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Okay folks, the lovely and vocal Goddess I am working with is Brigid! And let's just say I think I perfered Mauve's subtle influences in my life with her preferences then Brigid's..................not that I don't enjoy Brigid's influence *said in a tongue in check voice while grinning*
So how did Brigid get me today? Well as some of you know (the ones that actually read my blog) Randy and I are having some issues. They could be major or the could be minor but either way they have been issues that have been burning for some time now. And one of them is concerning the vechile I drive. Or don't drive in Brigid's case. Right now I am driving a 1992 Astro Van. High in miliage but great on gas. Old looking, dirty on the inside because the last owner never steam cleaned it but other wise cleaned of all trash. We have a 1995 Chevy Lumina sitting in one of our sheds in pretty dayum good condition. The only problems we have with it are the doors. The driver's side doens't open at all and the passenger side door only opens from the inside. Brigid knows that I have been sooooooooooo tired of fighting lately and the past few years I have only really been opening my mouth to Randy on big issues that I have been letting the small ones slide because I just don't have the energy anymore to keep arguing over the same dayum things.
Well she spoke up about 3 weeks ago and told me to get after Randy to get the Luminu up and going before winter hit. I told her that it wasn't a good time right at the moment because I jsut dropped a hundred or so on new brakes on his truck. Well next thing I know Brigid the lovely Goddess made sure the passenger side window of the astro wouldn't go back up. It took me 3 weeks to get Randy to attempt to fix it and what does he do? He shatterst he window in the door! Brigid is laughing the whole time and tells me to start opening my mouth again and to fuck everyone including family memebers who have a problem with me telling it like it is. That is also one of the things she wants me to work on.........I stopped opening my mouth to family memebers because they either ignore me or blame me for issues or say they care about me and then turn around and treat someone who isn't as close to them or not even blood related as queen or king..............she wants me to open my mouth again because so many in the family need to be knocked off their pedestals and I will never get past her to another goddess if I don't start opening my mouth again!
Anyway I have been driving the van as is and driving the truck when it rains (it's got brakes now yaya!) and I had a total unexplainable blonde moment from the neitherworlds! I don't even know how the hell it happened! Until I heard Brigid laughing manicaly in the back ground and Coltin going "MOM! The Truck!"
What did I do? Can someone explain to me how I parked Randy's big ass BLUE truck behind my RED van last night and this moring, I load the kids and myself up into ..........the VAN and promptly back into the TRUCK! I was awake! We weren't running late! Brigid blinded my ass and the kids' asses to the truck sitting behind the van until the back doors of the van went *CRUNCH* and being the Goddess of Metal, she made dayum sure Randy's truck was just fine. A red mark and a few scratches on the chrome grill guard but otherwise just honeky dory! Insurance won't pay for Randy to get a new Grill because it was an add on.......doesn't matter that in the Midwest grill guards are a safety feature! Oh well maybe next year I will buy Randy a new middle peace for his grill guard.
Ya think maybe Brigid wants me to act a lil bit quicker with her influence then Mauve? I think so. It isn't like I don't know how to voice my opinion. TRUST ME! I DO! The last few years I have just stopped voicing it to those who have constantly hurt my feelings, have written me off in various ways, and as Brigid says: "Girl, you have a lot of people you do for both close to you in life and those that live far away and they treat you like crap and think they are the shit! It's time for you to start opening your mouth again and let them see the FIRE in YOUR HEAD and kick them off their pedestals!" And Brigid wants me to start close to home. This should be interesting!
Randy isn't to happy because even though the Astro Van is drivable it looks like a pure rezed out ghetto hoppied ass van now and I refuse to drive it; thus on his three days off for Labor Day.............he is going to get the driver's side door working, he is going to handle the kids, and going to finish his Honey Do List so I can start making the winterizing the house list of things I can't do for him!
Okay, I guess that wasn't entirely sarcastic. I've had some things going on. But let's at least approach it all chronologically.
The weekend before the holiday, I did an author appearance at the Celtic Faerie Festival in Fair Oaks. (Please don't ask me what a Celtic faerie is. I really don't know.) It was a similar event to the Harvest Festival I've appeared at for the past couple years, but not as well advertised. Attendance was poor. But that was also due to lots going on that weekend, and a holiday in the middle of the following week.
But, while my book sales were poor, and I got a sunburn, I did get something really great out of it: a new friend. Let's see. She needs a pseudonym, here. Let's call her Smartass. Oh, wait. That's what she calls me. Um, I'll call her Kitty.
And the following night (Monday) after the festival, she invited me to a birthday party. Not hers, but a friend of hers, who owns a pagan shop up in Loomis. So I went. And it turns out I actually knew more people there than just Kitty. But I didn't know any of them very well. I got there at 5:30, and when people started arriving in large numbers (around 7:00), my introversion kicked into high gear. I could only tolerate being there for another hour, and left at 8:00.
It would've been better if I could've spent more time with Kitty, but she had others to see, not just me. But I'm still glad I went.
I'm doing some work for him, on the side. He's getting his landscaping business up and running again, so I'm doing a lot of his promotional items, including his website. We talked business for an hour or so, before and after lunch.
Aside from that, I didn't really do much for the holiday. But then, I'm not really much into holidays.
Over the past week, I've reconnected with three acquaintances from my home town, all via MySpace. Damn handy sometimes, MySpace.
One of these folks was actually much more than an acquaintance. We were close friends for a while, but drifted apart, as friends often do.
Well... in my mind, our drifting apart sort of had a cause. See, Jon and I were friends during the period where I was just a fresh little atheist. And, as many baby atheists are, I was a little... well... touchy. Jon and I had had many discussions on religion, and he himself was in a sort of questioning phase.
And then, his father passed away. Very sad. I liked his parents a good deal.
Understandably, this rocked Jon's world a bit, and his questioning phase took a turn toward acceptance of religious claims. And I, in my brash youth, said something like, "You're only saying that because you're having trouble dealing with the loss of your dad, and you don't want to accept the idea that he's not 'continuing on,' somewhere."
That was... insensitive, at best. At worst, it was fucking rude. Not that I meant it that way, but I could see that it upset him. And it wasn't long afterward that our friendship was pretty much a thing of the past.
I brought this up to him last night, since our email conversation (oh, sorry, Lucky... our MySpace message conversation) had turned to the topic of death, somehow. I told him I hoped the statute of limitations on apologies hadn't expired, yet, because this has been mildly troubling to me ever since it happened.
His reaction? "OMG....no... I have NO recollection of that...and I can promise you it's nothing I ever held against you."
One of the things we folks with abandonment issues do... we blame ourselves for stuff like this, even when it isn't even a factor. And this simple sentence of his... geez. I was actually stunned at how much relief I felt after he said it.
I got some new strings for the Les Paul. As an experiment, I got them in three different gauges. Yesterday, I put on the heaviest gauge, which are actually jazz strings. They're similar to the ones I used to play with, back in the day.
Holy crap. They're way too thick. How did I ever play with these damn cables? Guess my playing back then lacked the subtlety it now has.
And no wonder.
Kitty and I have chatted for hours, the past couple nights, on Yahoo. We're still early in that "getting to know you" phase of friendships. But it's been fun.
I shared with her some of the humorous blog entries from here, and some of the funnier ones from the Cardigan's Corner days. She seemed to get a kick out of them.
But I dunno... How good of friends can I really be with someone who doesn't like Alfredo sauce?
Get the sick thoughts out of your heads right now!:P This entry isn't about sex!:D
I received a horny gift last night from the Universe we live in. I am very honoured and suprised to receive the gift!
Last night as soon as Randy got home from work, we loaded up went down the road to my parent's house to pick up my Pampered Chef from Dana's party (the first party I went too-Dana and I live in opposite directions and both work so was hard to get!) and my checks that I ordered (don't get me started on that!). After we picked up my items we then ran into town (we don't go into town much-ghetto ass bullshit) to get cigs since I was lazy earlier today and didn't stop in Winnebago to get a carton! When we pulled back in the drive my Auntie was outside cleaning up from what ever the workers were doing by her garage, so I stopped the truck and got out, Randy drove on down to the house. I figured I had my checks now and rent is due in a few days and I haven't talked to my Auntie in about 2 weeks. I went over paid the rent, teased her about her already blooming tulips (fake flowers-her and my mother have gotten lazy in their late 50s and early 60s on their flower beds!), oooed and awwwwwwwed over her new retaining walls being put up by her garage drive and then proceded to walk down our lane to our house.
Being a country girl, I scan the area in front of me constantly so I am not tripping over ruts, rocks, snakes, other critters, or other things. As I got closer to the middle of our lane, there was nothing in front of me. I scanned, looked up and scanned again. I stopped. Right in my line of step was my horny gift from the Universe! It is a deer antler, a very well perserved one. Either from a small buck or from an older doe. It wasn't there before and all of a sudden it appeared. And before you all say I jsut missed it before, sorry you don't miss a bone colored object in front of you on a muddy brown wet road one moment and see it the next!
This is very precious to me because of my spirituality! Being a Celtic Irish Druid, it holds significant meaning because of the Stag and Doe! Our deer herds in the area are letting us know that we are welcomed! They aren't in the woods behind the house much anymore but they still come to visit us. We leave them alone and they leave us alone. I said thank you and got back to the house and promptly got into the truck and ran back up to my Auntie's house to ask my Uncle if he had any spare corn cobs or grain I could have to feed the deer. He gave me a 10 gallon bucket and I then went home and sprinkled it around in the woods for the deer to say thank you. This morning the kids grabbed my digital camara (which is usually a no no) and grabbed some pictures of the woods behind the house-we had a herd of 25 plus deer in the woods eating the grain I sprinkled. The pictures aren't very good due to it down pouring and yay the kids aren't use to my camara and so they won't load properly. They then came running upstairs and got me up. I went down stairs and saw why they were so excited! The stag that was right in the middle of the woods was HUGE! He had over 15 points and I kept loosing track of the points so it could have been more. I swear to Lugh, that buck looked right at me and nodded his head and right after that, the biggest doe I have ever seen walked up behind him and looked right at us also! She lifted her muzzle up in a nod also and then she nudged the buck. Then those two bounded out of the woods and the other deer stayed to eat! It was so awesome!
I am so glad to be back home! The Gods have really blessed us by letting the animals being so welcoming!
So it's been a while since I have blogged. Haven't been doing to much. Just working and realizing all the crap I should be doing at home and haven't had a chance to do.
I didn't do shit for St. Patty's day. I am a Celtic Pagan and part Irish American. Why in the Good Goddess Bridget would I celebrate a Christian Saint desimating a good majority of a culture and way of life just because his religion and he didn't approve of it. And the man gets called a "Saint" for wipping out the Irish Pagans and anyone who so much hung on to their culture and tradations. In my opinion, St. Paddy there is rotting in the Otherworld enduring pure torture and NOT in the Christian Heaven! It is no less then what he would deserve; rotting in pain! I didn't wear green. I didn't wear a pin that said "kiss me I'm Irish", I didn't cook anything cornbeefy. And I didn't go out drinking the "green beers". I look dayum good in any green and I have green hazel eyes that from a distance look dark and up close look light! A gift from my Irish/French mother! Anyone who dared tried to pinch me this past Saturday got their hands slapped and told the hell off just because I didn't wear green. Ppl really need to realize that NOT everyone on this Earth celebrates every holiday even if they are that specific culture.
On to other news, Randy is adjusting to his new job okay. The kids are now in a more settled routine now that I am on my actual shift and my dad is still being a spoiled lazy ass on occasion, but over all things are going okay. I am still struggling to get a handle on the whole full time mom thing and full time working mom thing and combining them. My house is okay. Randy and the kids got the law smacked down on them over helping me keep the house up. But Randy is still no help on keeping the bills paid up, the appointments in line, and the kid taxi running. Okay he occasionaly takes them up the lane to the bus, it is still to chilly in the mornings for them to walk up the lane.
I love being back to work. Still nto sure if I like having to dress up for work though. It's a call center over all, it's not like the customer's see us or anything! But it gave me an excuse to actually spend some money not only on clothes (nice clothes) but also getting my hair done. I look dayum good anymore! I am still hit and miss on putting make up on. I have never been one for war paint as I call make up. I perfer my skin healthy vs blemished! I have enough moles, chicken pox scars, various other injury scars, and highschool zit craters that I don't need anymore! I have pretty clear skin and always have had pretty clear skin. All my teenage scaring I consider marks of charater and add beauty to my face. I was a lucky one in school........very few zits and very few zit craters.
That is about it for now. Oh I did go out on my first Friday off! My friend Teri took me out to a new Mexican place that recently popped up in the city before we made our way home. Great food for a decent price! Then she took me to a clothing place called Catos. You see them next to any Walmart! I love it! I spent 49 bucks and got; two blouses, a skirt, a pair of black slacks, and a bra to go under one of the blouses. The only thing I paid full price on was the dayum bra! Then this last Saturday, my second day off, one of my co workers at Gateway is only working htere under docs orders to get off of her feet, she is a beautician and she did my hair for me! I got my first perm in over 12 years! It looks fabulous! Since highschool I have kept my hair free of all product and perm chemical and only occasionaly dying it. When your hair is naturaly multi colored like your eyes you get a tad bit sic of the 3-4 layers of color! Plus my hair loves chemical on it....grows so much faster. I am on my second day of not washing it and by tonight I am washing my hair finally. I am not like some other ladies that have to wait the 3-4 days after the perm to wash it. My hair takes curls and holds perms up to two years in a shot. Randy isn't sure if he likes the new me!:D
I have dropped 23 lbs (now down to 197) from december till now and dropped about a size and half in clothing! Yay me! Before I had kids I was a size 10 after kids and not knowning what hte hell was going on before I was dignoised with Type 2 Diabetes, I was up to an 18 at my heaviest (220). Now I am between a 16 and a 14 womans. If I go to the misses section I am in a misses 18 which is fine with me cause there is a difference in misses 18 and a woman's 18!:D A misses 18 is more like a womans 14/16. So here I am loosing weight and inches, still looking my hot MILF self only better, dressing a lot nicer due to work, and now getting my hair done! Next on the list to pamper myself is getting a manicure and pedicure done! After my sister, mom, and I go shopping in Omaha this up coming Saturday!
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