Clean Room @ MindSay

Room? Spotless. Clothes? All washed and put away. Kitchen? Devoid of dishes and messes alike. Floors? Vacuumed and mopped both. I went into a cleaning frenzy today. Part of that may have been, I'll admit, the fact that my mom was on her way home and I really didn't want to sour her mood by having a dirty house. But part of it was just...the compulsion to clean. I've been living in mess for 3 months, and I finally have my living space clean. My car is clean, all of my laundry is done for the first time--literally--since September. My cat's box isn't all over my room. It's neatly scooped and placed on a clean mat. The only things still in boxes are things that I don't use and won't use until after (if then) my next move. It's a nice feeling. The only thing I have left to do is clean my bathroom. Might do that tonight. Might not. If I don't...I'm not too worried, but I may just get the urge to keep cleaning. It's been a while since I did any serious cleaning outside of work. I dunno. Where I was living before, things never stayed clean (thanks to my less-hygenically inclined roommates), and so I felt like there was no point in me cleaning. 'Course, I got yelled at for that, but...c'est la vie. But here, my mom's very clean. She never leaves her messes around. So it was pretty easy to see what my messes were. And...well...yeah. They're not there anymore. :)

i dreamt i didn't show up for work for three days, and then i was hiding in a colony of squirrels and i had to lock the doors so they didn't find a human, and then transform into a squirrel and talk to this lady (a human..) about how she loved me and so we had to run away together and be happy, but then i was in a hotel room and this asian lady wouldn't stop trying to clean my room, so i body slammed her (see chris's latest post), and then she started doing the lost in translation thing, you know "lip my stockings," and rolling around on the floor, and then i was in the lobby, and i had to hide my ds because i wasn't allowed to use it, and then i saw my supervisor at a coffee shop that was also a credit union, and she wondered why i hadn't come into work, so i told her i had forgotten about my employment, and she said it was okay because i really wasn't going to be working there for very much longer, and then at the company meeting (?) i was sitting on a rotating chair that wouldn't stop rotating into a corner, and everyone was laughing at me, and i felt sad.

in real news, i've decided i'm going to go back to college.

I HATE MY MOM AND DAD!!!!!!!!!!!

 

 

I just woke up not too long ago and i walked into the kitchen to notice the refrig. was really dirty with no room. So i was going to clean it.  I took out 10 things that were obviously bad and threw them in the garabage. My mom starts screaming, " WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING? NOW YOU HAVE TO GO TO THE TRASH AND TAKE THAT THERE YOURSELF" which i would but i have no gas and i am putting my car up for sale today.  But anyways i threw it outside for them to yell at me later.  So now that i had room, i went to do the dishes which is a no no.  I got screamed at for ten minutes sayin i wasnt doing it right i was going to make us die from bacteria cause  i wasnt doing it right.  I was trying to help.  I should of just did nothing, but i cant stand that.  Now im going to get yelled at all day.

 

Oh boy.

 

 

<3 Terri

okay, so, today was hot, AGAIN. which really sucks.. but at least i got to do chores inside... cleaning my room. never again will i let it get that bad. it was horrible. i hope my closet will stay clean as well..... it usually tries to eat me when i clean it......

however, there is good news!(well, for everyone who mooches manga off me.....) i got tsubasa volume ten! unfortunately, they didn't have sugar sugar rune volume 3, but oh well...... camp is 6 days away, and i haven't even begun trying to find things i need(except for my awesome back-packing bag! that thing is sooo nice for resident camps. and my sleeping bag, of course.)although, it would probably help if i had the packing list, which i dont have thanks to super late registration........ oh well. maybe i just have to pay the camp directors a visit(coincidently, they are my neighbors. what luck, eh?)

Birthday countdown: 5 days! whoo hoo!

oh yeah, the kitty-kins is home finally! ^^ this is good. now maybe i wont die of boredom before camp!

I cannot believe that I've spent an entire day cleaning and organizing my room. And it still looks like a complete disaster area. And I still have at least another full day's worth of work to do.

 

I guess I've had it coming to me though. I mean, when you don't clean like, at all, for an entire year, this is what happens. It catches up to you in the end.

 

Mom seemed to kinda give up trying to make me keep my room clean this year. Not entirely sure why, but I definitely appreciated it. It made life a lot easier for me. And my room wasn't too horrible. It was a disaster sometimes, yes, but I knew where everything was when I needed it. The problem, though, has become that there is no way to completely clean my room, because so many things just don't have a place in there. So I just decided today that I am bound and determined to get my room organized. I put a bunch of stuff in a tote to keep downstairs. Actually, I filled up three totes with crap, plus I've got some other stuff to take down there too. And we're going to have to buy me some plastic drawer type things for all my papers, which I am yet to have even begun organizing. And I still have no place for all of my photography stuff. But maybe after I do some more cleaning/organizing tomorrow I'll find a place for it. My room just needs a complete make-over to be completely honest.

 

I have about three weeks to do that, and learn all my music for OVACs, and do my 4-H project...ugh, I just feel so overwhelmed. Like, before I went to Florida, it didn't seem like there was that much to do, but now...ugh, I wish myself luck with this one. Of course, I've pulled off worse, but this will still get interesting very soon.

 

I noticed today that I am not the only one who finds it quite amusing to use the "spicy pork" tag for random entries. On the "browse" page, it's one of the top things people are "blogging about today." Tee hee. I <3 it. That's fun.

 

I guess, in a lot of ways, everything is changing. Danny's leaving for college in a couple months (which I'm still basically in denial about, hooray for denial!), we're getting a new band director, all the seniors will be gone and suddenly I'll be a senior, about half of my friends at the university will be gone, and so on and so forth. It just feels like such a fresh start for me. I'll hafta get used to being me without Danny. I'll hafta suddenly adjust to being my own person, and just having fun with my friends. I'll hafta deal with St. Clairsville and band and this hell-hole of a high school without him, and that is gonna...suck. Massively. And I don't know how I'm gonna handle it. I feel like I've almost got to just start over fresh for this final year. I mean, last year, starting at the university was a serious fresh start. Going to a place where you only know maybe a few other people is kinda scary at first. You miss seeing people you know, you miss the familiarity of home, but then you adjust. Things start to get familiar and you miss home less. But I feel like this is a fresh start for me, and if, just for once, I can get my room organized, I feel like that will really help me mentally. I dunno, maybe it won't, but it's worth a try. I need all the help I can get to get through this. Every night before I fall asleep, I pray and ask God for strength to get through this. To get through all these changes that I don't feel like I can handle. I don't think I've ever asked for so much help from God before. Well, I know I haven't, because for a while I thought he was ignoring me, or doing the opposite of what I asked, but he's not. At least, not now. This is probably one of the hardest things I've ever gone through in my life, and I think I'm handling it about as well as I can.