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I actually expected myself to be going into college for a wasted effort like I normally do on a Friday - but I was proved wrong - we were actually learning about stuff I hadn't already learnt last year - and not wasting my time with coursework planning when mine was planned three weeks ago. :)

Before I set off for the bus this morning, I cleaned my room, hoovered the floor, re-arranged my PS2 games shelf, changed my bedsheets and emptied my bin. I used my time productivley. :)

I had to go into college today as well to pick up the camera Paul told us all to take home over the weekend. One of the heavy film cameras we were using the other week in the lesson. With the annoying manual apature and poxy light meter. Fuck knows what photos I can take to relate to my Addictions project like.

Though I did have to stand in the art corridors for 20 fucking minutes waiting for the technician to finish talking before I even got a camera - and he was snotty to me, saying I need to pay for the film. I was like "FINE, HAVE YOUR FUCKING FIFTY PENCE."
Then Arriva decided to be knobs and have the 64 turn up half an hour late.

I've finally got refunded by Play.com for this GH handheld that didn't bother turning up in time for Shelly's birthday - but surprise surprise - when I went to order another one from a different seller - they'd decided to stop selling them altogether. Gaaahh.

Seriously being fucked around today like.

So instead, I ordered a Guitar Hero poster and a copy of Spyro: Enter The Dragonfly for her instead. Hopefully she'll like them. I still think the GH handheld would have been better though... :(

My fears about Ash and this weird girl were sort of cleared up. Ash came online and I asked her about this person who's supposably like me. Apparently we're a totally different type of weird. And if Ash describes someone as "this girl I'm friends with" - as opposed to "my friend" - she obviously values me higher.




...Well, I hope so......

I'm in such a good mood! Honestly I woke up and thought today would be horrible because the first thing I woke up to was my mom telling me what to do with my life and a stomach ache from hell. I told her no I am not going to teach Spanish children how to speak English because that would mean I would have to actually speak Spanish, basically the worst thing I could do. So I drank some water, ate some mini muffins, and proceeded to have a great day.

The people in the School of Education are a million times nicer than in the Communications Sciences and Disorders Department. I met with my new adviser and I found out I do not have to take the Praxis test because my SAT scores were so fantastic. I knew that sucker would come in handy one day. Assuming I get a 2.75 which I should. I have 3 Bs and 2 Cs right now so...anyway, assuming such I'll be in the major and starting internships etc in fall. Unfortunately I won't graduate until Spring '12 (assuming the earth is still here, right?) but that's fine because I don't need to go to graduate school anymore, therefore I have 2-3 years of not going to school available that I didn't have before.

And now, for my elusive tentative spring schedule..... *drumroll please*

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Bio 105 Major Concepts of Biology 12-12:50
ELC 381 The Institution of Education 2-3:15

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TED 250 Teaching as a Profession 8-10:50
IGS 200 Introduction to International Global Studies 11-12:15 *This is the class that could crumble this entire schedule, there are only 15 spots left and I can't register until Novemeber 13th
HDF 302 Infant & Child Devel in Family 12:30-1:45

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Bio 105 Lab 9-11:50
Bio 105 Major Concepts of Biology 12-12:50
ELC 381 The Institution of Education 2-3:15

TH (or R as my school likes to call it)
TED 250 Teaching as a Profession 8-10:50
IGS 200 Introduction to International Global Studies 11-12:15
HDF 302 Infant & Child Devel in Family 12:30-1:45
LIS 120 Intro to Technlgy Educ Setting  Either 4-5:15 or Online

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Bio 105 Major Concepts of Biology 12-12:50

Making for a grand total of 17 credit hours, woo! I'm going to be stressed out of my mind :D Also, I really really hope that one class does not fill up and destroy my perfect schedule. And now that I've said that, it probably will. But regardless, I feel really good about everything and dare I say confident that this will work out. I also took the brave route and decided on Language and Communication as my academic concentration and according to this paper it is basically "teaching the communication skills or language arts of speaking, listening, reading and writing." I was going to go with English but that would put me with the older kids and that's just not as fun. :)


FIN

I wish I hadn't deleted my old blog. I know what was in there for the most part. But I regret that I did it because of a boy. It upset him and later on I found how little it meant in the first place to him. It was a big deal to me. I mean sure there wasn't anything to be proud of, a lot of misspelled words and teenage ramblings that would make anyone cringe, but it was my teenage ramblings and my misspelled words that I can't ever get back. I like that there's no drama on this blog and I like that I can spell and not put a "z" on the end of everything but I'm just not as comfortable with it as I was with my old one as weird as that sounds. I would have liked to look back on my old entries and cringe like everyone else because even though I remember, 15 seems so far away.

I'm a different person now. I made so many horrible decisions and even after things got better, I was so bitter and angry for awhile because I couldn't wrap my mind around how no one stopped me. It's easy to see now though, we were all caught up in our own drama and anger and glorious teenage angst.  If I had just told one person I was scared or told the right person, I think things could have been different and there's no one to blame for that but myself. It would be a lie if I said I really like the person I've turned into. My photography went down the drain a long time ago and I still feel like I'm a mess, just a more mature mess. I'm not really angry anymore and I'm not that sad. I love the weird looks I get walking back from class when I end up smiling for no apparent reason. I miss all the friends I had and I miss the complicated simplicity. I'm terrified of getting older and paying bills and having no mercy from anyone because of my age/naive innocence but it's all very exciting isn't it? Everything is changing all the time and I love it. I don't really know where I'm going or where I'll end up in life or what kind of person I will become. It's fantastic and it's what I need. 

Yesterday I blogged about what has been going on so today I thought I would give a more detailed blog of what's currently going on in my life.

Last week I was told I would not be able to get into my major. I knew this was a possibility and I told myself I would be fine if it happened. So of course I ran into the bathroom, cried like a little girl,  and proceeded to mope for a couple of days. Registration is November 13th so I had to figure out what do asap. I have an advising appointment on Thursday with someone from the School of Education. If I had stuck with teaching in the first place I might not have wasted so much time with other classes but I think I needed to see for myself what I really wanted to do. And maybe it's a good sign that I'm coming back to it. So right now, I'm pretty excited about that. I have a good feeling about it. Especially since a ladybug just landed next to me.

I've been listening to a lot of Muse the past couple of days. I've also been trying to wear my hair down more. It's prettier, just a pain in the ass and about a million different colors right now. I'm a little embarrassed about this but I've been sucked into a soap opera thanks to my roommate. Everyday at 1 pm I get sucked into the terrible acting and more drama than should ever be in one show. It's one of those things that's its like it is so bad you can't look away sort of thing.

I finally met a movie I did not like. I understood it fine, I know what the director was trying to do but I did not like "Breathless." I actually nodded off. So I have to re watch it and then write a paper on the influence it had on "Bonnie and Clyde."

I looked at my bank account... I really need to work more, as much as I hate it. So I will be hostessing on Saturday. Basically all I have been spending money on is gas and groceries (and I have a meal plan in the caf) and it's really put a dent in my wallet. Next year I'm going to live in the on campus apartments and while rent is included in my financial aid, groceries and gas still need to be taken care of.
 Money problems aside, I'm really enjoying my newfound independence. I'm still trying to find a better balance between studying and goofing off but it's getting better. Even though I didn't get into the major I wanted, I'm really glad I transferred. I just don't really blog very much unless there's something wrong and maybe I should change that.