Circles @ MindSay

I've been trying out some under eye bags removal creams since I have dark eye circles. It can be quite confusing not to mention time consuming to try out the hundreds of products available. They range from obscure brands to established brands which of course cost many times more. But surprisingly, that doesn't mean that the more expensive brands are more effective than the cheaper brands. I've tried one that's more economical costing under $10 and it works so long as you keep using it. That means if you wash away the cream and don't apply the next day, your dark eye circles appear again. Some think that under eye bags are genetic, meaning that no matter what you do, you can't remove them.

Music video for "Circles" by Qua. Directed by Gus Kemp. From the album Q&A on Mush Records. www.mushrecords.com

(From Freedom and Reason)

That the political spectrum ends in a circle is one of the most annoying and simple-minded models of politics ever devised. it's self-defeating crap. It was designed to make people want to stay in the center, which is a form of extremism.

Communism doesn't fade into fascism. Communism and fascism are diametric opposites. Opposites don't fade into each other. Therefore, communism cannot possible fade into fascism.

Fascism is authoritarian state capitalism. It's a situation where corporations - private tyrannies - rule over the people with little or no pretense of democracy (rule of the people) and liberalism (defense of individual rights and liberties).

Communism exists when there are no social classes and therefore no state to manage class antagonisms. Not even socialism fades in fascism, as socialism is a workers' state, whereas fascism is a capitalists' state.

Please, people, let's move beyond the cliches and develop a deeper understanding of the way systems work. The key is to look at the character of power in a given order and which groups that power benefits.

Well, here I am, again writing and enjoying the release of all the stress I can't seem to just let go. Welcome another year, but is that really the start of a new beginning? I want to run thats my new beginning. I want to run far away feel the air as it flies by, my hair never falling down, everything blurring. I want to run so hard, that the only thing I can hear are the pound of my steps and the race of my heart and shallow breath. I want to look into a mirror and say good-bye to all the things that have gotten me here, I want to change my name and disappear. I want to forget what it is like to have your heartbreak, or the caress of my lover on a long winters night. I want to forget his face, his voice, his eyes, and the way he makes my heart flutter. I want to find someone who loves me more then I can love him. I want to forget the broken promises, I want to run and have someone look at me and tell me I am beautiful. I want to be special again, I want it all to stop. Maybe I am selfish, or maybe I am desperate. I just know another year is coming, another year of my life is closed and nothing has gotten better, and my love is once again abused. Is it me am I not worth loving, am I not worth forever? I want to know everything, but I just want to run and be somewhere to begin again, to love again, to be loved, and most importantly to smile.

2 U turns make a circle... or at least some sort of ellpse
I'm finding myself inadvertantly drifting onto the wrong side of things I used to stand for a few years ago... and I'm forgetting old causes and ideas, but on the other hand I've refined some of those ideas, my views, and approach to things - when I hear things that used to be on the front of my mind, I can click with them again sometimes, like something xrainbows4everx  said about wishing everyone could love everyone - that's one of those things, and if it was the case nobody would be lonely, and nobody would need to cling to anyone, although the only way to introduce it in a way it'd be accepted would be by grouping together like minded people - because otherwise there'd be fear of it not being accepted and fear of losing a loved one to someone else if someone depended on it. I've ended up in some ways defending the people who rely on having one person to themselves... or at least putting their case forward - I think specified love needs to be considered at least until they depend on it less... I think there's insight on both sides that needs to be considered - and I suppose I get to see that by drifting over contradicting my old principles

Another thing is I've drifted to being more judgemental than I like to admit, and perhaps over-confident in my belief of myself - which is something I used to be dead against because it makes people unable to see things, and out of touch - I used to be the opposite - submissive and self-destructive (to feel as far from that as I could) - I think I ended up perhaps over-believeing in myself because I believed in my cause to rebel against what I saw as the bad elements in society like that - kinda hypocritical maybe, but I try to help and pay attention to whether I'm doing bad... although I don't feel it and that makes me wonder if I'm out of touch... but I stopped feeling it to strenghen... and to be kind to myself.

I'm also sometimes making choices which I know might be bad... but I think maybe I'm just more aware of things so I see choices where I used to just assume the bad one... I'm also aware there's more than one way to interpret stuff - and when I say things I find myself being more careful or correcting things sometimes

If someone sees bad in themself they will inmprove themselves quickly and won't be bad for long... but if they see good in themselves they choose happiness instead and won't develop themselves but won't get worse... and that self-love might give them strength to cope and develop others... although they wouldn't be so aware of when they need it themselves... I think in some ways a balanced mix of both is good - so we keep ourselves in check and growing while sometimes also affirming ourselves when we need it. Even though it's somewhat distressing to see the past causes become a bygone, and see ourselves becoming what we used to hate, I think really we're not any less understanding or less mature - it's just the "reward" phase of the cycle.