Band Dance Date @ MindSay 
A wish; a hope; a dream; a vision; a desire; a want...
An unlikely future. All of those terms perfectly describe this idea, this wanted yet unwanted feeling. I might as well call this whole blog "Meredith's aspirations and her moments of bitchiness." Yup, that sums up what it seems to be now. I guess I should start with the story now, huh?
Well, band banquet is coming up! OH YES!!!
....Oh no. I don't have a damn date! GRRRRRR y'kno if I was flirty enough or prettier or skinnier or just more outgoing, I might have a date. But... that's not the case. Ok, I'd be perfectly fine with not having a date, but I kno that come banquet when everybody's slow dancing with their dates and are having a good time, I'm gonna be that girl on the side just watching and wishing that it were different... and then the nerdy kids who wanted to ask me as a date or did ask me as a date and I said no because they practically stalk me [seriously, random myspace messages, text messages, phone calls when I DIDN'T give them my phone number...] are going to start coming up to me saying "Would you like to dance?" and I'm not going to be able to hide anywhere. My friends will either pity me or say "Well it's her own fault for not getting a date." Seriously, no self esteem on my part.
And then there's the guy I'd LIKE to go with. The guy I have a very tiny small crush on. The guy I've always thought was cute and was nice and had a great sense of humor [humor is a MUST for me and is a great turn on, too. If you can't make me laugh, then don't bother. And I don't mean laugh like 'heh...that's funny.' =] I mean like serious belly-aching laughing, where I'm swinging my head back and laughing really loud. :D] and was a good friend. I'd like to ask him, but I don't kno how. For starters....he's 4 years older than me. We're in the same section and we're actually pretty good friends. Not GREAT, but good. We can carry on a conversation and we're close enough where we can hug and exchange secrets and I can cry on his shoulder and I kno he'll be there for me [which is what I love about him the most.] Now, I kno we'd never date, at least not while I'm still in high school, but even after that probably never so I kno boundaries and I accept that fact. I'd still like to go with him as a date though. Also he doesn't have a date, and I don't have a date. I JUST DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO!!!
OK, so now I'm going to ask you to bear with me because this gets confusing. Vision 1: I had a dream. A dream where I was at school and I was enjoying my day and even though some weird things happened it was good. Fast forward dream; It was lunch time and it was D lunch. D lunch is the last lunch. Most seniors who have D lunch and then senior release for last period usually just leave and don't bother going to lunch. Ok, so I'm dreaming and in my dream the guy I want to take as a date comes to D lunch. He NEVER has come to D lunch because it's not his lunch and he's a senior so why bother staying?? Ok, REALITY: Less than a week since I had that dream, the guy actually comes to my lunch!! How weird as that? Ok, I'm not psychic but I've had several of these dreams lately and I've had a lot of deja vue's.
Vision 2: Quick version; my date for banquet is the guy I want to be my date. He's there! And we're having fun, and we actually act like a couple almost. Is this dream possible?? At least the part about him being my date?? I wish it were. I hope it is! So now I can either talk to my friend about asking him for me, or I can ask him myself [which I really don't want to do because I'm a wuss, I'll stutter a lot, and I'm afraid of confrontation], or just ignore and either find some one else or go alone. Any ideas???
hey!! i might have a date to the band dance afterall!! his name is Caleb!! hge is 12 and has long hair!! kinda like what caleb bannin's hair looked like!! i haven't seen him or met him yet!! he is one of my mom's friend's son!! he sounds cute!! i hope we end up goin together!! he doesn't wear any other kind of clothes except for abricrombie!! he sounds really cute!! he isn't a misfit or goth!! he sounds perfect...almost too perfect!! ya know!! but anyways...wendy is gettin a pic of him to night!! well g2g!! tell me wat ya'll think of him!!
Love ya'll all!!
~Linz~
*hey ya'll!! wut up?? nmh!! tomorrow is school!! i like school tho!! brittany went home bout 4:30!! o well!! i'll c her tomorrow!! we each lost a pair of pants today!! i am mad!! i hadn't even worn them yet!! they still had the tags on!! i'll find them!!
*i am so sad right now!! i have been crying but feel like crying more right now!! i am dicouraged b/c i don't have a date to the band dance and everyone else does!! it is 28 days awsy!! my best friend hates me right now and she's at my house for the night!! great!! not!! i just feel so bad!! i'm not sure i wanna go to the dance anymore!! i want jesse to go w/ me but he has already said no!! i am so mad, sad, and dicouraged!! all at the same time!! i am thinking of telling my mom i'm not going!! if ya'll have any ideas of how to help me PLEASE do!!
*on another note there was a wreck on my road tonight!! it was Christy, Brinly, and Jordan Willams!! Jordan has a skull fracture, Brinly has a broken foot, and and Christy has a broken pelvis and neck!! !! i hope they are all alright!!
*bak to the band dance thing!! if any of my friends have ideas bout who i should ask tell me!! anyone can help tho!! i will GREATLY appreciate anyone's help!!
*My brother got babtized today!! i am so happy for him!! i haven't yet!! i want to soon tho!!
*Me and britt have the whole band dance day planned out!!
1. we will get our hair done at manazary!!
2. we will get our nails done!!
3.britt will get her make-up done!!
4. we will come to my house and britt will do my make-up!!
5. we will get ready and go eat w/ our dates!!
* sounds good to me!! lol!!
* ms. wendy that my mom works w/ has a son named caleb and i might go w/ him!! mom is gonna ask ms. wendy bout how old he is and all!! i've never seen ms. wendy or her kids!! this should be exciting!!!
* well how do ya'll like the new site?? i think its cute!! i really like it!!
well...g2g!!
love ya'll all!!
Linz