Closer @ MindSay

I don't know what the exact line is but it go's something like " when I became a man I put away childish things" .....I cried like a baby yesterday and as usual got support from those that loved me and as I was just about to doze off I had a lightbulb moment. I asked for it. I want to live in peace. I want to work in peace. I wanted these people out of my house and it is happening. I can't have my cake and eat it to.........I believe that everything will not be ok, but better than I could ever have imagined or dreamed for myself. I am praying that my brother and my neice move in. This is a six bedroom house with a bedroom on the first floor, three bedrooms upstairs along with an office. If he steps out on faith and gives his apartment the notice we could both give my father 89% of what he asked for, save in utilities, his child would be closer to her mother, he would be closer to work and we would all be closer to eachother.

I have to take some responsibilty as far as why he is not here in the first place...I have always been one of those people that wants the house to look perfect. I grew up with the lines being vacumed the same direction inthe carpet, no dishes soaking in the sink, no water marks being left on tables, no visible signs of toothpaste on the mirror, men putting the toilet down after using it. I have to admitt I got on my brothers last nerve when he stayed here all of 2 months and decided to move out , I saw him as that little brother and not a 30 year old that had the right to leave a dish in the sink or leave a blanket on the couch. I spoke to him yesterday not as sister to a brother but ass a woman to a man and firmly stated I was wrong and regreted the choices I made.

The ball is in his court now and as I stand at the foul line I am praying he gives me a second chance and realizes I am speaking from my heart and not just saying what he wants to hear.

On a lighter note Smokey has flossed his teeth very well with the kiddie pool......Isnt that special...lol

Well the response to my last cover, "Yellow" by "Coldplay" was very positive. It had over 800 viewings in the first 2 days of being uploaded.

That was the most requested song on my list. Now on to the second most requested song. A fairly new number from one of my favourite bands, Travis. This song is called Closer, and it's taken from their latest album.

I've had some good ideas for new videos, but I wanted to keeo the best ideas back for my own original songs. So I ended up making a video for this, which was humerous. My video editing software took ages to render the opening sequence. I think it was worth it though.

Check out my version of Closer by Travis. I hope you find the video amusing. I was laughing whilst making it.

I've put several videos out over the last few weeks, but it doesn't seem to be affecting the growth in my Youtube figures so far. I've got 596 Subscribers now. Only 3 to get to 600.

My channel has now been viewed 12,631 times and the total figure of all the viewings of my videos is now up to 183,585.

That's it for this post.

Dixie currently feels:

 Depressed

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Today was Saturday.

Adam came round, as he normally does - and we played Guitar Hero III co-op, messed about with random stuff, and ate pizza - like we normally do.

I got all of my WWE wrestling action figures out from under my bed, and we posed them into a 10-man orgy.

It was quite funny, in its own little immature way.

After Adam had gone, and I'd went offline, I took SR out of his tin and cut my arms again.

The strain of holding it back from Tuesday was taking its toll on me.

I don't know.

Today's just been generally uneventful.

I got my first 100% on Expert today on Guitar Hero III.

This marks the first 100% score on Expert, and the first song to have 100% on every single difficulty level.

Closer, by Lacuna Coil.

It's a bonus song, but unlike many of them, it's decent enough to earn a 4 star rating in my media library.

There's new stuff on my DeviantArt, if anybody's interested.