only level 8 and level 7 songs.
So he picked Raining Blood, Before I Forget and Knights Of Cydonia.
"Erghh... I'm not gonna win this one." I whimpered.
So I picked some level 5 songs.
Raining Blood started - and by about 30 seconds into the song, I realised there was an awful lot of mistake noises coming from the opposite fretboard.
I laughed, as I saw, for every 10 notes I hit, they were missing around 5 of them.
The final score was around 89% to me, and 53% to them.
FIFTY-THREE - that'd be a FAIL!
My song started - Holiday In Cambodia - my favourite setlist song - and I won by 15%!
Their song came next, Before I Forget - and they got 57%! Another FAIL!
Anything less than 78% on Career and Quickplay is a fail!
So I flew through the four songs, and won with a final score of 4-0.
He was so bad, we didn't even get to play our 3rd songs...
So there's your lesson for today.
Don't doubt your abilities.
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Cheers,
Warren