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What makes some people think, “I’m only one person.  What can I do?”  While others stand up, and use the voices they’ve been given.  What makes them so different?  Why do some people believe they can, while others believe they cannot?

One voice can sing quite beautifully all on its own.  It can touch people in ways that they may not even fully understand.  When you coalesce numerous voices, you get a powerful chorus which can move people in compelling, emotional ways.  Music can, and will, move people to tears.

Take away the music, keep the lyrics (or message), and the same is true.  One person speaking up, and just one person listening, can make a difference in some way.  When a number of people get together with a common cause, their impact can be immeasurable.  They have a louder voice.

My point is, don’t ever think you can’t do something because you’re “just one person”.  You can live your life the way you want to live it.  It’s yours, so make it count!  You can let your voice be heard solo, or you can lend it to an already colossal choir.  Stand up for your beliefs.  Be extraordinary!  The choice is yours.

Until Next Time,

Danielle   

 
 
   
 

More Discussion with a Fellow Survivor

I wasn't sure whether to post these or not, but I remembered that a lot of the people who read my blog now didn't read it a year ago when a lot of this information was coming about, so I decided to anyway to help shed more light what I've been through. Don't forget that I also have a couple PTSD links to help you try to understand, too. Her e-mail is a reply to the one I posted in "My Big Step Vol. 3" and then I replied to that. Also, her text reference in here is because my text accidentally came out as black on a black background because of my blog. :P but yeah, I hope this helps you guys understand a little.

 

"Hi Jennifer,
 
Thanks for your reply - I am glad we've kept in contact. I'm also glad you'll continue to speak out...I think it's very important. I didn't end up going to the Open Mic thing...I wanted to really badly, but I was exhausted because I hadn't slept well for a couple of days, and also like you I did NOT want to walk home in the dark. I also had homework to work on and I had to get up early the next morning to get ready for a weekend camping trip (that's why it took me so long to reply to your email). I really want to do something like that though. It has been very healing to me to meet other survivors and talk to them. A counselor can tell you you're not alone 'till they're blue in the face, but you will never FEEL you are not alone until you meet someone who really is with you.
 
I think it's cool what you did with the text of your email. It reminds me of those government documents released through FOIA (Freedom Of Information Act). Except that your email actually tells the truth instead of covering it up, which is the best!
 
That's horrible that people are spreading rumors on a blog. That's messed up. I HATE people who friggin' (--does the F word offend you? I appologize if it does and won't use it anymore if it offends you) ----anyway I hate people who make up the most shit-faced excuses trying to vaporize the turth. I've been told I dreamed it, I had a fantasy about it and can't tell fantasy from reality, I made it up to get attention...on and on. My academic counselor here at HSU even asked me, TO MY FACE, if I was sure I hadn't just made it up. WHAT KIND OF QUESTION IS THAT! As if I have anything to gain by making something up and hiding it from myself. Is that even possible? "Oh, they're doing a lot of research now, and most people who have said they were sexually abused were really just making it up". That's what she told me. GOD! I am still angry about that! I hate her ass!!!! I have invisioned her death so many times. I don't want to kill anyone, but I like to have anger fantasies someitmes - which, I'm sure I don't need to tell you that YES I CAN tell fantasy from reality, unlike this lady, Sharon Ferrett, seemed to think.
 
It's cool that you're going to get together and change things. Count me in. I want to start a support group too, because although I do think the Health Center and Emma Center (I also was on their wait list, I believe) need to improve thereservice, I can tell you for sure that I will not be waiting on them! Im willing to work to effect change, but in the meantime, if I want something done right, I may have to do it myself. A group BY survivors FOR survivors. What's all this lab rat shit that goes on? I'm not willing to be another HSU Health Center experiment.
 
Take care of yourself. Do something fun for you! You deserve it!
xxxxx"
 
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"Hey xxxxx,

 

lol, thanx for the thing about the text. It's a very good point, and it's cool that it took you a while to reply. While I do check my e-mail often, I'm so busy with school that I often don't get to replying to them, so it takes me a while sometimes as well. As soon as I know what's going on I'll let you know. I actually got a chance to talk to one of the directors for Psyc. Services today, and she asked me to set up an appointment with her to discuss the policy even further. I know I'm just one person, but if I can communicate with her and take away some information, maybe I can spread that and get something done.

 

I so feel you on what you're saying about people who accuse you of making shit up. What the hell DO i have to gain from that? If I just wanted attention I'd come up with a much less complicated story than the shit that I've been through and I'd talk about that. Honestly, what the fuck? (oh yeah- unless you directly call me something or use a word like "faggot", words don't offend me. :P) I can't believe your advisor told you that. It's so aweful that people can say that, and it's terrible that a lot of people don't believe that women DO rape other women! Some rape men! So many people don't acknowledge or believe that that does happen, so if I was raped by a guy and no one believes me and I'm pissed now, I'm sure that's just a fraction of what you're feeling and I'm so sorry. I do have to say, though, that sometimes I do ask myself if I'm making it all up, like I just had a psychotic break, but if that's true, why do i remember it? Why do i have RECORDS of it? Why do I have it written down on my calander, why do I see old blog entries from before the cops found out, why is it so traumatic for me to hear other people talk about it? There's no way I made it up, and there's no way that what happened to me wasn't very real. I understand how you feel about the killing fantasies. "Kill Bill" is my favorite movie for a reason. :D I really just don't like to think about him anymore, though, and as hard as it is I'm trying to grow and move on. Also, I have never seen any record of any study done like that, and I've never heard any professional tell me something like that. I know that there are people who make it up, and they are truly sick and twisted individuals that feel god knows what reason to do something like that. As I said before, make up something else. Make up that you're an orphan that's being raised by a crazy cat lady or something. Something else interesting to think about is the people who generally make up those lies and say things like that are generally the ones who are seeking attention, and that's why they spread them.

 

With that I need to get some sort of work done, but it's great talking to you and getting to share this dialogue with another survivor. I'm doing all I can to learn what I can do to change our system and change the way that it works.

 

Do something fun for yourself, too, because YOU deserve it! And always take care.

Thank you,

Jennifer"

 
 
 

   
I GOT TOP FUCKING BLOG #2!!!!!!!!!!!!

HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!!! "MY BIG STEP VOL. 3" GOT A FUCKING TOP BLOG!!!!! TOP BLOG #2!!!!! IN TWO YEARS THIS IS THE SECOND TOP BLOG THAT I HAVE EVER HAD, AND THE FIRST ONE WAS JUST #6 AND IT WAS JUST PLAIN SILLY!!!! OMG, I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE THIS!!!! A DEEP, MEANINGFUL ENTRY OF MINE NOT ONLY MADE TOP BLOG, BUT IT GOT ALL THE WAY UP TO #2!!!! HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!!! OMG!!!! THIS IS ALMOST TOO MUCH TO TAKE!!!! OMG, OMG, OMG!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH MINDSAY!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH TO ALL OF YOU WHO RECOGNIZE THAT I HAVE MADE MY FIRST BIG STEP TO CHANGE AND I HAVE IN FACT STARTED TO!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!! I WOULD BUY EVERYONE WHO NOMINATED THAT ENTRY WONDERFUL GIFTS IF I COULD, BECAUSE YOU HAVE JUST GIVEN ME ONE!!!! THANK YOU SO VERY FUCKING MUCH, AND THANK YOU MSDANIA FOR TELLING ME THAT I GOT A TOP BLOG!!! WOOO!!!

 

haha, i just realized- it's my second top blog, and it's top blog #2. that's kinda funny. OMG, WOOO!!!! :D!!!!!

 
 
   
 

*phew*

Stuart doesn't hate me! He's the only person in my life that's actually THANKED ME for saying something like that to him instead of just being like, "Fuck you, I don't have a problem!," or, "Get out of my life, you fucking bitch!" Sometimes I'm amazed at how lucky I am to have certain people in my life. I just keep feeling more and more empowered this week. I really hope that this doesn't get to my head. A part of me is afraid that now something REALLY HUGE and REALLY BAD is going to happen to bring me down, but I just need to remember that I am a good person. I am beautiful, intelligent, sweet, caring, strong, and bold, just like people have told me all along. I'm a long way from loving myself, but I'm going in the right direction. I even called that one therapist on Friday despite all the drama that was going on, and I almost started crying a little when we first started talking, but I gave her the short story on my experience and after that I was so calm, but not apathetic. I still hurt and I was still angry, but I am a powerful woman and I am going to live through what happened to me.

 

Off Topic Side Note: There are FROGS outside my window! This is the first time I've heard them out there, and I've been here since August! At first I thought it was fake, but no, there are actually FROGS! Excitement!

 
 
 

   
My Reply to President Richmond
Sorry if you already read this, but I thought it would be better as a seperate entry. Anyway, he sent the stuff from the previous post out as an e-mail to everyone in the student body and didn't just post it as a news report, so I decided to take the opportunity to write a reply. I tried to keep it as calm and kind as possible, and I really hope he does take me seriously. it's unlikely, I know, but I figured I might as well try to say something to him. I wonder if other students wrote back? I think I did alright.

 

"Hello President Richmond,

 

I can't help but ask, where were you when we were having the rally? It would have been great if you came and said something to the students that were there. Many students are still unimpressed with your absense and can't help but wonder if you do really care. I know that that's very bold of me to say, but based on what I was told this university stands for, I feel that I have the freedom to say it. It seems like you're more concerned with bringing in new students than taking care of the ones that are already here. A good place to start working on campus safety is to make sure that all of the blue light things work because most of them don't, and putting up more would be great. Also if areas like the parking lot behind the library and like the stairs coming up from LKWood were better lit, safety would be less of an issue. I know that the budget is tight, but maybe you can take money from maintaining the gates or the plants on campus and put it towards that, because I'd rather be safe on a campus full of weeds than get raped on one that looks like the Garden of Eden. I hope you condiser what I've said rather than just brush it aside, because this is serious. I thank you for taking the time out to read this.

 

Thank you, sincerly,
Jennifer Ruiz"

 

I just felt that I had the right to say something, and though unlikely, I hope that I'm not the only one that did. If enough people write emails and enough people complain, you never know what can happen.

 
 
   
 

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