I watched BrokeBack Mountain the other night at work with a coworker. While I have no issues with anyone being gay or being of any sexual orientation other than the one I live, I think it scarred me for life. I was NOT ready to have my ideas of Heath Ledger completely shattered in my head! My poor brain!
Anyhow, it scarred me even more, which I came to realize this morning upon waking up at 5:32, a half hour before my alarm was set to go off. I woke up crying and absolutely FURIOUS at Adam. I was on a rampage! I had no urge to talk to him, and was happy I was leaving for work before he even got home from work.
In the shower I remembered the dream I had last night. I also remembered that no matter how many times I woke up over the night, the dream always continued, which made it worse and worse.
I cant remember the details of it anymore but I know I did first thing this morning. I should get out one of my empty journals and keep it beside my bed so I can write things down. However, it is VERY seldom that I forget details of dreams. But of course this was the one I DID forget.
In my dream, Adam had been seeing a man behind my back and I found out by accident only a week or so before the wedding. I was so mad and he kept trying to hide it even though I KNEW it was true! I couldnt decide whether to marry him or not.
Oh I was LIVID when I woke up this morning! Poor Adam, doesnt even know this yet. I will have to call him at work after and fill him in.
So no more gay cowboy movies for me! I have issues and shouldnt be allowed to watch such movies. Those, nor horror flicks!