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Though I don't believe in the God of the Torah, bible or Koran I do believe that Jesus was a profound man who spoke words of truth. And that if the Christians would only really live by them the world would be completely changed.
From the time of his birth till his death Jesus spoke only of love, peace, kindness,charity and man serving man and not himself. He said if a man had, he was to give to others. He said life was not about an abundance of possessions but storing up treasures in heaven.
Remember the young man who came to Jesus and asked what he must do that he might inherit eternal life? Jesus first told him to keep the commandments. The young man replied he had done these things from his youth.Then Jesus told him to sell all he had and give it to the poor and to take up his cross and follow him. And the young man went away sad because his things meant more to him than following Jesus and instead of parting with them...he parted from Jesus. ( Mark 10:17 - 10:25)
Matthew 7:14 Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.
Christmas is coming soon. All my Christian friends have told me of their Christmas plans, parties and travels. They have told me of gifts they're giving and gifts they wish for but not one has said to me " I look forward to celebrating the birth of Jesus and I hope I will find a way of spending that day in a manner that is pleasing to him".
You see, for most Jesus is still hanging on that cross.. or laying in his tomb dead and they act as if his word died with him. And they visit his grave now and then and lay down a few flowers and leave. And then feel as if they have done their duty.
For the few Jesus is risen and alive and well and living in them. And the "word" he spoke is alive and living in them also and they have cast off their "grave clothes' and they are following him where ever he is going.
The gate is narrow and they must enter single file, following directly behind him, not off to one side or the other but placing their feet directly in his footsteps...this my friend is a true follower of Jesus!
As for me,I can't say whether or not Jesus arose from the dead. Like Thomas I would have to touch him physically to know that. I cannot say I believe he was God or the son of God. But, I do believe Jesus spoke the truth when he said we must take care and love one another. We must share what we have and not neglect the poor. And I do believe that a life defined by the "possessions you gather" instead of the love you share is no life at all.
John 14:24 He that loveth me not keepeth not my sayings: and the word which ye hear is not mine, but the Father's which sent me.
"May there be a surprise in my mailbox today"...
Industry
Charity
Faith
Hope
Irony and Affirmation not lost on me
I knew that a gift/blessing was gonna be there today, for I have Faith. The real surprise was an additional check paying me for work that I did over a month ago arrived as well. Now, I've already been paid for that job by the real estate broker who contracted me, however it was that payment that was extorted by my previous roommate(she's the person who processed my invoice for the job) for she put her name on the check and then gave me what she thought I deserved('nuff said). Now I have the opportunity to set the example and make all that right..by giving back to the broker what she had originally paid out of her pocket to me and re-establishing my good name against the LIBEL now being spread by "other parties involved".
I called the client and told them(left message) what the plan was to ensue.
I cannot help but notice that all this transpires between Lammas and the Corn Moon Esbat also known as the Dispute Moon..irony not lost on me at all
Blessed Be to those who cherish friendships..
so this past few days..like 2 or 3 days has been like hell. I know im like mega late on rent and im tryin to fix it... i got ppl blaming me for the cable bein cut off when its both me and my roomates fault. i have my roomate "checkin up" on me to make sure i have money to eat and im not dieing of starvation..and like on the outside this all looks like nice gestures but im the kind of person that cannot accept charity..ill scrape through and make it on my own..i hate feeling like a charity case...everyone being all sympathetic and shit..be fucking real with me..tell me that shits fucked up u know.
ok, now thats i got that out let me write coherant thoughts lol
so my mother cut me off financially abruptly in june...ive never had a job because she always paid for things. So on top of that,she gives me 1 month to find a job or else she is "packing up my stuff and moving me back to ny" all the while rent money is still not coming in and cable has been cut off (which i feel i am being blamed for, when its both me and my roomate who forgot that it needs to be paid) I have my roomates mom calling me trying to find out every detail of my plan of action which is actually quite annoying. and like i have mixed feeling about her because about a week ago she called the office my mother works at and left the most embarrasing message with the fucking receptionist!! and now every time i call, i get this "pity-ing" tone out of her instead of the normal tone..and today it sounded like she laughed when i said who it was calling. like that was FUUUUCKED UUUPPPPP. to like the highest extent. and that in turn pissed my mom off and she lashed out on me, then her mom called me after i wrote her a letter stating to stop calling my mom... and she kept goin on about how she knows how i feel cuz she went thru it not just once, but twice....which i doubt. i dont think her mother pretty much financially disowned her in the middle of leasing an apartment, with no job experience. but ne way..thankfully my grandparents left me enough money, before they past away when i was younger, to pay for two months rent plus cover past due bills. (thank god)
So while im waiting for that, my roomates mom has called once..(fyi, this is while my roomate is studying abroad in japan) and now she is coming to "check up" on me on friday for lunch and to make sure i have fod and blah blah blah..not a charity case here, i appreciate it but if i have to eat canned veggies to survive i will do it. my aunts did when they firs came to this country and so can i. pasta and can veggies are like 5 star when im done with it lol. so ne way, my other friend..ill call her "beth" so ur not confused. she comes over to drop off the cat food for my roomates cats and the person she came with tells me my roomate said to "kick me" apparantly for the partying ive been doing..which i find is bullshit cuz she fucking did exctasy twice in 2 weeks!! so i shuld kick her, but its her life so i aint gonna interfere. and also "beth" asked me for the bills to give to my roomates mom..when i heard that i was ike what the fuck..why wuld i give her mom any of the bills..her name isnt on any of em..to be exact most of the bills that come in have my name on it..and electric which shuld have both me and my roomates name on it.... and now i feel like "beth" is jus gettin info out of me to report to my roomates mom whch pisses me off even more. Like i feel people think they have a higher moral standing thanme because of my situation when they are actually lower..cuz of the stupid shit they do and have still been doin....idk know how i feel about my friends right now..and they are supposed to be my best friends..urg and like i wulda been able to apply to all these places i wanted to if my roomates parnts didnt decide that i cant use the car while she is gone..after she told me i could for like two months.
This is a lot of ppl jus screwing me over..moral of the rant is dont treat me like a charity case, especially if ur intentions are as pure as fresh snow
I have a show to play April 2nd and the 17th. One at the Jukebox in Spencerport and the other at the Pennyarcade. Those of you that talk to me on a regular occasion would have all ready known that. I set up the April 2nd one and one of the bands dropped so the other two bands are personal friends of mine and I'll have to tell them that we need to extend out stage time because we will need to fill the time with just the three of us. Which is all right because as of lately I have had a spike in deep lyrics. I'll show some of you fancy citizens at the end of this maybe? Well the pennyarcase one was kinda cool because a band I've never seen or heard of just contacted us out of the blue and asked if we wanted to join them and play at this place. But to say the least we are on.
The other exciting show that I do have is a free one. I met this lady at some Water For Sudan outing. Myself and this one guy convinced these two girls to let us watch the Merchandise table for the rest of the 4 hour old pizza in the box. So here I was with this guy Dereck and we at about 6 or so pieces a piece. But I saw the lead from Jatoba (another band from Massachusetts?) talking to this lady and it was about playing somewhere. I was sorta interested but when I heard she was looking for people of the sorts I was really into it. Well I approached about the time that the guy said that he couldn't do it because he had an engagement at that same date. So I asked this lady what this was all about. Well this is it
It is a charity party that she is hosting. 10 dollars a ticket to go and see unpaid artists such as Jam Bands, DJ's Arts and Giraffes, and a few other hting including a drum circle. And the crowd is said to be ranged around 400-500. Now I am no historian, but that would be the biggest number of people that would have ever seen us play. The bands aren't paid but it is not only all going for the animals but the fact she is picking locals from Buffalo, Rochester and Syracuse means she is trying to get exposure to these small groups such as myself. Which excites me because I'm a small group. She gets to go on the news for 6 minutes (I guess that is twice as long as anyone would get on the news?) and she will tell all about what she is doing and drop the names of the bands, on the news! Ha! Well that is May23rd so I am looking forward to that. It will be at one of the bigger clubs in Rochester. Oh and with certain things pending she is going to do the same thing in Buffalo and Syracuse. Adn she wants most of the same bands to go to the other cities because she has groups from all three cities. So I am somewhat happy that we might go to another city. Kinda exciting isn't it?
That whole thing was a break in itself because she actually remembered us. Well the first show we played was a free one at Roberts Weslyan College in Chili NY. And it was a really small free show. What happed was I went on a little tipsy and had the microphone slowly migrat from my face. We lost the set list and that was about it. But not to bad for the first show right? That's what I thought. But apparently she was there for a short period of time because she had to leave for her daughter but she did somehow remember me.... I wonder why that is. She didn't remember much of the music, jsut that she didn't hate it, but just me really. I'll keep you updated on that. It should be really awesome. The whole point of this fundraiser was to gather as many different acts as possible to gather different groups of people to come see. And considering she is kinda an underground celebrity she said she'l look into getting us booked with Lemuria since they are of minor fame and come from Buffalo. Really close. Sheena!
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What else?
Oh! Darby has been in my possession for a week and a day at this point. He responds to his name about 80-90 percent of the time. Except when he is playing with Coline. And he is really good at being house trained. He cries when he needs to go now. Aces man. Just Aces.
I've lost weight. Two weeks ago I was on a scale at a pet store in PA. It said 210 exactly. But that was also with my boots on and my pockets filled with all my random objects. So take maybe 5-8 pounds off? And then Iwas on a scale today fully dressed at the dollar store. It said 200 flat. But then again it is a dollar store scale... But I am guessing with those two numbers I have lost considerable weight.
I'm still feeling down lately. Losing friends and all that stuff. Bah. It might get better or something? Well I did write a song about lost friendship. It was kinda cool actually. Wasn't bad or anything. Just kinda there. But i still feel like a jerk. To say the least. Oh Boy.
And sorry for the late update, I know I was supposed to about 8 hours ago maybe?
Well i feel asleep on the couch before 12. And got up about 6:30 or 7? But I did have a few dreams. All three really cool. The first was about a person I knew was there and I asked him about "microSDHC" cards. We were both really really lost in them so we didn't bother.
The second was where I saw Samantha when I was walking int he mall. I forgot if we actually made eye contact or if she was just looking my way. Just scanning you know? I looked over. I guess i was invisible or something. Still cool enough though.
The third one was about jessica and I. This one was a little out there. her and I got married. But it was funny because we didn't expect anything to happen. And it was really small. We put on our stuff and I had rented a horse and buggy to take us there. So we road to the place in this enclosed cart and we just talked and joked around and looked out the side windows. It was nice. We continued on until we got to this mall looking place. And I guess there was a quick marriage place in there? We walked in and got there. We eventaully said our vows and stuff. We didn't kiss or anything. Just kinda smiled and hugged. She looked beautiful. I wonder what that is supposed to mean? Impending friendship that of such where we have an understanding that we are really really close but we know the boundaries? I wouldn't know but I figured that it was close enough. She says she wants to and will be there to see us play on April 2nd and May 23rd. She'll be out of town in California for the 17th. She has plans with her little siblings. She also continued to say that she was jealous of me and my siblings because she said that we were all pretty distant age brackets but we were all really "Tight." In her words. Well I guess we are really tight.
Any questions?
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