Cell Phones Ringing @ MindSay

So this is how fate is. The guy that was my best friend and the one i fell in love with is now neither and this is by his choice . I was forced to sit and listen about his new friend and new first. It hurts and I don't want it to and I know you will say it will go away. There was a time when it was just us. A time when both our families would ge annoyed at our phones ringing because it was always one calling  the other. I never meant to fall for him. I always knew I was never his type. As the hours passed by there was nothing but silence. We shared everything for eight years, now we share nothing and he has gained all that I have lost. God plesae help me

I am sorry if you believe in God, but just as the tears were starting to form I decided to ask for the strength to again let him go and allow me to begin. I have nothing left in me. As of june both my parents will be moving from new jersey to mississippi and one of the persons I thought would always be there is already gone. I asked for this. I asked for anything not meant for my happines to be rmoved from my life. I asked for him to have his joy, but it hurts ..

I have had the opportunity to meet a couple of people hat say aww your such a nice person. You are so strong. Your heart is in the right place. I am a work in progress. As I am typing I am aware in my heart as he sits to my left I have to let him go so that all that is to my right is allowed to happen.

I have asked so much of so many of you . If you knew me before mindsay I would ask you for nothing. Please pray for my future and my joy. It will not take long and is an unselfish request

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One day one day soon I would love to look back at this and be able to say " I remeber when" but for now simply pray and bless me.......

Why do people feel the need to leave their cell phones on while at the office? I mean, if you put it on vibrate - you will still notice it ringing. But no, you leave it to ring while you're in the bathroom, or getting coffee, or gosspiing with another co-worker, or wherever you are. You're not in your office and your phone has rang 3 times. It's not even a cool ring, like another co-worker who's phone plays the Beach Boys when it rings.

You're new, I understand that, but I'm sure you've worked in an office before.

Turn your ringer off...or leave your door closed.

Oh yeah, one more thing. It is NOT ok for you to listen to your 20 voicemails on speaker phone EVERY morning. Not only do you listen to them on speaker, with your door open, but you repeat every message at least twice. Ur a bitch...

*gasp* you perverts! you all thought I was being gutterbrained didn't you! thats one lump of coal for you all! lol...yeah...*blinks at clock*...it's 8:28...in the AM...>.< I can no longer sleep...I woke up to my cell ringing and my first thoughts where 'if that is my sister...and if my neice or nephew isn't dying...there will be severe retribution and verbal whiplash ' I had to answer it...and it is none other than Sean...my little gay pet mexican from Toledo, OH who HAD to call me and tell me some...um...details...o.O...*cringe cringe cringe*...that I didn't need to know...ever...*cringe-twitch* so all the while he's talking...I'm laying there going...'god...if you want a believer...strike down the gay kid...right...now' but since I am still a firm Agnostic...you can all probably guess I had to suffer through 45 minutes of gay talk...>.<...anyhow...I'm bored...so I'll toss you all a question!

When, how, and the age of when you found out Santa wasn't real? The best story will get a new header or somthing...

My sister is doing a lot better. They were supposed to move her out of the PICU today. I don't know how that turned out though, phone calls are hard to make because you're not supposed to have your cell phones on up there. So to get a hold of someone, you have to go through many connections. But the last I heard she was having some rough spots but other wise recovering slowly. They have the oxygen tube out and they cut back almost completely on her sleeping medications.

As for the other people in my family: Robby, Becky and I are now all sick. Beck's has already turned into a sinus infection. (Bleh) Me and Rob aren't as bad. I've been sleeping all day but still feel worn out and weak. As for my brother, his means of recovery are focused more around the x-box. Haha