Blessings @ MindSay

well, its been awhile again...I haven't been myself since July-August probably and I didn't feel like writing any.
The Dixie Classic Fair was fun though,but I got very tired that day.. That it how its been . I get so tired doing anything and stomach problems too. I was glad when my Doctor appointment finally arrived over a week ago now. All my blood work came back with great results. No thyroid problems or Liver problems and I'm not perimenopausal either... Cholesterol levels were great as were blood count, etc.. so, Dr. said it sounded like depression. All the stress from this year...Yes, worry is a sin..I don't handle it very well and I give it to God, but I always manage to pull it back..Not what you're supposed to do...so now I'm back on my Zoloft after being off it for well over two years..Starting to feel like me again. Last friday at the West/Reynolds game I had the best time. My friend I haven't seen in a long while, Trace' Cave Cunduff came. and wonders of all we saw John Sherrill too! We haven't seen him in years! Long years! LOL He has not changed a bit! He's still John! haha.. we had a great time picking and carrying on..just like the old days again! I knew I was gonna be okay then..
I can almost pinpoint a time when I really felt lowest...The day we got that Certified letter from our mortgage co..I had to sign for it and my heart sank...I prayed so hard while opening that letter, and called James crying my eyes out...That was hard, as I have written before. I just kept praying though, and I knew God would answer in His time, but I was being honest with Him and asking Him to hurry up. :)  Not what you're supposed to do either, but He knows me and we are all human and live in this imperfect world.
Meanwhile its been getting cooler and having crisp nights. There have been some Indian Summer days though. I was able to not turn our heat on for almost 2 whole weeks.
Then Monday came. I was working at home on Quickbooks trying to get it straight for Biogreen. I get a call and answer it. It's Lynn. She's been helping us deal with our mortgage co..She said"They are sending you a package out Fed Ex and you should get it tomorrow.. Your interest rate dropped to 6.375% and your new payments are like $848.00"... My skin started prickling and I cried... I felt relief wash over me.. She didnt know the rest of the details..we'd find out from the letter.. I stayed home again on Tuesday and worked on Quickbooks again,finishing it....James came home for lunch like he always does...I see the Fed Ex truck back into the driveway... James goes to meet him and signs for the letter... we sit together and open it. I read it...
"James, it says that this is for the next 365 months!"  Oh my! Here come the pricklings again!!! We look at each other.. "So this is the new payment for the rest of the loan?" "Yes!!" Hallaluha!!  after trying 3 times with them to get this Loan Mod, we get it and it's great! we didnt know if it would be just 6 months as most are or a year, but the life of the Loan!! That was such a blessing !!! A burden lifted!! I thanked God all the rest of that day and still am....
another prayer was answered too on Tuesday. Ariana was able to trade her Jeep and her $2500 for a 2002 Saturn! It only had about 75000 miles on it. Her jeep broke down over a week ago and it was a pain trying to get her to College and picked up and to work and me to work.... it was a mess but we did it.. and she had to buy the $84 dollar part and Jeff fixed the jeep for her, but it still needed a battery...she'd go somewhere and have to get a jump to start it... Not good..plus it was eating gas and ate oil like crazy too. She had to put 3 quarts in every two weeks or so.. she did cry though...The jeep was her first car... She didn't really want to give it up, but she knew it was for the best. Now she 'll have a good car when she goes to UNCC in a year or so..
and Morgan. He had to buy a new car too. Late September his old car starting acting up and stalling out on him, so James looked around here and found him a "97 Grand Am with only about 65000 miles on it.. and Morgan could afford it. he just had to borrow $1300 from Grandma to do it and he'll pay her back in Jan. when he gets his financial aid $ again. It cost him $2800.00. Both of the kids cars are white now! That is odd! I wont know who is who until I can see the whole car coming in!! LOL
So many blessings this week..... I am feeling better on my medicine and getting things done now that got neglected over the summer...Whew..now on to the next problem..figuring out how to pay our taxes of $1800.00!!! since we inherited that 7 acres of land, our property taxes went up...big time!! 
We signed the papers from the Mortgage co. and Fed ex'd them back all on the same day...we should hear soon about when payment is due and all that... 
There's still the matter of Christmas too. I told James we could not afford to buy for everyone this year... We will get the small ones something, and try to figure out how and what to do for Morgan and Ariana... I just want us to be together...I don't need one thing! After all what is Christmas all about anyway? -The Birth of our Lord and Saviour!!!! When you realize that, nothing else matters. Enjoy the season of Love!
Thanksgiving coming soon! Time to Thank the Lord for all our blessings! But we should thank Him on a daily basis... He does so much for us..look for the small things and the big things..There's always something! I remind myself of that daily...

Matthew 6:33 Seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness and all other things will be added to you...

I have to say that I have firsthand knowledge that this scripture works..It worked for me..One time in my life, I said Yes to God and in every conceivable way, he poured out his blessings on me, on us, on my family.

I obeyed because I wanted to please God and because I wanted to feel holy as I entered into marriage.

I have not always obeyed God, particularly with regard to sex..I was the sassy, classy good girl who could be erotic and funny and sweet at the same time..I wanted to please God but I have always struggled with the sexual issues..He says..."not outside marriage" and I said.."Oh but...I have this sexy boyfriend, I must" and so the guilt continued..

It was quite the dilemma for a girl/woman who wanted to do the right thing.

Enter H.

We met at an alumni dance at the University of British Columbia..There were hundreds of people in the room and our eyes locked across the room, literally...I never expected it...but the energy was there..

He always said..."It was love at first sight"..

I remember there was not more than a few moments that we weren't aware of where the other person was that evening in the midst of all of those people....eventually we spoke..drawn to each other in the middle of the room like a moth to a flame...H was very cute, almost boyish, tall, blondish wavy hair, twinkle in his eye yet he had a slight timidity that was charming. I liked him but I was just getting out of a relationship so I told him that I couldn't see him..

On my way out to my car, I almost slapped myself for not giving him my number.
I wanted to see him...Just then he passed behind my car and when I rolled down my car window, he came over...I got out of the car...kissed him and said.."Call me".

He did..

We encountered a lot of bumps along the road in our 4 years that lead up to marriage...We broke up...We got back together..There was much soulsearching..but one thing I know for certain..

We practiced Mathew 6:33 and God was faithful.

H and I became engaged...We set a date..We wanted to be married in the same church that I was baptized in so we made an appointment to meet with the pastor..During the conversation, we told him that we had been living together..

He told us...that marriage is holy and the marriage bed is sacred..
H and I discussed right in front of the pastor whether we could remain celebate until we were husband and wife..

We made a committment to each other and to God right then and there that we would remain celebate for 6 months until we married...and we did..We did..

This time was a time to get to the know the man H...Sex had been great but now....I got to know the man...and where there was doubt before, I realized during our celibacy that I now wanted to marry him because of who he was.

When I walked down the aisle, I felt God's blessing...Why??? Because we put God First..
It was the only time I have put God first with complete obedience...and during my marriage to H............we were blessed with abundance.
Within a year of being married, we bought a home, I got pregnant and we began to prosper financially...That was Mathew 6:33 in action.

The marriage ended after almost 20 years............but it was a successful marriage, it was....We are still friendly and there is still love in our relationship but he is not the man I will live with until death.

Moral of the story....Mathew 6:33..works..
If a person truly seeks to please God, God will pour out his blessings on you..
This is a reminder to self.

earlier today, I evoked;
"May there be a surprise in my mailbox today"...

Industry
Charity
Faith
Hope

Irony and Affirmation not lost on me

     I knew that a gift/blessing was gonna be there today, for I have Faith. The real surprise was an additional check paying me for work that I did over a month ago arrived as well. Now, I've already been paid for that job by the real estate broker who contracted me, however it was that payment that was extorted by my previous roommate(she's the person who processed my invoice for the job) for she put her name on the check and then gave me what she thought I deserved('nuff said). Now I have the opportunity to set the example and make all that right..by giving back to the broker what she had originally paid out of her pocket to me and re-establishing my good name against the LIBEL now being spread by "other parties involved".
I called the client and told them(left message) what the plan was to ensue.

I cannot help but notice that all this transpires between Lammas and the Corn Moon Esbat also known as the Dispute Moon..irony not lost on me at all

Blessed Be to those who cherish friendships..

Errrrgh.

This'd be the third night in a row that I'll be up late. And I've been getting up early for long enough that apparently my body's now wired into it. I'll wake up slightly before my alarm, and even if I try to sleep for the last few minutes, my body's having none of it.

I know, there are a lot of people out there who have it worse. I'll shut up and do my work now. :)

Signscout says I have to share this one on the blog. Today, I was chased across a soccer field by a half-dozen people, three of whom were repeatedly calling, "C'mere, Beautiful!" Half of this I understand - the new nickname came out of left field. DEEP left field. Usually, they call me tiger, or horsie. We were playing a chasing game, and since there are six kids and one 'teacher', every game seems to end up being, at some point, "Everybody chase Phirefly!"

I love days like this. :) Big open field, big sunny sky, big poofy clouds, big smiles on the kids, big hearts in the people I like working with. Big joy day. :D

There's something so incredible about living in gratitude. Being thankful for sunshine, honestly grateful for it. The way it feels when you're really hungry, and then suddenly offered food. Being thankful for a really wretched day, because someone recently reminded you how you nearly died, and you wouldn't have known that day. Love for my friends, being so glad they're in my life.

One of the notable blessings for me is having someplace quiet and secure to sleep. It means a lot to me that I have my own bed (not borrowed or a couch), I have my own room, and I can lock my door. There've been circumstances in the past where for one reason or another I stayed at a friend's out of urgency, or slept the night in my car. It's not that I can't sleep in that situation, I actually tend to do just fine there. It just means so much to me that there is a space where I can be, and it's secure. Well, the door deadbolts, anyway - if someone dropped a helicopter on it, it probably wouldn't be ideal.

Oranges. I am coming to love oranges. I don't know what it is, save maybe that for the longest time I couldn't eat them. They evoke happiness on a very deep and simple level. One of my storylines, there's this starving man who comes out of the desert, and he finds an orange, and he's shaking with emotion as he peels it. I haven't been starving, but my favorite lunch at college is a bowl of hot, fluffy rice, an orange, and a square of dark chocolate. Absolutely perfect. Love the orange.

I know what I want to do with my life. Or, at least, what I want to do with the next eight to ten years. This is so cool for me - I've been uncertain, indecisive, and generally worrying about whether I'm on the right path for, I don't know, months at least. Around last Thursday or so, or maybe it was Monday, there was a bit of an epiphany. Last night, I wrote it all down. I'm so excited!

So far, the vision looks like this: Acronym, Acronym, word, acronym, acronym, half-acronym, acronym, two words. It's kind of entertaining. :) Yay letters! Yay dreams! Yay life!