Care About Us @ MindSay

I want to tell you you're a coward. But I can't. I want to tell you you're an asshole. But you're not. I want to tell you that I still can't breathe. That I haven't stopped crying. But you don't care. Your words pierced me. Drove through  tissue and bone. Took the air out of me. I cried. I begged. But you don't care. Something broke. No, not broke. Broke isn't severe enough. Something in me shattered last night. Completely destroyed. You destroyed me. You killed me. I no longer exist. I am someone, something, else. I'll never be the same. I don't want to be the same. I want to go back to Thursday night. Sitting on the floor. Taking care of you hearing you tell me how much you love me. I want to go back to every single night for the past two months. Curled into your shoulder. Safe in your arms. What the fuck happened. Instead I fell asleep to Bjord stroking my hair and telling me to keep breathing.

I'm giving myself six months. Six months to heal. To continue working on Amy. To improve upon the improvements I already accomplished. I still have alot to work on. Too bad you'll never see how you've changed me. How you've helped me.

I can't hate you. I never could. I want to. I want to wish you dead. But I can't. In my heart I know I did everything I could. And that's all I need to get me through this. Well, that and my friends.

Just let me know that you'll be there....

Just let me know that you care...

Thats all iM asking for from you...

I just want you to know that I LOVE YOU!

                                Kyle Plattenburg ©

I had my member title as "do you care anymore...?" And i PM'ed earlier, and he replied then said "Oh, and yeah, I do still care" =)
Jsut hearing him say that sent butterflies right through my system ^^
Heeh =P I'm one littl eHappy Bunny (not a humping one, like's roger's entry xD)

Listening To: Back To You : John Mayer

Mood: ^_^

Reixx

Caring.

I just wanted to say how much I care about you.....And even though we argue and bullshit I still care about you......I think about  you 110% of the day and its crazy but I guess thats what love is and I have  no Idea what going to happen in the next few month and I,m running out of time.......and its frustrating to love you the way I do because I would like nothing but to hold you in my arms and not let you the fuck go! but,I can,t be selfish I know this is a tough time for you and all I want to do is be there ,no matter how many times you push me away ...I know thats how you deal with your situations thats why I can,t stay upset about......whether I,m your man ,your boyfriend,husband,I,am still a friend and I still love you the same in all titles we may have for each other ........and there you are on the phone i,ll talk to you instead love you baby.

i wonder why everytime i go to say hey u turn away..

i wonder if u even really care.

i wish u could just tell me the truth

why dont u care anymore..

what happened to us?

i lay in bed pondering these questions as if my life was slowing down before my eyes

i think back to the days when we were happy

but all that is gone thanks to that faithful day.

why did u kiss her u knew i was there

i wish u would disappear but id miss u when u were gone.

i hate to admit it but i would miss u.. id miss the way u looked at me

they way u play with ur hair and i miss the days i spent with u

i feel as if i wasted my time. did i?

when did u decided i was no good? before or after i kissed u.

pleaze tell me this, its torture trying to be mad at u.

please dont play with me like this.

why wont u tell the truth??

                                                                                                                              - the black fiddler