When there's clouds hangin' in your sky And they're not just lettin' any light in And you feel like you'd like to give in Don't you give up so soon What you need is a friend to count on What you got, baby, you got someone Who will stay when the rain is fallin' And won't let it fall on you I'll see you through I'll cover you with a love so deep and warm and true I will be there
Honey, I'll be your shelter I'll be the one to take you through the night Whenever you need shelter I'll make everything alright Make everything alright
I got arms strong enough to hold you Get you through anything you go through Anything that you need You know it's only a touch away When your heart needs a heart beside it Should be mine that it's keeping time with 'Coz I got so much love inside it It beats for you every day I'll be the one To give you love When it seems like there's just not enough Mine will be there
Honey, I'll be your shelter I'll be the one to take you through the night Whenever you need shelter I'll make everything alright Make everything alright
I'll see you through I'll cover you with a love so deep and warm and true I will be there
Honey I'll be your shelter I'll be the one to take you through the night Whenever you need shelter I'll make everything alright Make everything alright
Last night I finished Tina Brown's book about Diana and if ever there was a description of a Borderline Personality Disorder... that was Diana Spencer. stormy relationships. Idealizing and demonizing people. suicidal ideation, paranoia, constant fear of abandonement, unstable self image and core, eating disorder. Having been raised by a woman with BPD, I KNOW. trust me.
that marriage would have been hellish even if they were not the Wales'. But you know, I don't love her less, she was an amazing albeit highly troubled woman who brought something amazing to this world.
I'm feeling a lot better than yesterday. I just came home from seeing my therapist and she always helps to put things in perspective. I read to her yesterday's entry and told her how frustrated I am feeling with God. I told her I've been getting different advice from different people (not my Mindsay friends) and I just end up feeling confused. She told me I needed to go back to what I said to her last Tuesday - I need to find my answers with just God. No human can give me all the answers. The answers are in His word and I need to dig and look for myself. We talked about my Borderline Personality Disorder. She said I have to pray that when I'm praying and reading the Word I'll look at everything through a clear lens and not a black and white lens and not a victim tinted lens. It makes sense - everything in my life is tainted by my BPD so it makes sense to ask the Lord to remove that from my prayer life and my time with Him. I'm still going to do Beth Moore's Breaking Free but I'm realizing that her Bible study, as great as it may be, is not the Word of God. My therapist went over the hour with me and I could tell she genuinely cared about me and loved me buy the way she ministered to me this evening. Thank you, Lord, for the blessing of ***** in my life. Thank you, Lord, that you ARE stronger than BPD.