Blue Jeans @ MindSay

i have the best pair of jeans. they arent my "going out" jeans or anything, id like wear em to woolworths or something..lol..but for $36 i definitely got my moneys worth. they are so comfy and so many people have asked me where i got them from, and i answer: chinch, about 3 years ago..lol..for the amount of times i have worn them im suprised the stitching hasnt fallen apart yet..touch wood..lol..they are pretty good.

they are a nifty pair of jeans.

they go well with my 'jimmy eat world' t-shirt..i know they are jeans and jeans pretty much go with everything, but this shirt just suits the jeans well..and yea..like a match made from heaven..lol.

...So get what you can-leaving you empty just because you're a man....

 

Siiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh... once again Shawn falls through. So.. the whole day I've been bummed out.

I've started trying on my new jeans with older smaller shirts I've bought within the last month and they look waaaaaaaaay hot with my new jeans.

Jeans from Old Navy that I LOVED the fit no longer fit quite right, which is a bummer because they have the cheapest jeans.

Anyways. I can't get over the birth mother thing. When my Mom died what kept me going was that somewhere out there was my birth mother who thought of me everyday, every milestone.. but there's not. There's just a fucked up druggie who is hardly lucid most of the time and doesn't know she's had not just  me, but ANOTHER baby. Two babies and no clue. I'm seeing a therapist Thursday. I need one... NOW.I just keep this stuff bottled up inside that it hurts like hell. I can't talk to my dad about it, which causes a lot of tension because he will have the "I told you so" card. He told me I probably wouldn't find anything I like.... but I at least found my Grandma Suzie who I enjoy a lot.

I did my laundry Friday night, because I was afraid there wouldn't be time on the weekend.  A few times ago I had thrown in the St. Patrick's Day shirt I had bought. Even though the wash was on cold, it still managed to turn a few shirts I had green.  I was ticked off, but glad it didn't ruin everything in the wash. Just a few socks and a couple shirts I liked.  Then FRIDAY... I did my laundry at the nearby laundromat.  I hate going somewhere else to do it, but usually nothing bad happens.

I had bought $140 jeans from a used clothing store in Burbank, you know "It's a Wrap", which of course they sold for much less.  In fact, I thought they were ripping me off, because I hadn't looked at the price tag and was shocked at the total my bill came to... well, anyway, they ended up being a very good buy.

I get my clothes home Friday night and hang up some of the stuff, but of course it's late....etc.  I couldn't seem to find my jeans but I assumed they were in the big pile of clothes... anyway, basically by this morning, I realized those jeans are gone.  I don't know if someone took them out when they were in the washer or dryer, but they are gone.  I'm hoping they are just "lost" in my room and they will turn up.  But this is a disappointment.  I really want a place that has its own washer & dryer.  I hate losing clothes. 

On top of that, the jeans that I was wearing yesterday... the top button just came off.  So yes, now I have like one pair of jeans left.  I have a pair of funky jeans, and then I have a pair of jeans I liked in the fitting room, but once I got them home...ick... they were also from "It's A Wrap" for not much money, so I figure whatever.  They are for emergencies only. 

Plus I just went shopping for clothes on .... Monday night. I couldn't find anything I liked.  I guess I will have to splurge, and go shopping at the mall or back to "It's a Wrap".  I haven't been there in awhile.  I am just disappointed that two pairs of jeans went out at once.  I was almost late for work this morning, because I was looking for jeans that weren't there.

Ya, I feel so accomplished now! I shopped for about 5 hours today  and got 4 shirts, a pair of cargo pants( of corse) and a necklace for my friends birthday all for about $60! Not too bad, I love winter sales! I searched everywhere for a good pair of jeans that would actually fit me, but nooooooooooo! None fit me right. In fact, i was off to a bad start. I went to a store and tried on a pair of really nice looking jeans, and I generally take about 4-6, but I couldn't even get those past my thigh! so we were up to size 9 and I was like, you know what, they look horrible on me, and they cost too much, for get it! It did nothign for my ego what so ever, I hate jeans shopping for that spacific reason. It is near impossible to get pants taht arn't toooo long or too small in all the wrong places. and after going to every single clothing store in the mall, I gave up an dgot a pair of cargo.

But seriously, I will get a pair of jeans, so i can chuck most of my crappy ones!

 

Ok......I have a little note for my swan if she reads this.

I am soooooo sorry about not being able to do our little christmas thing, I feel absolutely horrible. I know that we spent so much time planning it, and this was our only time. ANd to add to it, the one reason that I couldnt' even see you , did even happen. He never called me, the bastard! wich is why I decided to go shopping around 4 ish. But if there is anyway that I can make it up to you, name it. I really wanted to see you too. o, and i'm sorry for calling so late last night, I really hope that i didnt get you in trouble.

i love you hun!

Today, Dinah and I coordinated. It was quite weird. I didn't realize it until she and I walked out and Jerry mentioned it. We both were wearing our blue coats. I had my red shirt showing underneath. She wore a red scarf. We both had jeans. It was most interesting. Most unintentional. I want to get stuff done for Kara's birthday but I feel unequipped to do so. Marie is back. I missed her. Weird. I also enjoyed hanging out with Emily while Marie was gone. and Talking with Beth was cool. Over the past two days, I edited three papers. Dawn was really grateful. I printed something out and edited it there and then scanned it and sent it back. She didn't accept all of my changes which is why I did it that way. I just finished Marie's paper. I really like reading her writing. It is quite intelligent. She was most grateful. Even Beth was. But I have fun doing it and it is something I am good at. Now the third paper I edited today I feel angry about. Kervin asked me to edit his paper during calc. It wasn't well written at all. It reminded me of Elizabeth's writing from last year. I made good changes and he doesn't need to use all of them any ways. I gave it back to him and he called me a bitch. I was so angry. I did him a favor. I did not need to do it at all. I should have said something. Maybe I will sometime. He is of no use to me. This is not a friendship of utility. This is just someone using me. I shouldn't stand for it but we all know that I will let him walk all over me once again.
I need to take my computer to doit once again. ERgh. it crashed when we were watching a movie. ERgh. Kit came over and we watched Miss Congeniality and started watching Batman Begins but she had to leave because she went home. I'm now excited to go home. I can't wait. I also can't wait to see Sc tomorrow.
Until tomorrow. I can't wait. Kara wants to vacuum our room but yeah... She can do that before she leaves.