Cats @ MindSay

When I have a place of my own, I shall have two cats.

One black one white. (two males or two females, neutered.)

The black one shall be Lefty, the white one shall be Righty.

And a dog named Kubota.

Because I can.

My calico, cat, Abigail, is immune to catnip.  This means she sniffs it and turns up  her nose or worse shrinks from it with total revulsion. for three years I tried it in toys, grew it myself. nothing. So I did a little research. about one third of cats are not turned into little swooning sluts from smelling catnip. but they might like honeysuckle- or so one book said. BUT honeysuckle itself--- the plant--- is poison. GET THIS --- HONEYSUCKLE PLANTS ARE POISON TO CATS- do not try this at home. but the essential oil sprayed on something has a catnip like effect. there were a lot of buts in that paragraph and abi loves to head butt me.


so I bought some honeysuckle spray at a cats only store here in Portland, yes... just cat stuff store... and  she goes to a cats only vet too. and the damn stuff  (honeysuckle: not the vet) makes her crazier than Basil Fawlty. Thinking that she liked it so much I searched high and low for honeysuckle hand soap.... found it in liquid form. Votivo Honeysuckle. I buy it by the dozen at Amazon. Did you know you can have orders that they send at a regular schedule? It's pretty cool. I forget what they call it but I learned of it at a paid focus group. Yeah.

Now don't imagine this is the only way this cat is pampered. You have read about her stroller and cat trees and cat walks. and huge variety of home made cat toys- she prefers paper, silk and wool- fetishist huh?  and he current favorite place to nap while I am blogging of looking for obscure photos of Virginia Woolf - don't get me started on that topic. well you can see it for yourself and how I have even taken to coloring my hair to match my cat. and NO the carpeting does not match the drapes. thank you.

do you bring back little remembrances of special places you have been? sometimes it's a postcard, certainly a photo, maybe a little tchotchke bought in a store. maybe a very portable  bit of art. For years I have been marking these special places with an  item that fits in a pocket. in the southwest I started a very small container or pot collection in which I would hide things found on trails. smooth rocks. a eucalyptus button, a feather. something precious that spoke of the place we had been.  tonight when I could sleep not and got up for a short massage in the hot tub.... I decided to try another you tube video with clean but uncombed hair.  I found myself in front of a shelf of zuni fetishes we have collected over the past 30 years. and one particular place came flooding back at 2 am. i shall fall asleep again thinking of the magic that is Acoma New Mexico. Night all.

here is a message i sent anna on myspace. its pretty much an update on my life for anyone who cares.

i've got a job here and I might be getting a second one, I have an interview thursday. if I get both jobs i can potentially make $4,000-$6,000 this summer depending on taxes. i'm hoping this will allow me to have enough saved up after I study abroad in the fall that i can come see you again next year.

i've been busy with school, was looking for scholarships for a while n just got so burnt out that i stopped. i know that's hella bad cuz i need the money, but that's life.

i'm almost done with this semester so i can make an effort to talk to u more often. i kno that doesn't change your availability but i really miss talking to u n i'm wonderin what's goin on in ur life n if things have gotten better.

might be going into a phD program next year or i might take a year off. n i'm gonna have a roommate again for the summer, so i'm kinda worried about that. i've LOVED living by myself!! I know that this is one of those "you of all people" sort of things, but its so much better to be alone. I don't make friends so i'm not getting fucked over and even tho i get lonely its worth it. I hope that someday you too can reach a point in ur life where you realize being alone isn't so bad.

of course, who knows if this crap will still hold if i'm in a relationship again...i've realized that my problem is when i'm single i'm very alone n independent, but when i'm in a relationship i completely lose myself in it and that person. unfortunately the only way to work on that is by dating again, n i still have no interest in being with a man in anyway that isn't platonic or sexual.

so yeah, that's the update on my boring life. i wish u lived closer so u could take care of my cat while i'm in Prague, i know you'd love each other :P