Catching Up @ MindSay

   





Seems like it's always all or none with me.  Wonder around in a fog and then leap into action.  I've been in a fog for about 2 weeks now.  Talk about catch up time.  Never mind that--it's Overtime from here on in. 

So, yeah...  life.  It has an inconvenient way of distracting you from your intentions.  A few life events, three summer classes and a small amount of stability later, I find myself back here.

One week until Chicago.

Three weeks until Fall semester.

That's about as far ahead as I can manage to look right now.  I've missed mindsay.  I've missed my voice.

I'll try to post when my brain is acting a little more creatively.  Mush does not a clever mind make.  :)

Ok, I could not remember the password to this account for the longest time. The "Forgot Password?" option did not help as the email for which I signed up with is no longer.

 

Therefore, I just tried every known password I have ever used and eventually I got in. What was the password? The same one I used for everything I had online two years ago. D'oh! So, first things first... the changing of the password!

 

October is gay history month. I'm doing my best in catching up with lots of LogoChannel surfing as well as catching up with the replay of Queer As Folk's run (starting with the pilot and then continuing from there.. no skipping around like networks do when shows are in syndication).

 

Also, October is Halloween! My favorite holiday of the year.. seriously! I've been hooked on watching all four squences of Halloweentown. I watched the original when it first came out in like the late '90s. I don't recall knowing that they kept going with that series. The girl that plays Marni turned out to be hot. I forgot the woman who played her mother, Gwen, was so hot as well. I've got a weak spot for "Irish lasses"... red hair, smattering of freckles, and green eyes.. although as far as I can see.. Gwen Cromwell doesn't have green eyes... they look awfully dark to be green. Hmm.

 

Well, this is a long overdue update. Perhaps I shall come back here more often.. now that I have everything up to date and whatnot.

Anna and I have been talking to each other like all night and it feels so good. I remember when we used to do this all the time. It's so awesome knowing I have a friend like her so far away. We've known each other for almost three years now and she's the ONLY PERSON in my life so far that has never lied to me! (Well, Stuart hasn't either, but we haven't known each other as long or the same way Anna and I do.) I remember last year when she called me and told me that she got stoned and I was so happy that she didn't lie about it and she felt so bad because of all the shit Daniel did with smoking meth and cigarettes behind my back. Damn, you know I'm feeling good when I can say that fucker's name on here. But yeah, I remember when we used to do this all the time. When I went to Arcata we really couldn't anymore because I only had my cell phone and that would eat up minutes. but yeah, it feels good to get to do this cuz its like we get to hang out together again. :P

 

pretty much the only other significant thing that's happened today is that when I was working I saw a woman that used to be in my aerobics class with me last year before my parents decided to stop paying for it. she knew how much i hated my high school and was happy to hear that i was starting my second year of college in a month. :D she was with her son or something, and he had to be in his 20's or 30's so i'm sure he thought it was weird that his mom in her 50's or 60's was talking to this 19 year old girl like they were old friends, lol. we talked for like 15 minutes. I think it pissed off the manager, lol, but i don't really care. I told her right before I got off work that my last day is next friday and she didn't seem too upset about that. and I got my pay check. I know minimum wage doesn't pay well, but its a lot better than nothing. anyway, i'm still talking to Anna, just online instead of over the phone, but I wanted to leave an update and let you all know that i'm feeling happy! :)

 

of course Nam did send me another message on myspace so i'm sure i'm gonna read that and then feel shitty again, but at least right now I'm in a good mood and I'm happy that I have an awesome friend like Rhianna! <3

Coming down off a slight buzzzzzzz.  Sitting here in my office after dinner with a girl I haven't spoken to, or laid eyes upon since almost 3 years ago to the day.  Crazy.  Catching up on what has happened in our lives, having a few drinks.  The familiar gaze, the familiar sound, memories flooding back. 

 

She ordered soup, a salad, and a mojito.  I ordered enchiladas, and a beer.  We talked about what we have been doing here in the city, between sips of alcohol.  Wondering how we crossed paths again, who she's dated, who I've dated.  Why things didn't work out for either of us. 

 

She's pretty serious about the newest guy in her life, or so she says.  Something was different in how she brought him up though, the way she spoke about him.  Something I can't quite put my finger on.  Not so much a "I'm totally smitten with him" type of thing, as had been the case for guys in the past.  No, this time it was "He's safe and won't hurt me" type of thing.  Her description lacked a certain luster to it.  Something was missing, and she knew it but didn't want to admit it.  She felt safe.  And maybe that is what she needs. 

As our conversation moved forward from past relationships to what mutual friends have been up to, her gentleman caller arrived.  At first walking across the street, up to window where we both sat, and then awkwardly rotating 180 degrees as he realized the enterance was on the other side. 

 

As he entered and she realized, the mood changed slightly.  They were going to a movie at 7:30 ... it was 6:30.  Conversation stops as he makes his way to the table.  I stand, introduce myself, we shake hands, they smooch hello.  No other words were spoken, as for a few seconds we all contemplate the new arrangments.  As he stand next to our table for two, I motion for him to pull up a chair from the next table over. 

 

So quick for her tone to change, almost as if to reassure the suiter of her simple intentions to catch up on lost time.  He's the jealous type, much like her.  I don't bite on the tone, no need to respond with equal amounts of mild disdain, or sarcasm.  I used to in the past.

 

After a while things settle down.  Thinsg are not as awkward as we finish our meal, and discuss things that would bring the suiter into the conversation.  He isn't very talkative, reserved,  and a bit concerned looking as he silently tries to figure me out.  Thankfully there were no attempts to "one up" or hints of machismo.  No questions either.  He mostly looked at his beer, or her. 

 

She leaves for the bathroom.  The bill arrives.  I pay.  He and I share small talk about where I am from, what he does for a living.  Short, to the point answers from him.  Long rambling answers from me.  We leave the restaurant, I shake hands with the suiter, and prepare for a short hug before moving back into the real world. Instead I receive a long, almost too long, bear hug from her. 

 

She insists that I visit them at this party on Sunday for the football game.  I say, "Three or so years from now, okay!" thinking I'm being light hearted.  "No, the one this weekend," she replied with a perfectly serious demeanor.  I sigh in my head, and mutter to myself, "It's a joke, lighten up."  Perhaps she misunderstood.  We part ways, her and the suiter up a few blocks to the movies, I make my way a few blocks down back to the office.